oke, like i was telln jamee, i think i'll tell u. my health is rapidly dropping. i think my arteries are blocked or something. i feel my airways bloated n stuff, , its hard 2 breathe in hot places and warm places, and yea.....hmmmm, but dont worry, i wont die on u! wahaha. im majorly exagerating. but ive bn feelin real unhealthy lately. iv been completely stuffn my poor self with the junk of this cheap world. ohh bumm. iv bn eatn lotsa hot junk food n lotsa sugar. i think its disintergrating me. eating me up on the inside, slowly, invisibly. abit like how a black hole works. ehehehe n cos im a STARRR it may apply. oOOhhh HIIII STTARRS if ur a star n readn this. u rok!!! lol
hmmmmm...im only allowed to go on the net 3 times this week. its gonan be hard, painful. but i KNO i can pull thru...i think? newayz i wanna watch: MADAGASTA. man it looks sooo goooood!!! man, i wanna do the kids movie marathon!! cos yea, it'd be pretty aws!!! wanna come? i wanna do it sometime inbetween exams, cept mum thinks itsa completely insane idea, lol [and lovn it!] but i didnt hear her say no wen i asked. WAHAHAH, itsa beaut isn it? but i shouldn count on it. tho i think i'll go on the weekend after next. n therer is NO WAYY im stayn home for the whole weekend. i go bombard the movies on sat & bumm bumm bumm. n then on sunday i'll go mornin service n stick around 4 dance n then BUM BUM BUM n then stay 4 wellbeing and then hopefully go out afta that. i dont plan to stay at home!! :]
GUESSS WATTT!! ummm, i lost it. oh bumm! newayz. im cuttn down on the 'u suck's, which is good. so yea, if u hear me sayin 'u suck' tell me to shuusshh oke? deal? sweet. hmmmmmmmmm, man jensun's msg on sunday was soooooooooo rokn!!!!!! man i lovd it!!! I CANT BELIEVE HIS LEAVING!!!! aarrrgghhhh, its sooo insane! mate, we always got pplz leaving. im not questioning God, his stuff is way better, n i guess i'll neva understand. i cant see the big picture, all i can see is that wen pplz get really build up AWS, You [God] call them elswhere. *shrugs. ur will be done. just that no1's gona be able to replace jensun...no1 can replace any1 else. n its always painful saying goodbye to pplz, evn if ur happy 4 em riite? man, really gona miss him! n jo 2!! ohh bumm...i dont think iv told him how aws i think he is. i think i should....
I WANNNA GO TO THE CIRCUS!!!! u kno the circus the really really really koool one??? umm, not the one wit all the clowns n stuff, the one wen their pretty serious, ummm, liek its really beaut! oh bumm i dun evn kno wat its calld. but i really really really wanna go wen they come back around! take me oke? well i guess i dont mind wat circus, but that circus is the one i wanna go realll badd!
I remember when we met, before I was invisible.
I thought I'd play it hard to get, pretend I'm unapproachable.
But somebody else came along and took all the chances that I missed.
Stuck on the sideline I keep thinking 'there she goes'...
Falling like rain...
No, I don't get to hold her tonight.
Falling like rain...
I was pushed to the back of the line.
'Cause even though I need her love and crave her touch,
I guess I wasn't fast enough.
She's falling like rain,
Just not for me.
Not for me, no, no...
Why I took the longest road I'll have to plead insanity.
It's like my pride put on a show and didn't sell a single seat.
While I was talking in riddles, somebody else made perfect sense.
Stuck on the outside I keep thinking 'there she goes'...
Falling like rain...
No, I don't get to hold her tonight.
Falling like rain...
I was pushed to the back of the line. '
Cause even though I need her love and crave her touch,
I guess I wasn't fast enough.
She's falling like rain,
Just not for me. Just not for me.
What do you do, what do you say
when the best thing has passed you by?
Where do you go, how do you know,
if she'll come back another time?
(She's falling like rain) Falling like rain...
(She's falling like rain) Ooh oh oh...
(She's falling like rain) Falling like rain...
(She's falling) She's falling...
(She's falling like) Rain...
(No I dont get to hold her tonight)
Won't get to hold her...
(Falling like rain) Falling like rain...
(I was pushed to the back of the line) Pushed to the back of the line.
(Cause even though I need her love) Need her love...
(and crave her touch) I guess I wasn't fast enough.
(She's falling like rain) Just not for me.
She's falling like rain...
soo newayz, enough of me...howz life 4 u, beaut reader?
oh GOODNESSSSS!! u kno how philly was kinda pickd up by that lil yr 7 chik or something? well now he got "рні׀׀ір L-о-V-з-ѕ Lyийз!" on his nic!! im like DUDE R U KIDN ME. im like:
"who's lynne?"
"that gal"
"WHOOOOAAAA, so shez ya gf now?"
"not yet, patience my friend"
...yada yada, ,asks me if im jealos...PFFFFTTT
newayz, yea, i told him 2 watch it. dwan him makn random chix his gf. man, this guy!! PIMP-to-be!! ohh bumm, i h8 it wen guys du that! well he asked her out n still waitn on reply. but yea, hmmm....u guys dunno who he is...good. ohh bumm, i hope his serious. the last time i remmebr he hadda gf, this otha really cute chik, well it wasn too serious, i askd him later what hapened 2 her n his just like "*shrugs, havn talkd 2 her in ages, i dont think we're bf/gf nemore" i was like....CMON!!! newayz. i really want this guy 2 be carefull, but how 2 i tell him not to jump into things like this [he jus met the gurl like 2 wks ago...or lesss] witout soundn all up-tite? ohh bumm, cos his gona ruin himself if he carries on like this. his 1st gf was at like....yr 5 or 6, dunno... PHILLYYY!!!!
hmmm, jammee wont give me his blogg, his probly readn this now...HI~!! wahahah
ummmm...wat to say??? really needa studdddyyyyyyyyy now. i din study....n mum's kinda dissapointed, i can smell it. oh bumm, i jst cant stand it!!
*sigh....
YOURAWSUM...BEAUT...SMILEeee! :]
rok on!
Life ain't gonna get any better. You are.
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Saturday, May 28, 2005
the koolest ride...literally
just returned from a kool return bike ride. lets see, i felt like takn a walk. so i walk to the skool near by {a common rutene}, n realise that i was halfway to nate's place. n my good ole bike was still there. *shrugs, y not go the whole way to retreive my beloved bike! waha! i was missin' its presence newayz. so i walk to nate's place. n it was pitter-patting most of the way. a nice sweet dribble of rain. was quite an experience! newayz, for a change i was wearn ma's jumper zipper thing. so it wasn too cold. tho i was wearn a singlet top underneath ehehe, i was quite surprised my trackies werent sweepn the ground. i think i growd! well yea, so evrynow n then i'd bring my hands up to my face to shelter my cheeks n nose, but that was like, evry 10mins for like a few secs only. newayz, on the way to nate's place i thought i was lost. got abit confused, but ended up on the rite road. so yup..
ring the doorbell, leanne answers. n yea, very short exchange of conversation, n she opened the garage! it was a rewarding site. so see my ole bike all dry n stuff. well my ride home was short n sweet, n the breeze was colder cos i was goin faster. n yea, a very very nice sensation. cooool and freeee. itsa happy feeling!!! u should probly try it some day, bike riding on a nice cool autumn dayy! wahaha....i was able to enjoy it more than the average azn, cos i dont get cold....that easily newayz. God's good :]
oOohhh, very kool song. 'again' by faith evans. its all about how if she had to live all over again, she wouldn take away the rain cos it made her who she was. n how she new 'He' was watchn over. i think she means God. pretty sure. but yea, heard it/saw it on video hits. it was break time inbetween the cartoons on sat morn, so we flickd chanels, newayz....man shez pretttty as! n yeaaa, her voice and her song made her prettier! i got excited, cos christian music is weaving its way into mainstream music :] woohoo!!
here, i'll chuk on the lyrics. eheh, i think i'll write lyrics to a song evry post...
Now I done felt a lot of pain
And i done seen a lot of things.
(Im strugglin, And broken hearts, and fancy cars)
And even though my money changed,
I tried my best to stay the same.
But you know with mo money, mo problems came.
(Chorus)
If I had to do it all again,
I wouldnt take away the rain,
Cuz i know it made me who I am.
If I had to do it all again,
I've learned so much from my mistakes,
And thats how I know he's watching me.
In ATL i caught a case,
And the media tried to say,
I had a habit, I couldnt manage, And I'm throwing my life away.
But everything aint what it seems,
Just because its on TV.
Cuz they speculate, and exagerate for a better story.
(chorus)
(Nobody knows what life may be)
It might make you happy, It might make you sad.
(but i know theres reason for everything)
Thats why I keep believing,
What ever's meant to be, Is gonna be.
ring the doorbell, leanne answers. n yea, very short exchange of conversation, n she opened the garage! it was a rewarding site. so see my ole bike all dry n stuff. well my ride home was short n sweet, n the breeze was colder cos i was goin faster. n yea, a very very nice sensation. cooool and freeee. itsa happy feeling!!! u should probly try it some day, bike riding on a nice cool autumn dayy! wahaha....i was able to enjoy it more than the average azn, cos i dont get cold....that easily newayz. God's good :]
oOohhh, very kool song. 'again' by faith evans. its all about how if she had to live all over again, she wouldn take away the rain cos it made her who she was. n how she new 'He' was watchn over. i think she means God. pretty sure. but yea, heard it/saw it on video hits. it was break time inbetween the cartoons on sat morn, so we flickd chanels, newayz....man shez pretttty as! n yeaaa, her voice and her song made her prettier! i got excited, cos christian music is weaving its way into mainstream music :] woohoo!!
here, i'll chuk on the lyrics. eheh, i think i'll write lyrics to a song evry post...
Now I done felt a lot of pain
And i done seen a lot of things.
(Im strugglin, And broken hearts, and fancy cars)
And even though my money changed,
I tried my best to stay the same.
But you know with mo money, mo problems came.
(Chorus)
If I had to do it all again,
I wouldnt take away the rain,
Cuz i know it made me who I am.
If I had to do it all again,
I've learned so much from my mistakes,
And thats how I know he's watching me.
In ATL i caught a case,
And the media tried to say,
I had a habit, I couldnt manage, And I'm throwing my life away.
But everything aint what it seems,
Just because its on TV.
Cuz they speculate, and exagerate for a better story.
(chorus)
(Nobody knows what life may be)
It might make you happy, It might make you sad.
(but i know theres reason for everything)
Thats why I keep believing,
What ever's meant to be, Is gonna be.
(Chorus x2)
i rkn newayz.oOOhh, ,actually this song is funkky too!!! man i really feel like dancin now!!!! hmmmm...ali's got all these real sweet pics of gilmore girls up, n its about rory n her boys, lol. shez sucha player!! newayz, its makes u wonder. well makes me wonder newayz...how u could play with pplz love, wen u s'posably love them crazy, she loves them ALL. *sigh, thers a problem there *shrugs
immm gona eatttt now!! cyazz
SMILE!!! catchaz all later!!
oOOhhh, b4 i 4get. YOUTH WAS SOOOOOOOOOOO INSANE!! pasta did an AW-smakkin-SUM job up there! well done mate!. it was kool as! no1 expected him 2 be soo good @ preachn! it just really shows the potential huh? ehehe. well it was awsum! n if u dont go 2 a youth, join ours! always welcome!
ROK ON!
howz it like, being a LAB-RAT!!! wahahahahaha
wahahahaahhaha, guess wat!!! my sis is a lab rat!!! BAHAHAHAHA, ehehe, its sooooooooo funny!. cos they gotta wire her up 2 all this machinery n they play with her knee. newayz, dinner 2day was AWSUM! it was real funn!! LIKE, we were all eating n i was jokn wit ali about how she was labrat, n how she shouldn trust em cos they'll start playn wit her head. LOL. newayz, then we got to the topic about photographic memory and then to genius's, n dad was telln us how some genius was scared to go to the beach cos he would try count all the grains of sand! WAHAHAHAHAHAHA...n then it hit me
"hey!! im glad im not a genius!" -me
"AHAH, same here" -mum
"BUT, what u rkn i'd be like if i was" -me
"lets not go there, ur not a genius" -mum
"im not very smart" -dad
"WAHAHAHA" -me&ali
"well, u see im not very smart because..." -dad
"AHA! so i got it from YOU!!" -me
"im not very smart because it take me a looong time to shop, theres so much to choose from" -dad
"why? cos u want to count evrythign on the shelf?" -me
we're all laughn, n its insane!!!
n then we go thru the whole 'thats-so-azn' thing, bout how dad took a while to choose which biscuits to buy cos he had to compare the price and the weight etc etc n how he took ages to choose which suger to get, because he wants the 'healthiest one' like, the organic ones etc etc....man, its ridiculous!!! newayz, that was funny....
LOOOOKk!!!------>>>>>>>>>>
yea, there!! how kool is that???
ummmmm, i can smell foood. i think dindin nearly done....
i got 3 days till the bloddbath. its gonan be horrific and groutique, bloody and violent...it calls itself...EXAMS! woohoooo!! but dont worry 4 me...oke, ,just eaten..well newayz, ,where were we? dont worry about me, i'll fite it like a man!!! :] {dont i always??}
my sis jus put the camm on the charger, to charge it *duh. n shez like:
"hey nic, if i leave it here, will u 4get to bring it to youth?"
"yup"
"you suk!"
"heeheehee"
"u dont need to ask to know the answer" -ma
sometimes its black
sometimes it white
sometimes shez wrong
sometimes im riite
sometimes we talk about it
n we'll figure it out
but then she'd just change her mind
sometimes shez hot
sometimes im cold
sometimes my head wants to explode
but wen i think about it
im soo in love with her
...evry other time!!
