who am i?

Over time You've healed so much in me,
And I am living proof.
That although my darkest hour had come,
Your light could still shine through.
Though at times it's just enought to cast,
A shadow on the wall.
I am grateful that you've shined your light on me at all.

Who Am I, That you would love me so gently?
Who Am I, That you would recognize my name?
Who Am I, That you would speak to me so softly?
Conversation with the Lord most high.
Who Am I?

Oh Amazing Grace how sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost, But now am found.
Was blind, But now I see.
And the more I sing that sweet old song,
The more I understand.
That I do not comprehend this
love that's coming from your hand.

Who Am I, That you would love me so gently?
Who Am I, That you would recognize my name?
Who Am I, That you would speak to me so softly?
Conversation with the Lord most high.
Who Am I?

Grace, grace.
God's grace.
Grace that will pardon, and clense within.
Grace, grace.
God's great grace.
Grace that is greater than all my sin.

Who Am I, That you would love me so gently?
Who Am I, That you would recognize my name?
Who Am I, That you would speak to me so softly?
Conversation with the Lord most high.
Who Am I?

Lord, Who Am I?
Who Am I?
Lord Who Am I?
Who Am I?
Who Am I?

POINT OF GRACE: who am i

hmmm....talkd to leethea b4....and im making the pinboard...ali thinks its scary/weird...*shrugs she'll get used to it. its kinda nerly done! well im hoping to finish 2day. and then i hafta clean my room and then and and and....then we got prayer meet!!! cant wait!!! its gonan be awsum!!! :]

uhhh....i still dunno mish's addresss, im ment to post her something, but silly her dun tell me her adresss.........

uh...what to say?? im excited abotu youth!! its gonna rock sick!!
jo jo's 21st soon...its formal --___________--"

i wanna be a wakko and rok up in some weirdo combination!! :]

JESUS; rock that doesn't roll

oke oke....im outta things to say...my lips are dry. i needa drink. cept that would require me to get off my lazy bumm and do something about it....see what holidays do to me?? they make me lazy as! ohh bummm

ARRRGGHHHHHH jesse mac-cart-knee....she'z no me? i know.

time...it doesnt belong to me...
it runs through my fingers
it hits the ground, disappears.
and is never seen again.
watch your time. 2moro's no promise
hmmm...i just realised i didn't shower yestaday. thought i'd share because i love grossing peepz out! wahaha. well i was in my pj's the whole time. and i hit the bed yestanite thinking....i havnt showered....ohh heck, it can wait
hence i slept. ehehe....i gotta take a shower now...catchaz!

LEVELLLL UPPPPPP

the 1st thing i did at camp was hop onto the tranpeleen and try to flip...yea, you guessed it. i fall on my face...and make my nose bleed...and get marks on my face...and make every1 laugh {myself included} ..

wahaha. well that was sooo typical. newayz. other than that. this year was different.
this year was more livable. however that might work. well all i known is that it was everything i didn't expect, yet expected all the same. it was soooo....weird

how to say??

God explained that it wasn't all about me. and that i wasnt all there was. but he also made it so that evn tho i wasnt spoken over, i wasnt dissapointed. yet when i started to think that this camp wasn't for me. it was for every1 else who was getting lotts outta it. he told me not to think that. cos this camp WAS for me, and that i needed to focus on Him n stuff....uhh. cant explain. but i'll try

i cant rely on the attention
i cant be the person everyone thinks i am
i cant feel sorry for myself
i have to look to him
must be the person God's plans for me say i am
i need to understand that it is about God
it's His ways, his plans, his voice
yet its also about me
its the words that count
the words that bring life and death
yet actions speak all the same
they will either support or conflict each other
awake; spirit gurl
2 dimentions.
live them both simultaneously
connected by me
connected by God
existant because of God
because of his love
because he is love
i will not cry anymore
be brought up
exalt God
forget self
dont be selfish
expect that which you desire in your heart
and then more
and reach for more
open your heart
annointing is everywhere
dont forget God
faith is NOW
hope is FUTURE
faith works in unity
we need G-U-T-S in the spirit {LOL}
faith is trust and confidence
prayer are when two are in love
joel2:28
its not about being jiggy.{wahahahah}
your sons and daughters will PROPHESY
see visions = video
BELIEVE
wisdom
knowledge
healing
tongues
diserning of spirits
the cause is bigger than the effect
step into jesus culture
God's word in my mouth is just as powerful as God's word in his mouth
how much your connected to God is how much He uses you!
new generation
we all have the same measure of faith. only, few practise it
take it all
take it all
take it all
take it all
may i be the living sacrifice. consumed by your fire
transformation
go up the mountain
be brought out of the crowd
pplz thinking can effect yout life
river of life that flows through and not around
the storehouse of bodyparts {WAHAHAHAHA} faith can get you a new leg/eye etc. ehehehe
2 dimentions
i soooo wanna live it that easily
dont give up
give it up to God
dont hang with the wrong crowd
God's got it under control