^---chorus...man, i think i mite just write out the whole song. eheheh, its aws!!!
cmon! na na na na na na na na na nan an a naa na
i said "lets talk about it",
as she walked out on me n slammed the door
but i just laugh about it cos shez always playing those games
deep down i kno she loves me but shez got a funny way of showing me how she cares
last nite she did a donut on my lawn
n drove out wit her finger in the air
ohh yeaaa
chorus
sometimes we sit around,
just the two of us on the park banch
sometimes we swim around
like 2 dolfins in the ocean of hearts?
but then i think about the time
when we broke up b4 the prom
and you told evryone that i was gay, oke?
sometimes i walk around the town
for hours just to settle down
but i take u back
n u kick me down
cos thats the way uh huh, uh huh
i like it
chorus
keep it up home gurl
dont u quit
u know the way u scream
is the ultimate
n wen i walk away just watch the clock
i bet i dont even get around the block
and i'll say 'lets talk about it' as she walks out on me n she slams the door
but we'll just laugh about it, ,cos we're always playn those games
chorus
keep it up home gurl
dont u quit
u know the way u scream
is the ultimate
n wen i walk away just watch the clock
i bet i dont even get around the block
na na na na na, na na na, na na na, nanananananananana
oOOooh yea, evry other time
ehehehe. i LOVE that!! eheheh, ,its OLE SKOOL! LIKE, REALL OLE SKOOL. by LFO. album's called 'life is good' how true is that!! wahaha SMILE!
:]
i think i'll be off now!!
cyazzz...OOohhh. i'll try be like mikeee. i'll mention my commenters...ur AWS
hmmm, mikee dun comment tho! mikee! if u dont comment soon, ur buying me a cammy!
choko n nate, wahahah. u guys r gettn to hyped about the singles nite. wahahaha. newayz. yea, thats kool. i dunno what to say....hi?
jaz, ur awsum! i like u shoes! WAHAHAHA, n ur sox, n ur hair. wait. wahaha, just all of u's good!!
hmmm, n other onlookers n commentors that i havnt mentiond, comment to remind me ur alive. wahahahah
hmmm. jamee dunno i haffa blog, n he wont read it. but SMILE newayz!! man, nowadays its soo hard 4 him 2 smile! like i gotta FORCE him....n he just dus a quik one to make me happy!! arrrghhh. chillax man!! *sigh. hmmm, n he cant come to youth cos he always has stuff on. but man, after exams. he hasta come! i'll make him. bahahah
i hope atanu's oke. i pray his oke. lol. i hope i see him on monday, i hope he comes to skool. i hope his more than half-desent. oh God, plz watch him. hmmm, i hope there wasn a fight today. pray that jamo n alex din fight too much eitha. hope there wasn a fight at all. hope they just ignore it all. how do i help? bumma, its gonna be evn worse now that im movn outta their class, n im gona loose contact with them, im not gona have a chance to be close? or will i? i wont be in-tuned with their issues, jamo wont be able to graffiti my diary anymore. atanu wont be there to punch. alex wont be there to ignore. *sigh. let it go? can i? i dont wanna!!!!! arrrghhh!! *faints
"hey!! im glad im not a genius!" -me
"AHAH, same here" -mum
"BUT, what u rkn i'd be like if i was" -me
"lets not go there, ur not a genius" -mum
"im not very smart" -dad
"WAHAHAHA" -me&ali
"well, u see im not very smart because..." -dad
"AHA! so i got it from YOU!!" -me
"im not very smart because it take me a looong time to shop, theres so much to choose from" -dad
"why? cos u want to count evrythign on the shelf?" -me
we're all laughn, n its insane!!!
n then we go thru the whole 'thats-so-azn' thing, bout how dad took a while to choose which biscuits to buy cos he had to compare the price and the weight etc etc n how he took ages to choose which suger to get, because he wants the 'healthiest one' like, the organic ones etc etc....man, its ridiculous!!! newayz, that was funny....
LOOOOKk!!!------>>>>>>>>>>
yea, there!! how kool is that???
ummmmm, i can smell foood. i think dindin nearly done....
i got 3 days till the bloddbath. its gonan be horrific and groutique, bloody and violent...it calls itself...EXAMS! woohoooo!! but dont worry 4 me...oke, ,just eaten..well newayz, ,where were we? dont worry about me, i'll fite it like a man!!! :] {dont i always??}
my sis jus put the camm on the charger, to charge it *duh. n shez like:
"hey nic, if i leave it here, will u 4get to bring it to youth?"
"yup"
"you suk!"
"heeheehee"
"u dont need to ask to know the answer" -ma
sometimes its black
sometimes it white
sometimes shez wrong
sometimes im riite
sometimes we talk about it
n we'll figure it out
but then she'd just change her mind
sometimes shez hot
sometimes im cold
sometimes my head wants to explode
but wen i think about it
im soo in love with her
...evry other time!!
^---chorus...man, i think i mite just write out the whole song. eheheh, its aws!!!
cmon! na na na na na na na na na nan an a naa na
i said "lets talk about it",
as she walked out on me n slammed the door
but i just laugh about it cos shez always playing those games
deep down i kno she loves me but shez got a funny way of showing me how she cares
last nite she did a donut on my lawn
n drove out wit her finger in the air
ohh yeaaa
chorus
sometimes we sit around,
just the two of us on the park banch
sometimes we swim around
like 2 dolfins in the ocean of hearts?
but then i think about the time
when we broke up b4 the prom
and you told evryone that i was gay, oke?
sometimes i walk around the town
for hours just to settle down
but i take u back
n u kick me down
cos thats the way uh huh, uh huh
i like it
chorus
keep it up home gurl
dont u quit
u know the way u scream
is the ultimate
n wen i walk away just watch the clock
i bet i dont even get around the block
and i'll say 'lets talk about it' as she walks out on me n she slams the door
but we'll just laugh about it, ,cos we're always playn those games
chorus
keep it up home gurl
dont u quit
u know the way u scream
is the ultimate
n wen i walk away just watch the clock
i bet i dont even get around the block
na na na na na, na na na, na na na, nanananananananana
oOOooh yea, evry other time
ehehehe. i LOVE that!! eheheh, ,its OLE SKOOL! LIKE, REALL OLE SKOOL. by LFO. album's called 'life is good' how true is that!! wahaha SMILE!
:]
i think i'll be off now!!
cyazzz...OOohhh. i'll try be like mikeee. i'll mention my commenters...ur AWS
hmmm, mikee dun comment tho! mikee! if u dont comment soon, ur buying me a cammy!
choko n nate, wahahah. u guys r gettn to hyped about the singles nite. wahahaha. newayz. yea, thats kool. i dunno what to say....hi?
jaz, ur awsum! i like u shoes! WAHAHAHA, n ur sox, n ur hair. wait. wahaha, just all of u's good!!
hmmm, n other onlookers n commentors that i havnt mentiond, comment to remind me ur alive. wahahahah
hmmm. jamee dunno i haffa blog, n he wont read it. but SMILE newayz!! man, nowadays its soo hard 4 him 2 smile! like i gotta FORCE him....n he just dus a quik one to make me happy!! arrrghhh. chillax man!! *sigh. hmmm, n he cant come to youth cos he always has stuff on. but man, after exams. he hasta come! i'll make him. bahahah
i hope atanu's oke. i pray his oke. lol. i hope i see him on monday, i hope he comes to skool. i hope his more than half-desent. oh God, plz watch him. hmmm, i hope there wasn a fight today. pray that jamo n alex din fight too much eitha. hope there wasn a fight at all. hope they just ignore it all. how do i help? bumma, its gonna be evn worse now that im movn outta their class, n im gona loose contact with them, im not gona have a chance to be close? or will i? i wont be in-tuned with their issues, jamo wont be able to graffiti my diary anymore. atanu wont be there to punch. alex wont be there to ignore. *sigh. let it go? can i? i dont wanna!!!!! arrrghhh!! *faints
Thursday, May 26, 2005
oke oke, i 4got to say b4 about a hilarious situation 2day...
oke oke, like last period, further analysis test....its a double sided test, ,THATS it!! n yea, i sat down, gettn deep into the 1st page n realise that i REALLY NEEDA GO PEE! so yes, i dismiss the thout n turn the page, to my dismay, its all about scatterplots. i remember Miss talkn bout scatterplots in class, wait....all i can remember is yakkn yakkn to jaz abotu evrything....i DONT EVN KNOW WAT A SCATTERPLOT Is!!! al i remember is turning to the page in my mathsbook, i saw a scatterplot but was only interested in joining the dots...so me n jaz joined the dots n it lookd like an animal!! it was sooooooo koool!....newayz, back to trying to figure out what a scatterplot is....turns outt i rack my brain n get nowhere, chances are i failed the test....
i stare puzzled at my sheet until the teacher collects it...i stand up n my gut starts sendn messages to my brain, like "U NEEDA PEE U NEEDA PEE!! HURRY UP, OR I'LL EXPLODE!!" n man, it was painful, evry step i took i recieved a pang of pain. but jaz took my books for me [thanx jaz, saved me yet again] n i rushed to the toilet, where i releived myself....so yea
it turns out my gut didn't self distruct....n im still ALIVE!! here now! neva fear!
wahahaha!! but man!!! it was soooooo weird....n i think my test has dragged down my average....oh bumm! good thing im movin outta class next semester!!...i think???
ROK ON!!!!!! :]
oke oke, like last period, further analysis test....its a double sided test, ,THATS it!! n yea, i sat down, gettn deep into the 1st page n realise that i REALLY NEEDA GO PEE! so yes, i dismiss the thout n turn the page, to my dismay, its all about scatterplots. i remember Miss talkn bout scatterplots in class, wait....all i can remember is yakkn yakkn to jaz abotu evrything....i DONT EVN KNOW WAT A SCATTERPLOT Is!!! al i remember is turning to the page in my mathsbook, i saw a scatterplot but was only interested in joining the dots...so me n jaz joined the dots n it lookd like an animal!! it was sooooooo koool!....newayz, back to trying to figure out what a scatterplot is....turns outt i rack my brain n get nowhere, chances are i failed the test....
i stare puzzled at my sheet until the teacher collects it...i stand up n my gut starts sendn messages to my brain, like "U NEEDA PEE U NEEDA PEE!! HURRY UP, OR I'LL EXPLODE!!" n man, it was painful, evry step i took i recieved a pang of pain. but jaz took my books for me [thanx jaz, saved me yet again] n i rushed to the toilet, where i releived myself....so yea
it turns out my gut didn't self distruct....n im still ALIVE!! here now! neva fear!
wahahaha!! but man!!! it was soooooo weird....n i think my test has dragged down my average....oh bumm! good thing im movin outta class next semester!!...i think???
ROK ON!!!!!! :]
1st time paid out
yup, as the title sugguests, this is the 1st time i was paid out about being a christian, i thought it would neva happen! but hey!! the world's constantly provin' me wrong!!! hmmm, yea, it was in viscom class....i was copyin down some info about different techniques n stuff, n im sittn round the guys cos they were copying down stuff too...so yea, sittn round jon, kav n adrian. well jon dun swear that much around me cos he knows i dont like it, so he cuts down wen his around me. but yea, adrain n kav were jokn round, but man!!! kav swears sooo much!!! n it sounded so stoopid! so i was like:
"ey, mate stop swearing" it wasn ina challenging tone eitha
"why? is God gonna punish me? cos God can just kiss my ass"
....alott of mockery...
"am i going to go to hell?" kav had gone pretty farr by this stage
"at the rate ur going" i know i shouldn't have said that, but i wasn thinkn as much as i shoulda. well the whole while i was keepn my eyes on my work n just answering to him, but neva actually making eye contact wit him.
"what, r u saying im going to hell?"
wat was i thinking!! asif he wouldn't take it personally!! riite? aiii
newayz, movinnnn on!!
WHOOOAAAA, man, this really funyn thing hapenedd today, but i fergot....so now i cant tel u all about it!!...oOOohhh, we had pizza for dinner!!!! i only had 4 pieces, cos in the car we snacked out on prawn crackers...hmmmm, ummmm...oh bum, i cant remember!!!!!
well, before i 4get anything more, i'll just say u looked pretty kool 2day. like, u chix lookd pretty amazin', n u fellaz were lookn quite smashn! :] ehehehe, and cmon! would i lie to you? NOnononon! *duh...
i think i can go 2 kirun's formal, but its gonna be kinda weird cos i'll feel like a random!
hmmmm, dunno whats hapening wit the wcc formal...lol, dunno if im still invited??
lol, it was pretty funny cos at dinner, i asked mum if i could go 2 kirun's formal....so mum's like:
"ask dad! Hey dad, can nikki go to a formal"
"no, she already made up her mind about not going to the formal when she decided to go to the deb"
"no dad, this is different, a BOY asked UR DAUGHTER to another formall"
"oOOhhh"
man, they paid me out for a while, n mate! MY SISTER!! shez soooo....wuurrrrr..."oOOhh kirun kirun kirun. blah blah blah!!!"
newayz, yea. it turns out i think i can go cos i was invited by a BOY to anotha formal...big whoop?
ummmm, wats up now? im a tad cold, but nothing dramatic. but im wearing singlet top, which preobly explains it...wahahahaha
oOOOHhhhhhhh b4 i 4get...the whoel thing about mentors!!!!!!! I REMEMBERD!! woohooo! is evry1 proud of me? eheheh :]
well yea, the whole topic about mentors riite? its kinda confusing, cos i dont think i need any1 to help me thru life. like i dont think i could handle just ONE person helpn me out....in a way, evry1 is a mentor to me, like, evry1z an inspiration. n i lern of evry1. n i think to be restricteed to just one person is kinda scary...and it feels like a chop off my freedom...get me?
well addaz volunteerd to mentor me...i declined. n she askd my sis if she wanted to be mentored...i dunno whats happening wit that. hmm, like...yea
lots of my frriends have mentors. but it doesnt seem like the thing for me. cos having a mentor brings the image of me using some1 as a crutch, n i hate the idea of relying on sum1! like, all my friends r there 4 me, they got my back n all, so do i need sum1 to be closer? i got God riite? yea, i dunno. i think im scared of opening up too. i like being abit mysterious! i liek it how not alotta ppl, mb evn no1 knos the 'deep' me. lol, mainly cos i dun evn understand that part of me...*shrugs
lol, ehehe. im open wit God, well *duh, he knows evrything newayz. but yea, ummm, went round in circles riite? riteo!! ehehe...i'll be about off now....that was weird...
ifCURRYPOWDERdoesn'tBRINGHAPPYNESS
LOOKthentoFLUESENTflashingLIGHTS!!
SMILE! :] XD =p 8)
MY HAIR FLOWS LIKE CARROTS ON FIRE!!! *w0000t!!!
WAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHA, man u would not believe the TONNE of funn [WAHA it rymes!!!] we had at skooool!!! mate, it was horifically awsum!! [i dont know how that works] but yea. newayz!!!1. we did a 1word story riite? u kno how u go around the circle n say one word each n make up a completely hilarious and senseless story!! n man, this ones was soooooo funny! one of the sentences [my fav one] is the title. n yea. some bits were abit stoopid n unkool, but i wasn there wen they did that part. hmmm...bits about skool sux and condoms n stuff...but other then that .it was COMPLETELY awsum!!!
ehehehe......
oOOOhhhh, man. leethea is awsum!! shez soo cute n stuff, n it was really funny cos we were yelling at each other from the other side of the road, just havn a funny convo. oke...its like this. we're infront of skool, n then i go n follow ravi n all his peepz to libry n tell her to come along, so we walk to the libry, n then she hasta go back, so we make a deal! i walk her to halfway to skool n then we go out seperate way!! wahaha [parting's oh sweet sorrow]. newayz, we're talkn the whoel way tryna ctach up on each other. n its real funyn cos she crosses the road n i stay on the other side. n then shez like:
"hey!! oh, i was gonna ask u something"
"just ask!!!" [we were shouting across the cars n over the road]
"ummm, r u sure?"
"yea, its more funn shouting over traffic!"
"ok, soo....do u like anyone!??"
man, i nearly droppd dead here, i was about to burst out laughn, but controlled myself
"NO!.....do u?"
"no"
....
n then we leave.....well i thout it was funny newayz!!
ummm.....what elseee???
i KNO im 4gettn something.....uhh....
im preparing for the bloodbath of exam week, its gonna be nasty!! but i'll fite it like a man!! WAHAHAHA hmmm, care to join me?
JELLY ON THE WINDSHIELD!!
oke, its bn contracted, for evry nite after this that ravii 4gets to do this web page, he buys me a drink evryday! ehehe, awsum! oh yea. SOME1 STOLE MY LUCKYCUP CARD!!! I KNO IT WAS YOU!~!! u cant hide from meeeeee
oke....as unbelievable as it sounds, im speechless. im outta words to say...i gotta further analysis 2moro.....cbb studying....i will.....but i wont spend more than 1/2hr on it....the usual. mate! y isit sooo hard to study!! aiiii, if i can do like....5hrs study 4 each subject, exams n stuff. that'd do me great!! but i dunnoo if i could do that! ahhhh bumma
oke oke
rok on!!
eheheh.....oop! i nearly forgot!! i liked ur hair 2day!! it was madd as! wahahaha.
oOOOOhhhh, b4 i fergot again, there were 2 RAINBOWS 2day!!! n if i din hafta go to the libry, i would chased them n found the pot of gold. except mum woulda told me off cos im only ment to go straight to the libry!! bumma. but it was really awsum, cos just wen u think the sky was finally dull and ghey, u see these 2 rainbows, n it completely makes u smile like a maniacc!! n also, IT RAINED! like, while walkn 2 the libry, but it was soooooo gooood! like, it was lite rain, n rain is AWS!! eheheh
------------------uniki signing off----------------------
rok on! live the simplicity and SMILE :]
oopz, i had to come on again to ask advise.....kirun asked me to his formal...n its kool, cept i kno no1 there but him, n thats unko. n he said he'd pay my ticket which i dotn think i could stop him. n yea, i'd feel in debt if he pays, its on the LAST DAY OF SKOOL! wahahaha. @ international of brighton? heard of it? i havnt. n yea. hmmmm, i askd mum if i can go, but she dusn say yes or no. hmmm, oh bumma, now that i think abotu it. its gonna be awkward cos i dunno kirun 2 well, n yea...oh bumma, the more i think abotu it the less fun it sounds!! I SIMPLY WILL NOT THINK!! I QUIT!! all this thinkn...its too much for me!!...*breaksdown. wahahaha. well yea....wat to dooo????
oke oke, ima off 4 good now....cyazzzz
ehehehe......
oOOOhhhh, man. leethea is awsum!! shez soo cute n stuff, n it was really funny cos we were yelling at each other from the other side of the road, just havn a funny convo. oke...its like this. we're infront of skool, n then i go n follow ravi n all his peepz to libry n tell her to come along, so we walk to the libry, n then she hasta go back, so we make a deal! i walk her to halfway to skool n then we go out seperate way!! wahaha [parting's oh sweet sorrow]. newayz, we're talkn the whoel way tryna ctach up on each other. n its real funyn cos she crosses the road n i stay on the other side. n then shez like:
"hey!! oh, i was gonna ask u something"
"just ask!!!" [we were shouting across the cars n over the road]
"ummm, r u sure?"
"yea, its more funn shouting over traffic!"
"ok, soo....do u like anyone!??"
man, i nearly droppd dead here, i was about to burst out laughn, but controlled myself
"NO!.....do u?"
"no"
....
n then we leave.....well i thout it was funny newayz!!
ummm.....what elseee???
i KNO im 4gettn something.....uhh....
im preparing for the bloodbath of exam week, its gonna be nasty!! but i'll fite it like a man!! WAHAHAHA hmmm, care to join me?
JELLY ON THE WINDSHIELD!!
oke, its bn contracted, for evry nite after this that ravii 4gets to do this web page, he buys me a drink evryday! ehehe, awsum! oh yea. SOME1 STOLE MY LUCKYCUP CARD!!! I KNO IT WAS YOU!~!! u cant hide from meeeeee
oke....as unbelievable as it sounds, im speechless. im outta words to say...i gotta further analysis 2moro.....cbb studying....i will.....but i wont spend more than 1/2hr on it....the usual. mate! y isit sooo hard to study!! aiiii, if i can do like....5hrs study 4 each subject, exams n stuff. that'd do me great!! but i dunnoo if i could do that! ahhhh bumma
oke oke
rok on!!
eheheh.....oop! i nearly forgot!! i liked ur hair 2day!! it was madd as! wahahaha.
oOOOOhhhh, b4 i fergot again, there were 2 RAINBOWS 2day!!! n if i din hafta go to the libry, i would chased them n found the pot of gold. except mum woulda told me off cos im only ment to go straight to the libry!! bumma. but it was really awsum, cos just wen u think the sky was finally dull and ghey, u see these 2 rainbows, n it completely makes u smile like a maniacc!! n also, IT RAINED! like, while walkn 2 the libry, but it was soooooo gooood! like, it was lite rain, n rain is AWS!! eheheh
------------------uniki signing off----------------------
rok on! live the simplicity and SMILE :]
oopz, i had to come on again to ask advise.....kirun asked me to his formal...n its kool, cept i kno no1 there but him, n thats unko. n he said he'd pay my ticket which i dotn think i could stop him. n yea, i'd feel in debt if he pays, its on the LAST DAY OF SKOOL! wahahaha. @ international of brighton? heard of it? i havnt. n yea. hmmmm, i askd mum if i can go, but she dusn say yes or no. hmmm, oh bumma, now that i think abotu it. its gonna be awkward cos i dunno kirun 2 well, n yea...oh bumma, the more i think abotu it the less fun it sounds!! I SIMPLY WILL NOT THINK!! I QUIT!! all this thinkn...its too much for me!!...*breaksdown. wahahaha. well yea....wat to dooo????
oke oke, ima off 4 good now....cyazzzz
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
HEYYY!!!! i made jelly!!!!!! :] n its GREEEENNN!!! n its got lychees, n now i feel like a genius, cos its the 1st time iv made something like that BY MY LONESOME n CLEANED UP all by my lonesum and NOT GET COMPLETELY SICK OF IT b4 i'd tryd what id made. wahahaha, its the ug-gah ug-gah jelly jap thingos!!!! waaaachhhaaaaa!!!! i have now masterd the art of cookn! TRY BEAT ME NOW! BAHAHAHAHAHA
*calms self down.....
SO!...howz life ladies, gents, kids? ummm....my eyes r tired. n i concured 2day!! of course with the great mighty help of my savior! *duh. well, ummmmm. listening to music riite now. tuition was funnny!!! WAHAHAHAHA, man. u 2 [jaz n daryl] r fun/ny. yupyupz
ummm, my fone will is gonan skyrocket this month....*sheepish, oop. its just that now i have the urge to call more people n msg more, n its oh soo costly!!! *sigh. n ima on plan, therefore have no way of keepn track of my fonebill n how much i go over...cos im on a reasonably cheap $9 PLAN! wahaha, n yes, of course im always spilln riite over. asIF i can use less than $9...pffffttt
LOOOK! now im excited n my eyes r tired....hmmm, here, some lyrics so some awsum songs, random songs. enjoy?? [ooOOh yea, b4 i forget, the sky was REALLYREALLY kool 2day!! no seriously!! if u saw it, u woulda said so too!! but u probly did see it. BUT did u see the same awsum awsum arrangement of clouds as me? they were sooooo...perfect? it was as the sun was beginnin to set, n so the clouds kinda 'glowed' cos the sun was on itz background! n it was soooo kooooool!!!! man, a real touchn moment!! awww, my savior rox!!!
everywhere i go i know ur not far awayyy!! ur right here, ur right heree!!
everywhere i go i kno ur not farr awayyy! ur right here! ur right here!! hey yeeaaa
carolineee, let me wipe away your tears and give u life, make you feel beautiful again
carrroline, dont throw it all away! im here tonight, la la la la la la, carrrooolinneee!
on the way down i saw you & u saved me from myself!!
and i wont 4get the way u lovedd me!!
on the way down i allmost fell right through...
but i held on to youuu!!!
because your always there, beside of me,
my favorite friend,
i cant believe the change in me!
ever since u wrapped ur arms around me now
dont ever let me go
i love you!!
lead me on lead me on
to the palce where the river runs into your keeeping
lead me on lead me on
to the place where deliverance covers the seeeking
butterfly kisses after bedtime prayers
stickn little white flowers all up in her hair
"walk beside the pony daddy, its my 1st ride"
"i know the cake looks funny daddy,
but i sure tried!"
oh with all that iv done wrong, i musta done somethingg riiigghtt!
...to deserve a hug everymorning...
and butterfly kisses @ nite!!!
man i love those songs, i'll chuk on more songs later....hmmm....
i kno im 4gettn something....welll, i think i'll end on a happy note...
hi...i totally lost my train of thought....i'll be back. need food fro thought!! WAHAHA
i feel like timtams n milk....mmmmm.....ummm..i'll cut short now....adiiosss earthlings!!!!!!:]
THERE...ummm...i gtgg. my sis thinks i spend too much time on this....i think so 2!
*calms self down.....
SO!...howz life ladies, gents, kids? ummm....my eyes r tired. n i concured 2day!! of course with the great mighty help of my savior! *duh. well, ummmmm. listening to music riite now. tuition was funnny!!! WAHAHAHAHA, man. u 2 [jaz n daryl] r fun/ny. yupyupz
ummm, my fone will is gonan skyrocket this month....*sheepish, oop. its just that now i have the urge to call more people n msg more, n its oh soo costly!!! *sigh. n ima on plan, therefore have no way of keepn track of my fonebill n how much i go over...cos im on a reasonably cheap $9 PLAN! wahaha, n yes, of course im always spilln riite over. asIF i can use less than $9...pffffttt
LOOOK! now im excited n my eyes r tired....hmmm, here, some lyrics so some awsum songs, random songs. enjoy?? [ooOOh yea, b4 i forget, the sky was REALLYREALLY kool 2day!! no seriously!! if u saw it, u woulda said so too!! but u probly did see it. BUT did u see the same awsum awsum arrangement of clouds as me? they were sooooo...perfect? it was as the sun was beginnin to set, n so the clouds kinda 'glowed' cos the sun was on itz background! n it was soooo kooooool!!!! man, a real touchn moment!! awww, my savior rox!!!
everywhere i go i know ur not far awayyy!! ur right here, ur right heree!!
everywhere i go i kno ur not farr awayyy! ur right here! ur right here!! hey yeeaaa
carolineee, let me wipe away your tears and give u life, make you feel beautiful again
carrroline, dont throw it all away! im here tonight, la la la la la la, carrrooolinneee!
on the way down i saw you & u saved me from myself!!
and i wont 4get the way u lovedd me!!
on the way down i allmost fell right through...
but i held on to youuu!!!
because your always there, beside of me,
my favorite friend,
i cant believe the change in me!
ever since u wrapped ur arms around me now
dont ever let me go
i love you!!
lead me on lead me on
to the palce where the river runs into your keeeping
lead me on lead me on
to the place where deliverance covers the seeeking
butterfly kisses after bedtime prayers
stickn little white flowers all up in her hair
"walk beside the pony daddy, its my 1st ride"
"i know the cake looks funny daddy,
but i sure tried!"
oh with all that iv done wrong, i musta done somethingg riiigghtt!
...to deserve a hug everymorning...
and butterfly kisses @ nite!!!
man i love those songs, i'll chuk on more songs later....hmmm....
i kno im 4gettn something....welll, i think i'll end on a happy note...
hi...i totally lost my train of thought....i'll be back. need food fro thought!! WAHAHA
i feel like timtams n milk....mmmmm.....ummm..i'll cut short now....adiiosss earthlings!!!!!!:]
THERE...ummm...i gtgg. my sis thinks i spend too much time on this....i think so 2!
...lying in the fields of grace
man, i needa tell yaz about the most amazing experience on sunday, in wellbeing, at the altercall. it was soooo great n awsum n just soo.....*sigh.....priceless? well, i visited the fields of grace, guided by God, i closed my eyes n let him take me somewhere i'd neva b4 been. i lay down, in the field, my head next to my savior's but we were lying different ways, get me? well we lay there, comfortably. it was the sweetest thing. cos all the while He was telln me how much he loved me. telling me he gave me people to love me cos he wanted me to know he loved me all the time. he told me he was finding new ways to show me He loved me. Said that he loved me over and over. it was the dreamyest place. it was soo good, cos it was so real. n then wen i had to come back to this earthly reality. it was different. cos i know my savior's riite beside me. i dunno why. i always knew it riite? but now i can feel it...
newayz......LIAM ROX!!! thanx man!! he fully maded my day!!! n proved again that God was doing heaps to keep the smile on my face!!! well, cos we got lockerbays near each other, we bumpeed into each other....