theres sooo much more. but yea, that's just snatches n patches of notes and thoughts i got from camp. i really openeedd my eyes n understanding. n i think my spiritgurl is more aware and awake now. for daz n dre, my standards for bf have rose a mile higher now. alot of thanx to God and russel sage. i dont care about relationship like that up to this point! its absolutely BEAUT! wahahaha. oOOhhhh though theres sooo much more to pray about now. more people to pray about etc etc/...more to learn and im sooo exciteed and i sooooo shouldnt be on the net now.

we talkd last night. ummm. me n the gurls who were still awake; about sex, media, relationships, body image, the pressure of the world. and then about God. n i think it was good. short convos. snatches here n there. it was good. caught up wit few chiks. breifly.

oOOOHhh. after last lesson, wen i pulld leeny aside n we prayed...{how many times?} well it was really good. i liked it. evn if nothing physical showed. something happened!! i know it did! serious, thats the song atm. serious. joy williams:

Do you ever get the feeling
People think you're crazy
Cause you trust what they can't see
Do you ever get the feeling
People think you&Mac are shallow
And you will change what you believe
But I'm not here to argue
About what others think and feel
Cause I'm not ashamed to tell anyone
What I know to be real

I'm serious about the stand I'm taking
Serious about the choice I'm making
Serious about the things that I believe
I'm serious about the talk I'm talking
The evidence is in the walk I'm walking
Serious about love and purity
I'm serious as I can be

I'm not the first to meet with laughter
And resistance from a disbelieving crowd
But I got to meet it head on
I'm just gonna keep on
Won't let it get me down
I'm not here to give up
Jesus didn't give up on me
Even when the goin' gets rough
I've promised God that I'll be

...serious about the stand I'm taking
Serious about the choice I'm making
Serious about the things that I believe
I'm serious about the talk I'm talking
The evidence is in the walk I'm walking
Serious about love and purity
I'm serious as I can be

Won't change my mind
Got to close the door
No time for goin' back
To what I had before
I'm so tired of playin' all these games
Cause the more I see what You mean to me
The more I want to say

im serious about the stand I'm taking
Serious about the choice I'm making
Serious about the things that I believe
I'm serious about the talk I'm talking
The evidence is in the walk I'm walking
Serious about love and purityI'm serious as I can be

i gtgg nowish. gotta find out how to do 3-way calls. needa call stefffi {poulos}

aiiite mates, catchaz~!

boo

"if something goes wrong. blame the guy who cant speak english!!"

"if it weren't for electricity, we'd all be watching television by candlelight!"

"if chicken powder is made of chiken, what's baby powder made of?"

yup....uhhh, 2day was koool!! im not sucha loner in class nemore. well, its pretty funny. uhhh, tho joey and kav are convinced that somehow i am a man....hmmmm, dre would agree.
well yea, im getting more comfy around all the fellaz. n yea, so conversations start. they all jopke around sooo much, like they prank each other, so 2day's victim was shane. wahaha, it was sooo stooopid!!! its not that funny, but it was at the time.

welll i gottta get off at 8 to start my accounting work...or i get my butt whoopd on last day. n that wouldnt be too good would it??

hmmm. im a complete noooob with wood!!!! ohhh bummm!! i got a semester to catch up on! but its gonan be all good. i think. i know. that's riiite!!!! hmmm, funky song on now. i like it. hiphopy/rap etc,....