"oi stooge!" he always calls me that "gime ur hand"
*he reaches into his shirt pocket to get something, n takes it out, but i cant see it cos his hand is wrapped around it...
"watsit?"
"just gimme ur hand!!"
"no!! tell me what it is!!!" i keep thinkn itsa joke
"GIMME UR HAND!"
"OKE! FINE!"
so i give him my hand n he put this awsum awsum superman bagde in my hand, cos evry1 knows i collect badges, n yea. i was beaming wen i walked away. cos we're always baggn each other, it was a real shock he comes n gives me something...n yea, well that was AWS!
my eyes are going fuzzy! gaaaahhh! I DIN TOUCH MY HW OVER THE WEEEKEND!!! n now its bitting me bak in the bumm! bumma!
i got exams soon. n ali's kickn me off the net soon too.....i cant blogg 2 much over these next 2 weeks, cos of exams. BUMMA! iv been writing more on my memwall lately. it's nearly finishd. OOohhh yea, im makn a habit of calln sum1 evryday, cos it makes pplz happy. n wen ppl are happy i get happy. so its awsum! so yea, if u get a random call from me....just be happy! wahahaha itz kool too. cos its catch up time n yea.....gosh, did u kno my Savior's bn rockn my whole world up soooo much!!!
the trees always look like brocollly now adays, if u stare at them, u'll see it too!!!
the pink cows arent moovin' they never moove, all they do is say moo. how lame!
GUESS WHATTT!!!!!
...to be continued...
LOOOOOK!!! -------->>>>>>>>>>> THERE!!!....yup, thats it! w00hooooooo!
WAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!, lil glenny chix r tryna pik u up phillly!!! HAHAHAHA, this lil duded u was previously askn me about ne hot yr 7 glennian chix, now being pickd up by them. soooo funny! i guess his pretty cute 4 a lil guy, his more like a bro, his in yr 7. was ment 2 come to glenny, n i rkn the chix would be flockn him if he did. but shhhh, dun tell him that, dwan his ego to explode! ehehehe
but yea, phillyz kool! his my lil mate
newayz, ima off abotu now. catchaaz!!!!
SMILE!...laugh...play....FISHERPRICE! wahahaha
[away. leave a message or find me flying]
newayz......LIAM ROX!!! thanx man!! he fully maded my day!!! n proved again that God was doing heaps to keep the smile on my face!!! well, cos we got lockerbays near each other, we bumpeed into each other....
"oi stooge!" he always calls me that "gime ur hand"
*he reaches into his shirt pocket to get something, n takes it out, but i cant see it cos his hand is wrapped around it...
"watsit?"
"just gimme ur hand!!"
"no!! tell me what it is!!!" i keep thinkn itsa joke
"GIMME UR HAND!"
"OKE! FINE!"
so i give him my hand n he put this awsum awsum superman bagde in my hand, cos evry1 knows i collect badges, n yea. i was beaming wen i walked away. cos we're always baggn each other, it was a real shock he comes n gives me something...n yea, well that was AWS!
my eyes are going fuzzy! gaaaahhh! I DIN TOUCH MY HW OVER THE WEEEKEND!!! n now its bitting me bak in the bumm! bumma!
i got exams soon. n ali's kickn me off the net soon too.....i cant blogg 2 much over these next 2 weeks, cos of exams. BUMMA! iv been writing more on my memwall lately. it's nearly finishd. OOohhh yea, im makn a habit of calln sum1 evryday, cos it makes pplz happy. n wen ppl are happy i get happy. so its awsum! so yea, if u get a random call from me....just be happy! wahahaha itz kool too. cos its catch up time n yea.....gosh, did u kno my Savior's bn rockn my whole world up soooo much!!!
the trees always look like brocollly now adays, if u stare at them, u'll see it too!!!
the pink cows arent moovin' they never moove, all they do is say moo. how lame!
GUESS WHATTT!!!!!
...to be continued...
LOOOOOK!!! -------->>>>>>>>>>> THERE!!!....yup, thats it! w00hooooooo!
WAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!, lil glenny chix r tryna pik u up phillly!!! HAHAHAHA, this lil duded u was previously askn me about ne hot yr 7 glennian chix, now being pickd up by them. soooo funny! i guess his pretty cute 4 a lil guy, his more like a bro, his in yr 7. was ment 2 come to glenny, n i rkn the chix would be flockn him if he did. but shhhh, dun tell him that, dwan his ego to explode! ehehehe
but yea, phillyz kool! his my lil mate
newayz, ima off abotu now. catchaaz!!!!
SMILE!...laugh...play....FISHERPRICE! wahahaha
[away. leave a message or find me flying]
Sunday, May 22, 2005
ur lookn mighty fine 2nite!!!! and yes, i'd know cos i can seee you!!!!! bahahahaha :]
read this, all ina awsum awsum email from josss!. its really what i needed to hear. n its real encouraging! enjoy!
In ANY and EVERY circumstance, you can and should always praise God. Praise is verbal, the power of life and death is in your tongue (Proverbs 18:21). Praise has nothing to do with emotions... again, PRAISE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOUR EMOTIONS, HOW YOU FEEL. Talking to God IN the night is not talking to God ABOUT the night. God does not want to listen to what is wrong in your life, He already knows, He doesn't need to hear it from you again and again and again. He does not inhabit your argument, He inhabits your PRAISE, He does not inhabit your problems, He inhabits your PRAISE, He does not inhabit your complaint, He inhabits your PRAISE.
God wants you to praise Him in ALL situations, even if you aren't brought out of the situation, He is still there when you praise. He INHABITS your praise, and that has nothing to do with the circumstance. You can't feel Him? He's still there in your praise. It has NOTHING TO DO WITH "FEELING", it is STILL the truth. Praising God out of your heart is simply saying "I still believe You and still believe IN You".
Acts 16:16-38. Verse 25. At midnight, in the middle of the night, at the DARKEST part, night and darkness at it's worst, Paul and Silas were praying and praising. When you face trouble and situations, that is when you find out what you're really made of. Whatever is in you, whatever has been grown in you, whatever you have let influence you and grow you, it all comes out when it seems to be the darkest hour. IF praise and prayer is inherent in you, then when it gets hard, when situations worsen, you will PRAISE. You either get bitter or you get BETTER. WHen you praise regardless of situation, that's when God STEPS INTO your praise. Praise God when you DON'T feel like it. When the praise goes up, the blessings come down.
In Acts, the earthquake that happens doesn't set Paul and Silas free. It wasn't God setting them free or doing something to help them because they were worshipping. God wasn't trying to get them out. God was BREAKING IN. When He heard them praising, He went in, He wanted to be there, He wanted to be where the praise was. It's not about God getting you out of your situation or helping you escape, that's not what praise is about. It's about you praising to allow God INTO your situation so that He can inhabit your PRAISE and work IN your situation, not get you OUT of it. Praise and worship isn't a way to escape, it's an invitation to let God into your prison.
Don't escape, INVITE. Don't run away, let God STAND WITH YOU. Praise in the night, at midnight, when it is darkest, so that God can INHABIT your praise and outwork in your situation.
hehe, well, that's all from TD Jakes... listened 2 it earlier 2day... i WISH it was straight from me, but it isn't ^^... but it's awesome none the less =) hope it brightens your day... or even ur night... ^^
well the email was loonger, but i only give u this bits oke? well yea....ummmm, DAZ PUT A HOLE IN MY HAND! silly daz, we were outside church afta youth, kickn the footy round, n then the footy lands about 3meters from me, like smak bang between me n daz. so we both lookit the footy, n then look at each other...n then both run to the footy tryna get there 1st!!! i got there kinda 1st, i touched the footy, then daz knockd me over, n i fell!! arrghhh! on2 the gravel, in the carpark. u kno how u always throw ur hands down 1st 2 save ur face? well yea, i did that, n i lifted my hand to see a small rock makin itself comfy in my flesh. so i useed whateva nails i had to bring it out. n then there were two tiny tiny rocks in my hand, n it was harder to get them out, they slipped rite under my skin. well yea, it was bleedin, n i kept suckn the blood off. so im guessn iv consumed about 5 good mL's of my own blood, and a bit of dust to taste! :] wahahahaha. n my skin cells havnt been duin their business very well. cos i still gotta bit of flesh just THERE, so microbes are raining down on2 my open wound....i put this weak ointment onit last nite. cept it was stoopid, i think my saliva is more effective than it was. so evrynow n then, i just lick my wound, u kno how ur saliva is good for wounds? well yea, howeva gross it could be, im pretty proud of being a grot ehehehe
hmmm, wadddup?? ur lookn mighty fine 2nite~!!!!! wahahaha, very very nice! :] im not kiddn eitha~!! honest! haha. YOUTH WAS ROCKN last nite!!!!!!! man, JOJO DID AN AWS JOB up there preachn n stuff. man, it was her 1st time 2...i think? good doing jojo!!
ummmm yea, the family fun day 2day was aiite...well it ended up pretty oke. i made reall aws oragami flowers, thanx kai-lyn [is that how u spell it?] for teachn me! wahaha, she awsum. i really how she starts comn 2 youth again. man, shez a really nice person, she pretty too! soft kinda person, iv wronged her. im sorry, i never spent time with her, i never evn made the effort, now itz bittn me in the bum, she dun come to youth nemore. my part to blame. BUT, cos God is so good He's opening more windows n hopefully she will come to youth. she's kinda like poulus, they both got real weak self esteems, kinda. im not sure, they're both so scared to open up, cos their friends [...me] never really were there 4 them. but God's opened my eyes, i wronged them and myself. but enough of that. slowly, love and time are workn 2getha to help rebuild a friendship and hopefully assist their relationship wit God and a stronger self esteem. :] God is oh so good!!
must cut this short, cos i needa write a reall looong email to my stars....they deserve more! *sigh...God's mercy is too great for me!! thanx heaps 4 it anyway Lord, its honestly overwhelming. the never ending 2nd chances!!! wahahaha
SMILESHINELAUGH&LIVE IN SIMPLICITY!!!!
ur awsum! thanx 4 evrything.
ROK ON!!!
In ANY and EVERY circumstance, you can and should always praise God. Praise is verbal, the power of life and death is in your tongue (Proverbs 18:21). Praise has nothing to do with emotions... again, PRAISE HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOUR EMOTIONS, HOW YOU FEEL. Talking to God IN the night is not talking to God ABOUT the night. God does not want to listen to what is wrong in your life, He already knows, He doesn't need to hear it from you again and again and again. He does not inhabit your argument, He inhabits your PRAISE, He does not inhabit your problems, He inhabits your PRAISE, He does not inhabit your complaint, He inhabits your PRAISE.
God wants you to praise Him in ALL situations, even if you aren't brought out of the situation, He is still there when you praise. He INHABITS your praise, and that has nothing to do with the circumstance. You can't feel Him? He's still there in your praise. It has NOTHING TO DO WITH "FEELING", it is STILL the truth. Praising God out of your heart is simply saying "I still believe You and still believe IN You".
Acts 16:16-38. Verse 25. At midnight, in the middle of the night, at the DARKEST part, night and darkness at it's worst, Paul and Silas were praying and praising. When you face trouble and situations, that is when you find out what you're really made of. Whatever is in you, whatever has been grown in you, whatever you have let influence you and grow you, it all comes out when it seems to be the darkest hour. IF praise and prayer is inherent in you, then when it gets hard, when situations worsen, you will PRAISE. You either get bitter or you get BETTER. WHen you praise regardless of situation, that's when God STEPS INTO your praise. Praise God when you DON'T feel like it. When the praise goes up, the blessings come down.
In Acts, the earthquake that happens doesn't set Paul and Silas free. It wasn't God setting them free or doing something to help them because they were worshipping. God wasn't trying to get them out. God was BREAKING IN. When He heard them praising, He went in, He wanted to be there, He wanted to be where the praise was. It's not about God getting you out of your situation or helping you escape, that's not what praise is about. It's about you praising to allow God INTO your situation so that He can inhabit your PRAISE and work IN your situation, not get you OUT of it. Praise and worship isn't a way to escape, it's an invitation to let God into your prison.
Don't escape, INVITE. Don't run away, let God STAND WITH YOU. Praise in the night, at midnight, when it is darkest, so that God can INHABIT your praise and outwork in your situation.
hehe, well, that's all from TD Jakes... listened 2 it earlier 2day... i WISH it was straight from me, but it isn't ^^... but it's awesome none the less =) hope it brightens your day... or even ur night... ^^
well the email was loonger, but i only give u this bits oke? well yea....ummmm, DAZ PUT A HOLE IN MY HAND! silly daz, we were outside church afta youth, kickn the footy round, n then the footy lands about 3meters from me, like smak bang between me n daz. so we both lookit the footy, n then look at each other...n then both run to the footy tryna get there 1st!!! i got there kinda 1st, i touched the footy, then daz knockd me over, n i fell!! arrghhh! on2 the gravel, in the carpark. u kno how u always throw ur hands down 1st 2 save ur face? well yea, i did that, n i lifted my hand to see a small rock makin itself comfy in my flesh. so i useed whateva nails i had to bring it out. n then there were two tiny tiny rocks in my hand, n it was harder to get them out, they slipped rite under my skin. well yea, it was bleedin, n i kept suckn the blood off. so im guessn iv consumed about 5 good mL's of my own blood, and a bit of dust to taste! :] wahahahaha. n my skin cells havnt been duin their business very well. cos i still gotta bit of flesh just THERE, so microbes are raining down on2 my open wound....i put this weak ointment onit last nite. cept it was stoopid, i think my saliva is more effective than it was. so evrynow n then, i just lick my wound, u kno how ur saliva is good for wounds? well yea, howeva gross it could be, im pretty proud of being a grot ehehehe
hmmm, wadddup?? ur lookn mighty fine 2nite~!!!!! wahahaha, very very nice! :] im not kiddn eitha~!! honest! haha. YOUTH WAS ROCKN last nite!!!!!!! man, JOJO DID AN AWS JOB up there preachn n stuff. man, it was her 1st time 2...i think? good doing jojo!!
ummmm yea, the family fun day 2day was aiite...well it ended up pretty oke. i made reall aws oragami flowers, thanx kai-lyn [is that how u spell it?] for teachn me! wahaha, she awsum. i really how she starts comn 2 youth again. man, shez a really nice person, she pretty too! soft kinda person, iv wronged her. im sorry, i never spent time with her, i never evn made the effort, now itz bittn me in the bum, she dun come to youth nemore. my part to blame. BUT, cos God is so good He's opening more windows n hopefully she will come to youth. she's kinda like poulus, they both got real weak self esteems, kinda. im not sure, they're both so scared to open up, cos their friends [...me] never really were there 4 them. but God's opened my eyes, i wronged them and myself. but enough of that. slowly, love and time are workn 2getha to help rebuild a friendship and hopefully assist their relationship wit God and a stronger self esteem. :] God is oh so good!!
must cut this short, cos i needa write a reall looong email to my stars....they deserve more! *sigh...God's mercy is too great for me!! thanx heaps 4 it anyway Lord, its honestly overwhelming. the never ending 2nd chances!!! wahahaha
SMILESHINELAUGH&LIVE IN SIMPLICITY!!!!
ur awsum! thanx 4 evrything.
ROK ON!!!
Friday, May 20, 2005
and...i gotta get outta here...im begg'n u, im begg'n u, im begg'n u 2 be my escape! thanx man!!
its amazing how we let our human ways get ahead of us huh? most would argue, that we are human. is that a reason or an excuse? im confused....newayz...
psalm 120:1-2
i call on the Lord in my distress,
and he answers me.
Save me, O Lord, from lying lips
and from deceitful tongues
save me from myself perhaps? it seems the double-edges of my tongue has fought for me simultaneously bringing me defeat. my own lips decieve me, yet laugh at the enemy, and my words heal others yet cut myself? its like double entries in accounting....whoooaaa, thats deep :] LOL, newayz. i guess what im sayn is that it seems....confused? i am....very confused...dont get me wrong, im actually as amused as i am confused, honestly! its like, i can explain with a thousand words, yet be speechless all the same...cos, thats just the way i work, its completely understandable, but i kno none of u will understand, because that's Jesus' job, n no1 will eva undastand the way i think, cos i havn evn figured that out yet wahahahha
newayz, that got me thinkn again, n the pesimistic gurl lockd away in the little box of forgottn was tryna get out, but....bahahahahaha, i've thrown away the key! :] actually, Jesus helpd me, well neways, i laughed at her a bit, n i thout hard about the whole double-edged thing riite? its weird, like the desires of this skin hunger for evrything i dont need, the lusts of our human nature [sinful nature] attract sin, i it really buggd me, cos lately iv been thru some testnings n stuff yea? still am...n the way we would act opposed to the wwjd thing...its really got me thinkn. like birdy's msn nic ages ago: so much of me still has to die...n its sooooooo, oh so true!!! my brain and my body and my mind seem to be attacking my heart with just the way they operate!! n im struggling really, yet, i kno im not fighting, cos if i was, i'd be gone already. im struggling, yet im smiling all the way through, n its asif God's just placed this amazing joy in my heart, like a blood transfusion, except now its his blodd runnin thru my veins, tryna control my body, but my body isn co-operating. it's still tryna adjust to the new addition of my body, His pumpin' his way around and thru me, and the absolute joy of this is makin' my heart sing! like, i still have sooooooo much to learn and do n its hard to keep up, cept im sooo happyyy!! n its sooo insane!!!! n im lovin it oh so muchh!!! man, cant u feel it??? awww gosh. im really happy the sad gurl was lockd up, cos its sucha relief! i feel so free...evn tho i havnt won all the battles with myself, evn tho i stil seem to fall into temptation, im sooo farr from perfect, except im sooo calm n oke with that>? i kno i gotta improve. but the joy of that!! man! *sigh....
oke oke, back to the other world.....IM DUING WOOOOD~!!!!!!! w00h000000!!!!!! man im sooo excited!!!!!! well i think im duin wod newayz, if they accept my application, they should. cos im movin' outta further into woodworks, n cos practically 80% of pplz tryna change subs r the pplz hu wanna get into further cos they cant cop general! so, they need evry space they can get, so...if it's God's will, then yes! im goin to WOOOODDD~!!!! wahahahaha, man. its gonan be soooo kooool! ....n yea, i'll be fairly careful, i'll try not to sand my finger down to the bone ehehehe [no mockery intended to mark]
psalm119:171-176
may my lips overflow with praise,
for you teach me your decrees
may my tongue sing of your word,
for all your commands are righteous
may your hand be ready to help me,
for i have chosen your precepts,
I long for your salvation, O Lord,
and your law is my delight.
let me live that i may praise you,
and may your laws sustain me.
I have strayed like a lost sheep.
seek your servant,
for i have not forgotten your commands.
that's it inna nuttshell!...a pretty fab nuttshell! wahaha, newayz....man, ,wen i startd this i was thinkn pretty deep, n weneva i think pretty deep, i nearly 4get to smile. but now im over the moon!! wahaha, and yes. I CAN FLYY! im flyin' now! i love it wen i fly, man the view form up here is oh so AWS! try it sometime! my treat, i'll take u flying soon oke? ~ waaaccchhhhaaaaaaaaa!!!!!! :]
rok on!! SMILE! SHINE! and exercise! thats what makes u healthy! eat wateva u can get ur hands on wahahah!
ooOhhh yea, i hadda real interestn convo wit poulus yestanite~! ehehe, its kool. mm hmmm...n sillly choko, i told u i was on plann! but noo, u had to 4get...lol, well im sure u can just get more credit riite? oop. OFF TO YOUTH NOW!! WOOHOOOO!!! man i love youth, the church is gonan hafta get a new roof soon, ,we keep rockn it off!1 wahahaha man. its rockn as!! pop by some time soon oke??
*punch. catchaazz!
psalm 120:1-2
i call on the Lord in my distress,
and he answers me.
Save me, O Lord, from lying lips
and from deceitful tongues
save me from myself perhaps? it seems the double-edges of my tongue has fought for me simultaneously bringing me defeat. my own lips decieve me, yet laugh at the enemy, and my words heal others yet cut myself? its like double entries in accounting....whoooaaa, thats deep :] LOL, newayz. i guess what im sayn is that it seems....confused? i am....very confused...dont get me wrong, im actually as amused as i am confused, honestly! its like, i can explain with a thousand words, yet be speechless all the same...cos, thats just the way i work, its completely understandable, but i kno none of u will understand, because that's Jesus' job, n no1 will eva undastand the way i think, cos i havn evn figured that out yet wahahahha
newayz, that got me thinkn again, n the pesimistic gurl lockd away in the little box of forgottn was tryna get out, but....bahahahahaha, i've thrown away the key! :] actually, Jesus helpd me, well neways, i laughed at her a bit, n i thout hard about the whole double-edged thing riite? its weird, like the desires of this skin hunger for evrything i dont need, the lusts of our human nature [sinful nature] attract sin, i it really buggd me, cos lately iv been thru some testnings n stuff yea? still am...n the way we would act opposed to the wwjd thing...its really got me thinkn. like birdy's msn nic ages ago: so much of me still has to die...n its sooooooo, oh so true!!! my brain and my body and my mind seem to be attacking my heart with just the way they operate!! n im struggling really, yet, i kno im not fighting, cos if i was, i'd be gone already. im struggling, yet im smiling all the way through, n its asif God's just placed this amazing joy in my heart, like a blood transfusion, except now its his blodd runnin thru my veins, tryna control my body, but my body isn co-operating. it's still tryna adjust to the new addition of my body, His pumpin' his way around and thru me, and the absolute joy of this is makin' my heart sing! like, i still have sooooooo much to learn and do n its hard to keep up, cept im sooo happyyy!! n its sooo insane!!!! n im lovin it oh so muchh!!! man, cant u feel it??? awww gosh. im really happy the sad gurl was lockd up, cos its sucha relief! i feel so free...evn tho i havnt won all the battles with myself, evn tho i stil seem to fall into temptation, im sooo farr from perfect, except im sooo calm n oke with that>? i kno i gotta improve. but the joy of that!! man! *sigh....
oke oke, back to the other world.....IM DUING WOOOOD~!!!!!!! w00h000000!!!!!! man im sooo excited!!!!!! well i think im duin wod newayz, if they accept my application, they should. cos im movin' outta further into woodworks, n cos practically 80% of pplz tryna change subs r the pplz hu wanna get into further cos they cant cop general! so, they need evry space they can get, so...if it's God's will, then yes! im goin to WOOOODDD~!!!! wahahahaha, man. its gonan be soooo kooool! ....n yea, i'll be fairly careful, i'll try not to sand my finger down to the bone ehehehe [no mockery intended to mark]
psalm119:171-176
may my lips overflow with praise,
for you teach me your decrees
may my tongue sing of your word,
for all your commands are righteous
may your hand be ready to help me,
for i have chosen your precepts,
I long for your salvation, O Lord,
and your law is my delight.
let me live that i may praise you,
and may your laws sustain me.
I have strayed like a lost sheep.
seek your servant,
for i have not forgotten your commands.
that's it inna nuttshell!...a pretty fab nuttshell! wahaha, newayz....man, ,wen i startd this i was thinkn pretty deep, n weneva i think pretty deep, i nearly 4get to smile. but now im over the moon!! wahaha, and yes. I CAN FLYY! im flyin' now! i love it wen i fly, man the view form up here is oh so AWS! try it sometime! my treat, i'll take u flying soon oke? ~ waaaccchhhhaaaaaaaaa!!!!!! :]
rok on!! SMILE! SHINE! and exercise! thats what makes u healthy! eat wateva u can get ur hands on wahahah!
ooOhhh yea, i hadda real interestn convo wit poulus yestanite~! ehehe, its kool. mm hmmm...n sillly choko, i told u i was on plann! but noo, u had to 4get...lol, well im sure u can just get more credit riite? oop. OFF TO YOUTH NOW!! WOOHOOOO!!! man i love youth, the church is gonan hafta get a new roof soon, ,we keep rockn it off!1 wahahaha man. its rockn as!! pop by some time soon oke??
*punch. catchaazz!
Thursday, May 19, 2005
eyy eyyy!! waddddup 'ma hommiesss'? as dre would shout. lol, rite now im listening to that bum of an anoying song. 'b is bananaz!! b-a n-a n-a s!!!' do i really care??? well guesss whattt?? IM REALLY HAPPYYYYY!!!!! :] can u tell?
well newayz, i really really really wanna do wood riite? except its up 2 my parents now, their the deciding vote! [actually the vote that counts] but yea, im really hopin it'd be aiite, cos wood is gona be soooo funnn!! u kno y>???...cos it just is!!!!! *duh
oOOHhh!! ravi should be playn aroudn with this soon, im hopin he din make it full on tb styled, but i guess he cant help it, he IS a tb :]
newayz, ummmm.DEBATING YESTADAY WAS SOOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOD!!!! wahahahaha man, we won by 1point!!!!! n it was soooo exciting!! n we were the 'frog' team!! cos we all had croaky voices ehehehe.
well yea, im gettn excited about my chem project, cos its this poster, n its really fun to do, yea yea. call me crAZY, but im lovn it! hmmm...gotta accounting sac 2moro, on issues, i should probly read the chapter LOL, mm hmm. i'll also do the prac sac, that should help. hmmm, oh yea, talkn of accntn, in the lockerbay, vidu [guy wit a locker nearly next to mine] well he was like,
'hey! wen u duin ur accountn sac?'
'ummm.....*pauses trying to remember*...friday!! yup, tomorow'
'oke kool, wats ur mobile number'
'-___________-" r u serious?????' *staring in non-belief at the nerve of this guy! man, talk about using!!!
'yea man, gurl wat's ur number?'
'im not gonna be very helpful' [trys to thro him off tryna get accounting sac details from me...cos i dont cheat]
'yea yea, wateva.' hands me his fone
'i dunno how to use this fone' [which was the truth, i only know how 2 use mine]
'omg! just type in ur number'
'oke oke!!!' *types in number
'oke, oh yea, wats ur name again??'
-________-" the NERVE of this guy. just becos his kool dusn mean his not a jerk. well i dont tell him my name. cos this guy's pushn it. i wasn pissd, i just couldn believe this guy!
'oh yea!!! nicolee!!'
'yea, u figured!!!'
'oke oke, thanx. n try remember evrythign on the sac oke?'
'i'll call u friday nite oke?'
'nup, i wont pick up' [youth]
'oke, saturday, about 8:30ish or something'
'yea, if im not out or if i hear my fone riing'
'whatt? why wouldn't u?'
'i have a life vidu' n i walk out of lockerbay
n he laughs, i dunno if its at disbelief or he thinks i was joking...i wasn't!!
newayz, yea, that's jerk-off 4 ya! well newayz, im just gonna take the long way around telling him to study evrything. im not gonna help him cheat pfffftt, asif man!! but yea. i'll make it as fun on my behalf as it can be :] bahahahahahaha, evil maybe?? me?? naahhh
well yupz. ummm. i cannot cook at all!!!! n mum is the best cook! n i have inherited absolutely NO cookn skills watsoeva. aiiii, is there hope for me yet? i dunno. i have so little will power. i mean, i dont hafta cook. mum always dus! n my sis is learn too, so she can cook 4 me riite? aii, watta shame. the iron chef techniques were going to die somewher along the family line newayz riite? riite? yupz! *shrugs
newayz.....hmmmm....i should get back to chekkn email n otha blogs, b4 7. cos from then on, ,its my study time!!!!!! :]
rok on!! oh yea, did u notice the sky today?? it was awsum. n in furtha class, i adjusted my table to that i sat with my back to the window, but it was ez to turn around and admire. newayz, just talkn 2 jaz n yakkn away, the sun on my back felt really really kool. was awsum! n yea, its just soo.....sooo....God! :] thanx man! ur awsum! my hero!! :]
thats alotta :]'s in a paragraphy thingo. newayz...yea, ummm, yea. ima off now! adiiosss!!
rok on dude/dudettes!
n dont 4get to shine!!!!...oh yea, and smilee!!!!!!
well newayz, i really really really wanna do wood riite? except its up 2 my parents now, their the deciding vote! [actually the vote that counts] but yea, im really hopin it'd be aiite, cos wood is gona be soooo funnn!! u kno y>???...cos it just is!!!!! *duh
oOOHhh!! ravi should be playn aroudn with this soon, im hopin he din make it full on tb styled, but i guess he cant help it, he IS a tb :]
newayz, ummmm.DEBATING YESTADAY WAS SOOOOOOOOOOO GOOOOOOD!!!! wahahahaha man, we won by 1point!!!!! n it was soooo exciting!! n we were the 'frog' team!! cos we all had croaky voices ehehehe.
well yea, im gettn excited about my chem project, cos its this poster, n its really fun to do, yea yea. call me crAZY, but im lovn it! hmmm...gotta accounting sac 2moro, on issues, i should probly read the chapter LOL, mm hmm. i'll also do the prac sac, that should help. hmmm, oh yea, talkn of accntn, in the lockerbay, vidu [guy wit a locker nearly next to mine] well he was like,
'hey! wen u duin ur accountn sac?'