aiiiitey. i'll catchaz all later oke?
call if anything!!!
CATCHyaz

i am the KING!! bahahaha. [wears hungryjacks crown] *turns to vicky* noo banquo!! u will never rule!! I AM MACDUFFF!!!!!!!

wassssuppp????
2day was quite.....funny? i dunno...my english class enjoys my presence already!!! i could tell my the little eraser bits that were chucked our way...sooo...whilst listening ever to intently to the macbedwash tape and while nagena caught up with some sleep, we were quite suddenly interupted by a horde of cut up eraser bits. yes, actually they flew ever so gracefully over the table inbetween us and bombarded our very mundain? mundane? mondain? whateva, well they just made life sooooo much more interesting!! so we had a very interesting, pointless, eventful eraser-bit-war, all the while trying not to get caught my mz/mrs/miss smith [not the assasin :] n yea. a couple or more times the guys got caught launching an attack. so i guess it was an even battle. 3 gurls [actually 2, em din do a thing!!] me n nagena against...how many guys?? like 6....i dont evn know their names. n it was evn more amusing cos we were on oposite sides of the room. n mz/miss/mrs smith din haffa clue wat was going on!! she was waaaayyy too deep into macbedwash. sheesh...

newayz
wattt else??? my 'healthy diet' is dying already.....day3....it was a given....it kinda enforces the saying: "youve tried your best and failed miserably, moral of story: never try again" saw that on some1's msn nic.....

yupz.....i hope u can read this mikeee, im trying to improve on my writing legible whatever skills!...uhhhhh, lost 4 words. what to saaayyyy????

i think i'll just chuck up some lyrics now....havnt done that ina while....:
i only heard this song once....i liked it. by nichole nordeman. [she's got the koolesttt name!!]
brave
The gate is wide
The road is paved in moderation
The crowd is kind and quick to pull you in
Welcome to the middle ground
You're safe and sound and
Until now it's where I've been

'Cause it's been fear that ties me down to everything
But it's been love, Your love, that cuts the strings

So long status quo
I think I just let go
You make me want to be brave
The way it always was Is no longer good enough
You make me want to be brave
Brave, brave

I am small
And I speak when I'm spoken to
But I am willing to risk it all
I say Your name
Just Your name and I'm ready to jump
Even ready to fall...

Why did I take this vow of compromise?
Why did I try to keep it all inside?

So long status quo
I think I just let go
You make me want to be brave
The way it always was Is no longer good enough
You make me want to be brave
Brave, brave

I've never known a fire that didn't begin with a flame
Every storm will start with just a drop of rain
But if you believe in me
That changes everything
So long, I'm gone

So long status quo
I think I just let go
You make me want to be brave
I wanna be brave
The way it always was Is no longer good enough
You make me want to be brave
Brave, brave

yupz. ummm, ohh btw. i got a letter in the mail. from kailynn, it was awsum! she's awsum!! was really sweet of her.....

hmmm, dez n mish goin malaysia. bahahahahaha. astalabista baby!! ehehe. well its not loong. not loong enough to miss yaz newayz! :] come back baring gifts!!!! wahahahaha

mm hmmm...newayz....ima off now.
CATCHAZ

"let him who is without sin...
...kick the first ass"

i thought that was hilarious.....matty's [punker] msn nic. wahahaha....
dont feel like bloggn 2niote....catchaz

Dear God,

Thank you for today, for making it so that when i woke up, i was under a roof... thank you that when i woke up, my friends were still around me, the dark clouds still existed, that the funny loud sounding birds were still not extinct... thank you that i had more than just torn clothes to wear and that i woke up in an environment that i could breathe in...

thank you God, for allowing me to get to school today by a vehicle and not by walking, thank you that when i was at school, i was able to speak and actually say hi to my friends. Thank you that i was able to see the sights, meet the people... thank you that i was able to hear what my teachers were talking about and thankyou that when they spoke, you gave me the choice whether i wanted to understand or not... thank you for loving me enough to let me choose what i want to do... thank you for allowing the climate to change during the day and for giving me clothes and indoor places to help with the change... thank you for allowing me to see the miracle of a day so many times...

Everything else, the part where you spoke to me, the part where you used the sun and the light to say hi, where you blew the wind into me like a hug, where you used my friend to tell me that you love me, where you took hundreds of years to grow those trees on the mountain so that i could look at it for a few seconds, where you gave me the chance to even concieve the idea that you exist, where you showed me in a million different ways that you care about me... you never had to do any of that, i don't deserve any of that, but you did it anyway, jst cos u love me that much, so thanks for that too...

Dear God... thank you for allowing me to even wake up today... and thank you for giving me today just to tell me that you love me...

[that was josssss's prayer. i thought it was rockn. hope he dun mind >.<]
well the bold parts i fell in love with!! wahahahaha...they were just the small things....i lvoe the small things. the whole prayer was rockn.

hmmm....2day i spent 2 free periods wit ben. not our ben, but the other ben?? wahahahaha.

ur weak, tired, fall back...on me
catch? im too heavy.
im strong
its gonna hurt, trust me.
i can handle it
i dont want u to.
u'll be standing ready anyway? just because...?
i love you.
thats nice. i love u too...
u'll never understand
u cant leave me alone can u?
i dont want to.
oke. i'll fall back onto you
...wait, i need to do something first...

isn't that always the case?
i catch myself duing it all the time.
like i starve myself, trying to runn on energy that i looong used up
thinking i'll be oke.
am i oke? *shrugs. my life is good. im happy, but spiritually...its aLOT different. that's how it always is riite? lol. im livn a double life. not that its completely opposite. just different...

i gotta go beddy now.
too many pplz read this. oh! go get a life?!!? :]

rok on!

whooooaaaa, lots 2 blogg!!!

letts start wit yestaday, since thats the furthest i can remember...ahem...

oke...woke up st...cant remember, oOOhhh i remember now. i woke up n had to clean my room so that i could go 2 crossmovement meet, then the whole insidnet about the 'CORNER' it was very insane...frustrating kinda insane. newayz, i got 2 go 2 meet, n then we finishd up n joonah, pasta n [bumm!, 4got his name~!] well yea, they come n we leav suzii in their hands, oOOh yea, it was joonah's burfday too! n they were going to steamboaT in ct somewhere... so dre goes takes me home from meet at eg, n then we go in n i clean my 'CORNER' n then ask if we can go out 4 ribbs for dinner n come back later....yada yada, rents are in good mood, curfew being 11.

so we go 2 koorong 1st, cos dre gotta buy bible for nikole [otha chik] cos aileeny wants her 2 have a bible. n yea, so we go n i hang around the musioc section n i end up buying a cd, dre just gave it 2 me, n i listend 2 it n i liked it!...so yea. i bought it. was $30 n then 15% off was like...$25, which was more reasonable. well album is FALLINGUP by crashings. its pop/rock/punk....weird...i like it!

newayz, yea. so afta koooroong we go the loong way 2 dez's place somewhere in ct, cos we had sooo much time 2 kill!, so yea. we went 2 ct n drove around n then went 2 dez's apartment....so we walk in n his like "im locked outside my apartment" -________-" so yea, we go up the elevator [me jumping] wit the chik who can open up dez's apartment. mm hmmm, newayz. to be blunt n honest. its borrrriinnggg. so we went in n trried to trash it. maded it abit more intersting. tried to put different things in the microwave... n yea, me n dre tried playing tennis. n yea, ali trtieed playing warcraft...n yea....hmmm, so we bummd in this little TINY place till we decided to go n eat ribbs, n by then dre askd if we wanteed 2 go 2 his work n eat, for free [only hada pay for drinks] so yea, buffet!! all u can eat!! that was funn as!!!

mainly cos it was like a whole new experience. like im soooo not usedd to such a posh, rich ppl dinning. but yea, i tried to abuse it as much as i could. n yea, the waiters are funny..i felt liek sucha noob. like i din know if u hadda eat wit table manners n stuff, cos i dont have table manners n stuff. but yea, it was prettty funny. i tried to make a mess...n yea...oOOh that reminds me. dre decidedd to nic me 'slick' n his gonan call me that now...*shrugs, weirdo. but i rkn he'll 4get in a week.

yupzzz...newayz, ,so afta eating our fill [oOOh yea, ,2wards the end of our dinner, dre n dez startd gettng stooopid n inapropriate... their possibly mb the dirtiest combination!!