'ummm.....*pauses trying to remember*...friday!! yup, tomorow'
'oke kool, wats ur mobile number'
'-___________-" r u serious?????' *staring in non-belief at the nerve of this guy! man, talk about using!!!
'yea man, gurl wat's ur number?'
'im not gonna be very helpful' [trys to thro him off tryna get accounting sac details from me...cos i dont cheat]
'yea yea, wateva.' hands me his fone
'i dunno how to use this fone' [which was the truth, i only know how 2 use mine]
'omg! just type in ur number'
'oke oke!!!' *types in number
'oke, oh yea, wats ur name again??'
-________-" the NERVE of this guy. just becos his kool dusn mean his not a jerk. well i dont tell him my name. cos this guy's pushn it. i wasn pissd, i just couldn believe this guy!
'oh yea!!! nicolee!!'
'yea, u figured!!!'
'oke oke, thanx. n try remember evrythign on the sac oke?'
'i'll call u friday nite oke?'
'nup, i wont pick up' [youth]
'oke, saturday, about 8:30ish or something'
'yea, if im not out or if i hear my fone riing'
'whatt? why wouldn't u?'
'i have a life vidu' n i walk out of lockerbay
n he laughs, i dunno if its at disbelief or he thinks i was joking...i wasn't!!
newayz, yea, that's jerk-off 4 ya! well newayz, im just gonna take the long way around telling him to study evrything. im not gonna help him cheat pfffftt, asif man!! but yea. i'll make it as fun on my behalf as it can be :] bahahahahahaha, evil maybe?? me?? naahhh
well yupz. ummm. i cannot cook at all!!!! n mum is the best cook! n i have inherited absolutely NO cookn skills watsoeva. aiiii, is there hope for me yet? i dunno. i have so little will power. i mean, i dont hafta cook. mum always dus! n my sis is learn too, so she can cook 4 me riite? aii, watta shame. the iron chef techniques were going to die somewher along the family line newayz riite? riite? yupz! *shrugs
newayz.....hmmmm....i should get back to chekkn email n otha blogs, b4 7. cos from then on, ,its my study time!!!!!! :]
rok on!! oh yea, did u notice the sky today?? it was awsum. n in furtha class, i adjusted my table to that i sat with my back to the window, but it was ez to turn around and admire. newayz, just talkn 2 jaz n yakkn away, the sun on my back felt really really kool. was awsum! n yea, its just soo.....sooo....God! :] thanx man! ur awsum! my hero!! :]
thats alotta :]'s in a paragraphy thingo. newayz...yea, ummm, yea. ima off now! adiiosss!!
rok on dude/dudettes!
n dont 4get to shine!!!!...oh yea, and smilee!!!!!!
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
i needa cameraaaaa~!!!!!!!!!
why isit i can neva capture an awsum sky kinda moment? how come my memory is such that the etching of such a moment evaporates as majestically as it is set??
hmmm, i guess im still getting used to the fact that this is an online journal and that the world can see it, so i dont think i can be...or want to be as open as i 1st expected to be. i have too much to spill, and i dont want to become a reality show. because the raw colours rnt the prettiest, and mixing them can blur the exact reality and numb the truth. so i will only reveal what will make people smile, as that is the way i like it!! :] so....SMILE!!
*sigh, just read jaz's blogg, it kinda hit me over the head. i dunno why. i dont like it wen my friends r feeling doubt and self worthlessness n stuff similar. so if u r feeln that way...lookit the sky, it always makes me smile newayz. i think its because its a dream, too good for humans to touch, as it seems, whateva is touched becomes destroyed....human nature i suppose?
oOOHhh, ravviiii!! u said u'd do my blog 2nite???? i cant see any changes!! -______-" aii,well newayz....this morning was really really really awsum as!!!!! like, there was SOOO MUCH FOGG!!!! n walkn around in skool, i kep telln pplz the sky had falln :] n it had!!! n we were walkn on clouds!! n it was damp n refreshing and OH SO kool! i lovedd it!! except i din get enough time outside b4 it all rose to the top of the sky again!
i feel like saying things....but how to say it?
i wasnt thinking today, how do i kno? i cant remember enough of today. hmmmmm. tb's telln me to start a devotional email...hmmm, sounds good. wonder what it is....
well yea, hmmm. i dunno what to say!! alla sudedn i fel abit diluted, whats that mean newayz? i dont want to open up 2 complete strangers 4 one, but i want my life to be an open testimony too, getit? i dont
oke, the devotional emails r startn 2 sound pretty awsum....hmmm, again, its just like a toy, the excitment builds n then the toy wears about n the kid [me] moves on, in serch for a toy more effective in keep attention n longer lived.
hmmm, got my fone in front of me...ne1 feel like givn me a buzz? wahaha. i feel like talkn. kinda. man im burstn wit all this stuff i needa tell pplz, not all u pplz, a selected close handful of people who are close to me, yet have only just gotten further than the 2nd layer i guess. evry1 else is still at the surface. n im only half way to me. lol! i dun evn kno me enough! wahaha. this is weird. but i love u guyz newayz!!!... lol, halfa uz r randoms nehow.
oke...thats enough from me. no kool msn nics 2day. im thinkn too much now. i hate it wen that hapens. cos when ppl think too much, its hard to smile....which really sux. n im thinkn too much about the stuff that dun matter!!! arrrghhhh, its the big things, thats all. wen in reality, the small things r more important...mm hmm, clear as mud? sweeeet
cyaz, plz dont think hard, on my behalf. i'v thunk [eh? thunk??] too hard enough to cover next week's lot of thinkn...bumma. rok on!
hmmm, i guess im still getting used to the fact that this is an online journal and that the world can see it, so i dont think i can be...or want to be as open as i 1st expected to be. i have too much to spill, and i dont want to become a reality show. because the raw colours rnt the prettiest, and mixing them can blur the exact reality and numb the truth. so i will only reveal what will make people smile, as that is the way i like it!! :] so....SMILE!!
*sigh, just read jaz's blogg, it kinda hit me over the head. i dunno why. i dont like it wen my friends r feeling doubt and self worthlessness n stuff similar. so if u r feeln that way...lookit the sky, it always makes me smile newayz. i think its because its a dream, too good for humans to touch, as it seems, whateva is touched becomes destroyed....human nature i suppose?
oOOHhh, ravviiii!! u said u'd do my blog 2nite???? i cant see any changes!! -______-" aii,well newayz....this morning was really really really awsum as!!!!! like, there was SOOO MUCH FOGG!!!! n walkn around in skool, i kep telln pplz the sky had falln :] n it had!!! n we were walkn on clouds!! n it was damp n refreshing and OH SO kool! i lovedd it!! except i din get enough time outside b4 it all rose to the top of the sky again!
i feel like saying things....but how to say it?
i wasnt thinking today, how do i kno? i cant remember enough of today. hmmmmm. tb's telln me to start a devotional email...hmmm, sounds good. wonder what it is....
well yea, hmmm. i dunno what to say!! alla sudedn i fel abit diluted, whats that mean newayz? i dont want to open up 2 complete strangers 4 one, but i want my life to be an open testimony too, getit? i dont
oke, the devotional emails r startn 2 sound pretty awsum....hmmm, again, its just like a toy, the excitment builds n then the toy wears about n the kid [me] moves on, in serch for a toy more effective in keep attention n longer lived.
hmmm, got my fone in front of me...ne1 feel like givn me a buzz? wahaha. i feel like talkn. kinda. man im burstn wit all this stuff i needa tell pplz, not all u pplz, a selected close handful of people who are close to me, yet have only just gotten further than the 2nd layer i guess. evry1 else is still at the surface. n im only half way to me. lol! i dun evn kno me enough! wahaha. this is weird. but i love u guyz newayz!!!... lol, halfa uz r randoms nehow.
oke...thats enough from me. no kool msn nics 2day. im thinkn too much now. i hate it wen that hapens. cos when ppl think too much, its hard to smile....which really sux. n im thinkn too much about the stuff that dun matter!!! arrrghhhh, its the big things, thats all. wen in reality, the small things r more important...mm hmm, clear as mud? sweeeet
cyaz, plz dont think hard, on my behalf. i'v thunk [eh? thunk??] too hard enough to cover next week's lot of thinkn...bumma. rok on!
Monday, May 16, 2005
hmmmm,what to say? this should be a short post cos i dotn have nething too special to blurt about....oOOhhh...actually, i do!
hmmm, last nite. after all the fone calls n stuff, i sit on my bed n talk to God abit. n then i switch off my room lites n chuk on my bedside table lampy thing, n yea, i talk to God more...n i end it going something like "oh God, i needa do my hw...n i kno im always saying the same prayer n im always askin u to save me from the wrath of my teachas wen i dont try hard enough myself!!" n yada yada, i go on abit more, but i ask him to wake me up 2moro, or to keep me awake n stuff, enough to do my acc prac sac!...
well i go to sleep n wake up again thinking it's 1 or something [btw, i was plannin to get up about 5:30ish, thats what i set my alarm clok for newayz] well i chek my fone n it's 5:30!!! n it turns out my alarm clok was off!! so yea, God saved my life for the zillionth time!! n i did as much as i could, tho that was only half. but i thout that was really exciting!! cos His 2nd chances neva eva ending!! tho i kno i cant push it. but his aws!!
n yea, i come to skool with a 1st period free, anotha lifesaver!! cos i hadn finishd my chem, so i did that in the free chem class cos our teacha din rok up! n yea. that was aws 2!! n yea. ummm...
was sittn in the monash libry afta skool [sorrry couldn spend time wit u mish!] n yea, i was staring out the window, writing in my diary too, about how i wished....n i paused there. i i wished i had a real good camera. cos the sun had some pretty awsum lighting goin on! n got i love autumn cos the trees change colour. n it loooks maddd as! so yea. i decided, wen i decide to save up, i will spurge it on a real good camm, one that's capture what i see. n that's gonan be hard to find n expensive...*sigh. but yea,. i'd take it evrywhere wit me, so it's gotta be ready to be dropped :]
man, i casnt believe, im starting to sound like im getting sick...n i rkn it's God tryna tell me not to show off, ,which is probly a good thing, since i'v always boasted about never being sick n stuff...n now it's comn rite at my face!!! aiii....well im eating cold jelly now...which probly isn too helpful in this situation. n yea. i should be watchn supernanny or duin hw....so y rnt i?? *sigh
wise msn nic 4 2day:
The world's about to end, dont forget to wear your stackhat!
wahahaha, well i thout that was pretty funky :]
i cant see what im writing cos it's white. so if i stuff up, thats all part of the package....hmmmm well i gttg now n study abit. aaron's my inspiration. he believes he can get 300%. and i beleive him too!! his sucha BRAINIAC!! n he WORKS SOOOOOOO HARD!!! im nearly jealous, ehehehe
well newayz, the only think i cant stand is that he puts studys over evrything, INCLUDING his health, his not christian. btu yea, his gonna become a doctor, well he planns too, cos he wants too. n yea.... well he's always stayn behind afta class to ask the teachers questions he couldn't answer in anotha ExTRA textbook he was practising in. n yea. well i guess it made me realise its all about balance. n priorities. i mean, i needa study at least mb one hr a day, that'd be a big jump for me. aaron study's just about 4 hrs a day, his incredibly insane! but yea, i wish him well for his life. his workd hard, so its only fair, tho thats not what life's all about riite? being fair would be the last thing it's about. i guess i can only hope n pray, for him... n me n evryone else in this however beautiful yet unfairly insane world. wait....thats evry1!! :] wahahahahahaha. but yea, if ur reading this, ur in my prayers!!!!! :]
hmmmmm. what else? wez said we were all in his dream 2day, n that we died cos we were all gased, but he died while killn otha pplz. *shrugs, its the next holocost ahhhhhh!!! wahahaha
hmmm...i told me to get off this alreadyy!!!!! alriitey allriitey!! im gettn off already!!! gosh, i can nerly feel myself talkn 2 myself?? well yea, adiiiosss ameeeeegoz. CATCH yaz
i'll be back!!!! NEVA FEAR!!!
rok on all, wait!!!....