well yea, ummmmmm...yupz, then dre sends me n ali back home EARLY, thats mb the 1st time we came back. soo erly too! at 10:30. mm hmmm...

soo yea, skip 2 next day....sunday was pretty weird....cbb sharing, u figure it out urselves, or use ur imagination n guess wat i did on sunday!!

oOOohhh i remmebr friday, it was hectic!! went 2 ct n met steffi, n went 2 crown 2 watch one of the worse movies. [upside of anger] i think it was one of the worst movies, cos it was plainly stooopid, only 2 funny parts i can remember. n cos evry other movie iv seen has been good....yupz...newayz, friday was really really weird...n then youth, i went n nearly cried myself out. i felt like i had sooo much burden, i couldn sing praise n worship. i just stood there n finanly askd god 2 take it all. the strange thing is...that evrything was going good. i din kno y i was soo heavy!! n yea. i think i was holdn both the burdens i 4got i had, or neva knew existed and the burdnes of others. it was insane. well i crieed myself out n i came back halfway thru daz's teachn...n then paster...being the blunt he is, afta 20mins..."ey nikki, u bn crying?" wahahaha...i was like -______-" "yea,duh" i think evry1 was just like abit stumpd at that. cos it was soooooooo obvious....my eyes were red n crappp but *shrugs. it was funny...

well yea....ummmmmmm

thats all i feel like bloggn 2nite......gnitez all!!....any prayer requests? n thanx if im in ur prayers....oOOh yea, just hafta mention kailyn...THANX SOOO MUCH!! u rok! the letter was in PREFECT timing!!!!...well, , thats it 4 2nite!

God bless yaaz!
keep smiling!
the day's not over yet....wait.....wahahaha

oke oke....catchaz all later oke?? that'd be awsum!! oOOoh yea, n pplz wanna see coach carter???
oh tuesday?

boring againnnnnnnnnnn {lips r chapt}

hmmm...
spent day wit leeethea. was shortt, sweet. talkd abit. going to try catch up more...was ment 2 spend a lil time wit jaz b4 i went off wit leethea. cept then luminus effect [or half of it] was outside singin away...could she resist? such an awsum voice is prevoked by tune riite? wahahahaha. their all pretty awsum! soo yea...will hafta catch up wit her later....i love my english class! & in wood im still abit of a stranger...*shrugs...rnt we always?

well newayz...im tired...i needa call stefffi n organise movie 2moro....gonna catch up wit her...i hafta! wahaha. it'd be aws! newayz....uhh....i dunno wat 2 say. vidu's aiite now. lol {the guy hu i mentiond a while bak, being the jerk off user} wahaha...well i guess now we're gonan be friends. cos yea...on the day of the GAT we walkd around 2getha *shrugs. he waited 4 me 2 get my stuff, n i dunno y. but yea. so we walkd up 2 senior centre, n realised we needed our vcaa candidate number! wahaha so we hurry 2 scitech n login n chek ours out. n then he says he needa pee, n he told me about his i-need-to-pee situation during the acc3&4 exam! i was like --_____--" yea i really needed to know riite? well newayz....i wait 4 him. n then we go in n stuff. its aiite. cos he changed subjects too, we're in same acc class now. *shrugs. God's really weird. wahahhaa, n lovn him 4 it!

uhh...talk 2 leon now. like. asif casual friends. its aws~! likeb4 i used to just look @ each other. or ignore. n then we startd acknowledgin each otha's presence. like he'd nod n i'd smile wen we saw each other. n then we startd sayn hi. n now we just blabb wen we're @ the lockerz @ same time. wahahah. its awsum too!

hmmmm....yea. uhh, talk 2 ravii a tad more...ummmmmm...*shrugs. i dunno. newayz. raviii owes me alottta drinks. but i'll be nice. i only want a few. mm hmmmm.....

newayz....i dunno hwat 2 say. i need sleep. my eyes feel funny...aileeenies prezzy was due agess ago!!! cant believe i keep puttn it off!!! >.< ohh bummm!!! hmmm....i dunno wat 2 say.

trying not 2 watch tv.
it makes me remember wat the worldy desires are.
h8 it. like it makes u feel u need more than u have.
makes u unsatisfied
telling you, ya need all this money
cool clothes...its comical
a bf/gf will keep u sane, cos ur loved {pfft, who wants to be sane?}
n that sex is trivial {wuuurrrr, its soo...unkool!}
etc etc...

i dont really wanna see mr. n mrs. smith. oke oke...ima off now....
rok on!