SMIIoLLEEEEE
hmmm, last nite. after all the fone calls n stuff, i sit on my bed n talk to God abit. n then i switch off my room lites n chuk on my bedside table lampy thing, n yea, i talk to God more...n i end it going something like "oh God, i needa do my hw...n i kno im always saying the same prayer n im always askin u to save me from the wrath of my teachas wen i dont try hard enough myself!!" n yada yada, i go on abit more, but i ask him to wake me up 2moro, or to keep me awake n stuff, enough to do my acc prac sac!...
well i go to sleep n wake up again thinking it's 1 or something [btw, i was plannin to get up about 5:30ish, thats what i set my alarm clok for newayz] well i chek my fone n it's 5:30!!! n it turns out my alarm clok was off!! so yea, God saved my life for the zillionth time!! n i did as much as i could, tho that was only half. but i thout that was really exciting!! cos His 2nd chances neva eva ending!! tho i kno i cant push it. but his aws!!
n yea, i come to skool with a 1st period free, anotha lifesaver!! cos i hadn finishd my chem, so i did that in the free chem class cos our teacha din rok up! n yea. that was aws 2!! n yea. ummm...
was sittn in the monash libry afta skool [sorrry couldn spend time wit u mish!] n yea, i was staring out the window, writing in my diary too, about how i wished....n i paused there. i i wished i had a real good camera. cos the sun had some pretty awsum lighting goin on! n got i love autumn cos the trees change colour. n it loooks maddd as! so yea. i decided, wen i decide to save up, i will spurge it on a real good camm, one that's capture what i see. n that's gonan be hard to find n expensive...*sigh. but yea,. i'd take it evrywhere wit me, so it's gotta be ready to be dropped :]
man, i casnt believe, im starting to sound like im getting sick...n i rkn it's God tryna tell me not to show off, ,which is probly a good thing, since i'v always boasted about never being sick n stuff...n now it's comn rite at my face!!! aiii....well im eating cold jelly now...which probly isn too helpful in this situation. n yea. i should be watchn supernanny or duin hw....so y rnt i?? *sigh
wise msn nic 4 2day:
The world's about to end, dont forget to wear your stackhat!
wahahaha, well i thout that was pretty funky :]
i cant see what im writing cos it's white. so if i stuff up, thats all part of the package....hmmmm well i gttg now n study abit. aaron's my inspiration. he believes he can get 300%. and i beleive him too!! his sucha BRAINIAC!! n he WORKS SOOOOOOO HARD!!! im nearly jealous, ehehehe
well newayz, the only think i cant stand is that he puts studys over evrything, INCLUDING his health, his not christian. btu yea, his gonna become a doctor, well he planns too, cos he wants too. n yea.... well he's always stayn behind afta class to ask the teachers questions he couldn't answer in anotha ExTRA textbook he was practising in. n yea. well i guess it made me realise its all about balance. n priorities. i mean, i needa study at least mb one hr a day, that'd be a big jump for me. aaron study's just about 4 hrs a day, his incredibly insane! but yea, i wish him well for his life. his workd hard, so its only fair, tho thats not what life's all about riite? being fair would be the last thing it's about. i guess i can only hope n pray, for him... n me n evryone else in this however beautiful yet unfairly insane world. wait....thats evry1!! :] wahahahahahaha. but yea, if ur reading this, ur in my prayers!!!!! :]
hmmmmm. what else? wez said we were all in his dream 2day, n that we died cos we were all gased, but he died while killn otha pplz. *shrugs, its the next holocost ahhhhhh!!! wahahaha
hmmm...i told me to get off this alreadyy!!!!! alriitey allriitey!! im gettn off already!!! gosh, i can nerly feel myself talkn 2 myself?? well yea, adiiiosss ameeeeegoz. CATCH yaz
i'll be back!!!! NEVA FEAR!!!
rok on all, wait!!!....
SMIIoLLEEEEE
Sunday, May 15, 2005
oh so fishy...relevance? none found
welcome!!!!!
iv decided not to play around wit the font size too much.... :]
i woke up real happy this morning!! man, it's sooooo God. like, today was just such a shining, lovely kinda day, the sky was lookn oh so stunnin' n i have been inspired to write on my window.......well only planning one word newayz, just gotta find some letters *duh
well, ummmm. just came back from well being [nite service]!! man it was rockn!!!! the praise n worship rockd the roof off!! lol, its become a habit lately! which is reall awsum/encouraging etc etc. elton was preachn, n all the fellaz were crakn jokes riite thru it, in a friendly manner, made the atmosphere alott more enjoyable n funn. man, there was waaaay too much maths in that sermon!! yes, maths has come to foreva haunt me -____-"
oOOHhh!! met pplz 2day!! there were 4 bendigo'ers, but i only really met 3 of em. ummm, 3 were brothaz n one was just a friend, i met 2 brothers n the friend. david n mikey [the brothaz] n matt! man, their reall tall, n buff n stuff!! i still cant believe matt is only 16! he could soo pull of for 20!! but yea, they were awsum!! too badd only mikey's staying round wit us, but i guess i mite chatt to the otha 2 on msn. wahaha, yea thats riite, im meant to have this dance-off wit david. he probly 4got already. *shrugs
ETERNITY WAS SOOOOOOOOO ROCKN!! the dance class was really really encouraging, cos we got about 30-35 pplz, compared to our usual 5 pplz. lol. jaz came!!! *yay. ummmm next wks gonna be a take off too!! its gonna be a blassstt!! break-dancing!! im sooooo excited!!! woohooo!
i soooo should be hwink now. but i cant help myself, so much hapnd 2day, that i have to blog it or i'll 4get....oh yea, n mikey- if ur readn this, i cant get to ur blog for some reason...*sigh, i was gettn excited about it too!!
hmmmm, wat els to report??? oh yea choko very rudely called a combined gift from me n aleeethea 'trash'!!! man, this guy cant tell trash from treasure!!! well *sigh, he ate too much of himself 2day. i dont think itz too healthy....eating urself....eh?
im ment to say something...but i cant remember...........
........so i just wont say it....
the problem we know we'll neva solve, love's uneven remainders our lives a fraction of the whole...
thats the wise msn nic of list for 2day!----^
hmmmm, wat else to say, im going to get me some dindin...
gotit!! uhh...*shrugs.... fried rice....its from church.....i like mum's better....n i feel like a good ole aussy meat pie newayz....just anotha one of those cravings
-----------we will, we will rock u!!---------
i need to un-attatch myself from the net...........................
oke, addiioss now!
CATCH....ya lataz lol [thats the way james ses it, so i thout to leach]
rok on!
iv decided not to play around wit the font size too much.... :]
i woke up real happy this morning!! man, it's sooooo God. like, today was just such a shining, lovely kinda day, the sky was lookn oh so stunnin' n i have been inspired to write on my window.......well only planning one word newayz, just gotta find some letters *duh
well, ummmm. just came back from well being [nite service]!! man it was rockn!!!! the praise n worship rockd the roof off!! lol, its become a habit lately! which is reall awsum/encouraging etc etc. elton was preachn, n all the fellaz were crakn jokes riite thru it, in a friendly manner, made the atmosphere alott more enjoyable n funn. man, there was waaaay too much maths in that sermon!! yes, maths has come to foreva haunt me -____-"
oOOHhh!! met pplz 2day!! there were 4 bendigo'ers, but i only really met 3 of em. ummm, 3 were brothaz n one was just a friend, i met 2 brothers n the friend. david n mikey [the brothaz] n matt! man, their reall tall, n buff n stuff!! i still cant believe matt is only 16! he could soo pull of for 20!! but yea, they were awsum!! too badd only mikey's staying round wit us, but i guess i mite chatt to the otha 2 on msn. wahaha, yea thats riite, im meant to have this dance-off wit david. he probly 4got already. *shrugs
ETERNITY WAS SOOOOOOOOO ROCKN!! the dance class was really really encouraging, cos we got about 30-35 pplz, compared to our usual 5 pplz. lol. jaz came!!! *yay. ummmm next wks gonna be a take off too!! its gonna be a blassstt!! break-dancing!! im sooooo excited!!! woohooo!
i soooo should be hwink now. but i cant help myself, so much hapnd 2day, that i have to blog it or i'll 4get....oh yea, n mikey- if ur readn this, i cant get to ur blog for some reason...*sigh, i was gettn excited about it too!!
hmmmm, wat els to report??? oh yea choko very rudely called a combined gift from me n aleeethea 'trash'!!! man, this guy cant tell trash from treasure!!! well *sigh, he ate too much of himself 2day. i dont think itz too healthy....eating urself....eh?
im ment to say something...but i cant remember...........
........so i just wont say it....
the problem we know we'll neva solve, love's uneven remainders our lives a fraction of the whole...
thats the wise msn nic of list for 2day!----^
hmmmm, wat else to say, im going to get me some dindin...
gotit!! uhh...*shrugs.... fried rice....its from church.....i like mum's better....n i feel like a good ole aussy meat pie newayz....just anotha one of those cravings
-----------we will, we will rock u!!---------
i need to un-attatch myself from the net...........................
oke, addiioss now!
CATCH....ya lataz lol [thats the way james ses it, so i thout to leach]
rok on!
Saturday, May 14, 2005
sitting on the hill, pulln out the grass, planning the escape
wahahaha, how was ur day today dear reader?
today crossmovement planned escape. its got real high expectations, man its gonna be soooooo rokn!! *w00tw00t. ahhhh!!! cant reveal too much now...but i'll cyaz there
hmmm, anthem last nite was rockn!!! man, u shoulda bn there! God was oh sooo real n awsum n evrything!!! wahahaha, it was reall encouraging! yupyupz....n yea, how daz said there were 2 angles beside each of us, n how they were praying for us. man that was awsum!!
i keep seeing this kinda vision. well i dunno if itsa vision or not, cos iv neva had a vision b4. its like, theres this power in my hands. n when i touch people they start falling down or crying or something. but it sounds abit too kool to be tru 4 me. like, i dunno what it is. cos i keep remembering when im around the youth in p&w. i think its like, our generation. like God will give us this extraordinary part of him if we give him all of us, if we open up n let him take control of the wheel. like, its that easy riite? it seems so easy, like it IS so easy. then y isit so hard?? y cant i let go of part of myself? cos when i do, its oh so perfect, cos God becomes the filling that fills me. n then, once that's established, all we needa do is touch ppl, mb it isn that literal [tho completely/entirely possible] mb as in, touch their hearts....its soo general. i dunno.
hmmm, riite now i see an msn nic that goes "furthermore, life is like photography, u use the negatives to develop..." interesting...
oOOoo, adam says their single will be out soon!!! its soo exciting!!! ummm, adam is this dude i met @ PS, his awsum. so lookout 4 the single. his band is called nazarene n yea, he sent me the cover n it looks aws!!
what else??? im going to this azn restarant soon...--_______--" the parents like it....the kids dont. we just go along,.,..cos we have to??
well newayz, ist gonna be kool, cos we used to go out heaps to restarants in the good ole days, so, abit of memory refreshing will be good....always is....i think. well we're only goin out cos my aunty's here...
oOOhhh, this mornin i vacuumd upstairs, while listening to some ole skool hillsongs. that was pretyy rokn. i was like, dancing with the vacuum!! wahahahahaha. well it was alotta fun. n i was home alone, which i din evn kno till dad n ali came bak....eh?? i tried to emty the vacuumcleana n got dust evrywhere.....so it was quite useless
jossss rewrote 'twinkle twinkle'...its speshool!! cos its for the stars!!!
twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder how awsum u r
lifted up above the world so high,
ur a diamond in my life
twinkle twinkle speshool star
u'll neva kno how speshool u really r!
well i thout that was pretty awsum newayz...we've bn all driftn. cos i dunno, joss is in sydney, soakn up as much of God up in hillsongs as he can. n leeny n me have our own worlds now...its insane!! i dunno what to think of it!! its like...we try keepin our lil connections n our ole habits n our emailn up n stuff....cept it seems so pathetically weak. n i dont really make n effort. like, we talk n stuff...yet its not the same, pointless, carefree, deep kinda chattn we used to do. i havnt watched the sunset in too loong to. its like, all the things we usedd to do together...rnt together nemore! >.<>
well, i wannad to drop that. cos it was too sad.
so yea.....*shrugs...its still kool!! :]
welll...CHURCH 2moro!!!! its gonna be rockn!!!!!! man, it always IS rockn~!!!!! its got sooo awsum lately!!! wahahaha chekit out!!! Australia 4 Christ followship [acf] @ rowville. nite services on sunday @ 6-8 pm
mm hmmm....ummmmm.....yea
i gtg now. this was looooooong...
SMILLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!1
today crossmovement planned escape. its got real high expectations, man its gonna be soooooo rokn!! *w00tw00t. ahhhh!!! cant reveal too much now...but i'll cyaz there
hmmm, anthem last nite was rockn!!! man, u shoulda bn there! God was oh sooo real n awsum n evrything!!! wahahaha, it was reall encouraging! yupyupz....n yea, how daz said there were 2 angles beside each of us, n how they were praying for us. man that was awsum!!
i keep seeing this kinda vision. well i dunno if itsa vision or not, cos iv neva had a vision b4. its like, theres this power in my hands. n when i touch people they start falling down or crying or something. but it sounds abit too kool to be tru 4 me. like, i dunno what it is. cos i keep remembering when im around the youth in p&w. i think its like, our generation. like God will give us this extraordinary part of him if we give him all of us, if we open up n let him take control of the wheel. like, its that easy riite? it seems so easy, like it IS so easy. then y isit so hard?? y cant i let go of part of myself? cos when i do, its oh so perfect, cos God becomes the filling that fills me. n then, once that's established, all we needa do is touch ppl, mb it isn that literal [tho completely/entirely possible] mb as in, touch their hearts....its soo general. i dunno.
hmmm, riite now i see an msn nic that goes "furthermore, life is like photography, u use the negatives to develop..." interesting...
oOOoo, adam says their single will be out soon!!! its soo exciting!!! ummm, adam is this dude i met @ PS, his awsum. so lookout 4 the single. his band is called nazarene n yea, he sent me the cover n it looks aws!!
what else??? im going to this azn restarant soon...--_______--" the parents like it....the kids dont. we just go along,.,..cos we have to??
well newayz, ist gonna be kool, cos we used to go out heaps to restarants in the good ole days, so, abit of memory refreshing will be good....always is....i think. well we're only goin out cos my aunty's here...
oOOhhh, this mornin i vacuumd upstairs, while listening to some ole skool hillsongs. that was pretyy rokn. i was like, dancing with the vacuum!! wahahahahaha. well it was alotta fun. n i was home alone, which i din evn kno till dad n ali came bak....eh?? i tried to emty the vacuumcleana n got dust evrywhere.....so it was quite useless
jossss rewrote 'twinkle twinkle'...its speshool!! cos its for the stars!!!
twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder how awsum u r
lifted up above the world so high,
ur a diamond in my life
twinkle twinkle speshool star
u'll neva kno how speshool u really r!
well i thout that was pretty awsum newayz...we've bn all driftn. cos i dunno, joss is in sydney, soakn up as much of God up in hillsongs as he can. n leeny n me have our own worlds now...its insane!! i dunno what to think of it!! its like...we try keepin our lil connections n our ole habits n our emailn up n stuff....cept it seems so pathetically weak. n i dont really make n effort. like, we talk n stuff...yet its not the same, pointless, carefree, deep kinda chattn we used to do. i havnt watched the sunset in too loong to. its like, all the things we usedd to do together...rnt together nemore! >.<>
well, i wannad to drop that. cos it was too sad.
so yea.....*shrugs...its still kool!! :]
welll...CHURCH 2moro!!!! its gonna be rockn!!!!!! man, it always IS rockn~!!!!! its got sooo awsum lately!!! wahahaha chekit out!!! Australia 4 Christ followship [acf] @ rowville. nite services on sunday @ 6-8 pm
mm hmmm....ummmmm.....yea
i gtg now. this was looooooong...
SMILLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!1
Thursday, May 12, 2005
awwwwwww mannn!!...how ROCKNN WAS see ya @ the OVAL??? man it was COMPLETE UTTERLy insanely awsumly MADD CORE as!!!!!! ahhhh!!!! >.< style="font-family:courier new;">1stly, u kno those oral B brush up thingos??? man their soo koool! i triedd one!! it tastes soooo good!. like, i stuk it on my finger n brushed my teeth, i dont think its very efective, but MAN its an awsum toy. like, its sooo fascinating!! n it'd got sucha mintly freshy refreshing coool/cold kinda taste, it kidna burns.....if thats riite. it wasn painful. quite a pleasing experience actually...i licked it till it started loosing its taste....n i wonderd how awsum it would be to have lollipops that tasted like that!!! ahhhhh!!!! its oh so kool!!!!
oke oke, next topic!!!
i took jaz's fone @ skool n changed my name....n then i thout about it n i din liek it at all....i dont wanna be a princesss!!! pffffttt, its so not me! i'd rather be a kid neday!! like, riite now i feeel like playign some kinda sport in mudd, cos getting muddy is awsum! but a princess wouldn do that....no, im not spoilt eitha, well i kinda am from my frriends. but so r kids riite? *shrugs.....nup. my friends r more suited for the title princess than me. i think ima kid. i rather b a kid. n i oh so rather be a kid than be a princess...what got over me??? newayz...next time [2moro] wen i see jaz, i shall change it with urgency!!! wahaha
newayz....wat else??? oh yea...
we love sleeping! yes we do!!! WE LOVE EATING how bout youu?????
oh yea, me n jaz had a kool convo with mrs?? or miss wateva, well milwood...howeva ya spell it. it was kool...shez christian!!...kinda catholic *shrugs...dunno....but yea. wassa kool convo...was very...shifty?? went from pink to fashion to music to God to christian stuff....m hmm....we shoulda told her about cya @ the oval....alwell....
dinnaz ready./....oh yea. soz jaz i couldn spend the afta skool time wit ya, but God made sure u could spend it wit someone!! ehehe...
yupzzz. newayz, watels??? ummm...oh yea, u kno how i have this 'awesome GOD' dogtag?? well i do, n i was playn wit it n peter comes around n we talk n then his like
"wats that?"
"dogtag"
*reads it
"oh, ur really into all this christian stuff rnt u"
"yupz!...or i try to be newayz"
"y u into all this stuff?"
"y not?"
"nah. but y???"
"i dunno, cos...." <<-----cant completely remember wat i said, but i din give a proper answer.....bumma!
n then he askd wat we do @ youth n stuff....n i told him...n his like....nah....it sounds the same as the church i used to go to....n yea...he stopped it there....n it was weird....like wen he asked abotu youth he sounded geniunly interesteed...n then wen i tol dhim we mett pplz n sing n dance n lern stuff n its reallyreally funn [which probly cooda been said ina more intersting way] he was like...naaaahhh....n i was like 'oh...oke'
newayz, yea. dinnaz ready, n its screamn out my name!!! n its getttn cold!!!
so cyazzzz.....
adioss ameeegoz!
oke oke, next topic!!!
i took jaz's fone @ skool n changed my name....n then i thout about it n i din liek it at all....i dont wanna be a princesss!!! pffffttt, its so not me! i'd rather be a kid neday!! like, riite now i feeel like playign some kinda sport in mudd, cos getting muddy is awsum! but a princess wouldn do that....no, im not spoilt eitha, well i kinda am from my frriends. but so r kids riite? *shrugs.....nup. my friends r more suited for the title princess than me. i think ima kid. i rather b a kid. n i oh so rather be a kid than be a princess...what got over me??? newayz...next time [2moro] wen i see jaz, i shall change it with urgency!!! wahaha
newayz....wat else??? oh yea...
we love sleeping! yes we do!!! WE LOVE EATING how bout youu?????
oh yea, me n jaz had a kool convo with mrs?? or miss wateva, well milwood...howeva ya spell it. it was kool...shez christian!!...kinda catholic *shrugs...dunno....but yea. wassa kool convo...was very...shifty?? went from pink to fashion to music to God to christian stuff....m hmm....we shoulda told her about cya @ the oval....alwell....
dinnaz ready./....oh yea. soz jaz i couldn spend the afta skool time wit ya, but God made sure u could spend it wit someone!! ehehe...
yupzzz. newayz, watels??? ummm...oh yea, u kno how i have this 'awesome GOD' dogtag?? well i do, n i was playn wit it n peter comes around n we talk n then his like
"wats that?"
"dogtag"
*reads it
"oh, ur really into all this christian stuff rnt u"
"yupz!...or i try to be newayz"
"y u into all this stuff?"
"y not?"
"nah. but y???"
"i dunno, cos...." <<-----cant completely remember wat i said, but i din give a proper answer.....bumma!
n then he askd wat we do @ youth n stuff....n i told him...n his like....nah....it sounds the same as the church i used to go to....n yea...he stopped it there....n it was weird....like wen he asked abotu youth he sounded geniunly interesteed...n then wen i tol dhim we mett pplz n sing n dance n lern stuff n its reallyreally funn [which probly cooda been said ina more intersting way] he was like...naaaahhh....n i was like 'oh...oke'
newayz, yea. dinnaz ready, n its screamn out my name!!! n its getttn cold!!!
so cyazzzz.....
adioss ameeegoz!
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
i shall remember a title this time...
well...what to say?? today was fun...ny? i dunno, i cant remember things today.
well newayz...seee YOU @ the oval's 2moro!!!!!!1 cant wait!! its gona be rokn!! well yupz.
oOOh yea, im gonan pik up anotha subject next yr, so im thinkn woodworks. cos then if i go places n stuff, im not completely useless. get me? its cos i wanna be able to do things. n it'd be kool, cos no other gurl does wood. noo...i dont mean cos i'd be in a class of all guys, cos i'll b stepn out n going against the trends. like being different n stuff. newayz, i rkn it'd be funn. like studio arts would be aws n stuff, cept that its waay to laid back, n i kno id get waay to lazy in sthing like that. n in wood, im gonnna hafta work hard since i dunno how to do things. im excited!!! ehehehe. like, i'll make things n paint over it!! ehehehehe....
welll....im playing aroudn with the font size...can u tell?
welll, jazzzzz i still cant get the chatterboxy thing up yet....gaaaaahhhh, i quit!!! how about u?
hmmmmm.....outta wurds, short post 2day. cyazzz...oh yea! n i needa take up a sport. i think i'll do basketball, cos we got courts @ skoool. n cos dre can teach me. its pretty kool newayz, the 1st step is gettn off my lazy glutious maximus n get into the courts....somehow...
welll that b all 4 me...this journal thing is nuttz! but my fascination for things comes n goes. like a kid, who's ready for a new toy kinda thing.....*shrugs
lataz, uniki
well newayz...seee YOU @ the oval's 2moro!!!!!!1 cant wait!! its gona be rokn!! well yupz.
oOOh yea, im gonan pik up anotha subject next yr, so im thinkn woodworks. cos then if i go places n stuff, im not completely useless. get me? its cos i wanna be able to do things. n it'd be kool, cos no other gurl does wood. noo...i dont mean cos i'd be in a class of all guys, cos i'll b stepn out n going against the trends. like being different n stuff. newayz, i rkn it'd be funn. like studio arts would be aws n stuff, cept that its waay to laid back, n i kno id get waay to lazy in sthing like that. n in wood, im gonnna hafta work hard since i dunno how to do things. im excited!!! ehehehe. like, i'll make things n paint over it!! ehehehehe....
welll....im playing aroudn with the font size...can u tell?
welll, jazzzzz i still cant get the chatterboxy thing up yet....gaaaaahhhh, i quit!!! how about u?
hmmmmm.....outta wurds, short post 2day. cyazzz...oh yea! n i needa take up a sport. i think i'll do basketball, cos we got courts @ skoool. n cos dre can teach me. its pretty kool newayz, the 1st step is gettn off my lazy glutious maximus n get into the courts....somehow...
welll that b all 4 me...this journal thing is nuttz! but my fascination for things comes n goes. like a kid, who's ready for a new toy kinda thing.....*shrugs
lataz, uniki
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
wahaha, see how this works now. ima still tryna adjust myself to this. hehe
well how was today. it was another ansumly unique day!! the sky started as a collage of grey, ,and in the car on the way to skool, it was pretty amazing. like, the sun was still pretty low, but the thing is riite? that it broke the arrangement of grey, and this yellow was cleverly patterned, only something God could manage!! wahaha. well yea. i havnt watched the sunset in ages. i'll do that 2moro.
tryed tution 2day. wit jaz n daryl. n yea. it was funny! God createdd the earth!! why do i care how it works!!! who needs chem!!! wahaahahahhaa.
mm hmm, well im just wundering what ravi's planing to do to my thingo, so yea. ummm. wat else? i dunno.....my friends are awsum. n if ur reading this n r friends, then yea....u guys r gold man! i wont say it often, evn if its true...so cherish these words!!! wahahaha
hmmmmm...i'll sign into msn now...
oOOhhhh....b4 i 4get. the bubbles i got from kirstyn n mish. their soooo funnnnn!!! man i went into the bathroom n blew my breath away wit these awsum smelling bubbles. bubblegum blast!!! wahahaha. newayz...ali came in to see what i was doing n we hadda pretty kool time...n then im like..."OH! trty suk em in!! it looks madd as!!! like...eat em!!!" so i sukd in afew, ate some...hehe, n my sis tried cos she was like "can u taste it???"
n shez like..yea, as loong as u dont do nething stoopid like suk em up ur nose. silly her, she knows it encourages me...so i got really excited n blew me a new batch of bubbles, n i tried to sniff the buble closest to me up my nose n my sis, loving me so, screams "NIC! DONT!" n pushes me away, afraid i mite die of buble sniffing, n we both fall over laughing. it was koool as!!! but me, being so determined to sniff a buble kept tryign till i sniffed about 3. hehehe. man it was funny as. n shez like..."watsit feel like?" so she tries buble sniffing n yea, laughin the whole wile, man it was awsum!!. but the aftermath is a bit wooosy...not really...just to much fun. n it looks liek iv barely touched my buble mixture...theres soooooooo much left!!! wahahahahaha. man, these are awsumawsum memories...
well newayz....i think thats a loong enough post. God's rockn my world. his awsum! cos he loves me so, n guess wat? he loves u toooo!!!!!! ehehehe....
rok on!
-----------uniki signing off-----------
----------bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppppgogzapppppbuzzzzz----------
well how was today. it was another ansumly unique day!! the sky started as a collage of grey, ,and in the car on the way to skool, it was pretty amazing. like, the sun was still pretty low, but the thing is riite? that it broke the arrangement of grey, and this yellow was cleverly patterned, only something God could manage!! wahaha. well yea. i havnt watched the sunset in ages. i'll do that 2moro.
tryed tution 2day. wit jaz n daryl. n yea. it was funny! God createdd the earth!! why do i care how it works!!! who needs chem!!! wahaahahahhaa.
mm hmm, well im just wundering what ravi's planing to do to my thingo, so yea. ummm. wat else? i dunno.....my friends are awsum. n if ur reading this n r friends, then yea....u guys r gold man! i wont say it often, evn if its true...so cherish these words!!! wahahaha
hmmmmm...i'll sign into msn now...
oOOhhhh....b4 i 4get. the bubbles i got from kirstyn n mish. their soooo funnnnn!!! man i went into the bathroom n blew my breath away wit these awsum smelling bubbles. bubblegum blast!!! wahahaha. newayz...ali came in to see what i was doing n we hadda pretty kool time...n then im like..."OH! trty suk em in!! it looks madd as!!! like...eat em!!!" so i sukd in afew, ate some...hehe, n my sis tried cos she was like "can u taste it???"
n shez like..yea, as loong as u dont do nething stoopid like suk em up ur nose. silly her, she knows it encourages me...so i got really excited n blew me a new batch of bubbles, n i tried to sniff the buble closest to me up my nose n my sis, loving me so, screams "NIC! DONT!" n pushes me away, afraid i mite die of buble sniffing, n we both fall over laughing. it was koool as!!! but me, being so determined to sniff a buble kept tryign till i sniffed about 3. hehehe. man it was funny as. n shez like..."watsit feel like?" so she tries buble sniffing n yea, laughin the whole wile, man it was awsum!!. but the aftermath is a bit wooosy...not really...just to much fun. n it looks liek iv barely touched my buble mixture...theres soooooooo much left!!! wahahahahaha. man, these are awsumawsum memories...
well newayz....i think thats a loong enough post. God's rockn my world. his awsum! cos he loves me so, n guess wat? he loves u toooo!!!!!! ehehehe....
rok on!
-----------uniki signing off-----------
----------bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppppgogzapppppbuzzzzz----------
Monday, May 09, 2005
i remember my username!
wahahaha!!!! that wassa laugh. i made maself a blog, then forgot my username...so here i am now, hopefully it workd all out n stuff...ehehehe. yup, ima noob 4 sho!..but yea...its allll ur ravi!!! go nuts! thanx!
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