BOO!!! wahahahaha!!
:] i feel like...going PAINTBALL!!!

iv neva been paintballing b4...oOOhh, u wanna take me SKYDIVING??? mate that'd be AWSUM!! wahahaha *sigh i feel like doing evrything now..

how about WHITEWATER RAFTING???

dummmm-di-dummmm....i really should email. i havnt emailed the stars in agesss!!! *sigh i will right afta this

u look SMASHiN' riite now!! wahahaha, love ur sox!!...and for those not wearing sox...i love ur toes!! WAHAHAHAHA!! mate 2day's waaaay too funn!! n lovn it! :] GUESS WATT!! im became smart!! i dunno how it hapend! its sooooo funnny!!!!
altho i think my smart is evry1 elses average....oOOhh i think i should start writing proper. i'll trryy cos pplz commenting about how they cant understand! u guys r too proper!

well, 2day i just hade the acc3&4 exam. i must say im satisfiedd with it....wait...im HAPPY wit it! i rkn it was kool! tho i didn completely finish, i skipped a few...ARRRGGHHHH JESSE Ma-cart-neyy! soz, his playing again!! *sigh, y r all the gurls soo crazy over him? newayz, back to b4. n my CHEM exam was posponed 2 2MORO!! i was like WOOHOO! wahaha...wel i wasnt actually that excited, just that it saved me a fail...hopefully afta this i'll gett off the net n STUDY. as loong as i get better then cosman its kool! like, i have motivation to do good in chem! my motivation is to beat cosman!!! :] wahahaha. itz pretty funny...he pays me out 4 gettn crapp n keeps telln me i'll fail. but i tell him he will {the crapp thing is that his actually smarrtt wen he tries...}

hmmm, but yea. afta acc riiite? its kool. do u ppz know about liam??? well i rkn his reall kool! evn tho we tease each other n his always takn my stuff n hiding it somewhere...its reall comforting. dont ask me how. its like, cos his soo bigg riite [tall] that wen i walk with him i feel like his watchn over me! wahaha. nowadays i gotta admit i feel pretty secure cos its like, soo many pplz got my back that i gotta thank God sooooo much!!! thanx God ur sooooo goood 2 me!!! ehehe. so yea. ummmm. wat was i saying? i dunno. n now we talk!! wahahaha, me n liam we talk sometimes. its just the little things but i rkn its kool! n yea....uhhh, he still owes me a hungryjack's crown! u kno those paper hatt thingos? well yea, he owes me one of them. mm hmm, that reminds me, his 'like evry1 else' wen evry1 else is there, like he jokes about sick things n goes along wit evry1 else....but then wen its only a handful of pplz his more 'himself'? i dunno if i have the right to say that cos i dunno him 2 well. but i understand him more getit? i dont expect you 2 *shrugs

wahahahaha. i got 15points 2day!! [thats 3 coke labels] madu thinks i should be humiliated. n yea, its funnny!

that reminds me, my faith to step out is soooo weak!! oh God, plz help me gain the courage....*sigh...mm k, lemme paint u the picture....*close ur eyes n read with ur ears, paint the picture in ur mind with ur toes....wahaha...ahem, sorry :]

well we were studying @ skool 4 accounting n this is like 3hrs b4 the exam...n then madu suddenly goes..."ahh crapp i gotta headache!" n we were like...ohh bumm!! this is the most important exam too!! n yea, so we work 4 about 1/2hr more n then she gets up. 'i needa panadol' oke...i'll accompany u incase u die! n we talk abotu our experiences wit headaches n stuff...n she starts sayn how things are blurry n im like =s 'ohh bumm!' n then it hits me!!! or God does "pray for her" i nearly wished i neva thought that...i was like
uh ohhhhh....can i do this? i know ur gonna come thru God, but i dunno how im gonna pray for her. mate my head was SWIMMING! i was like....do i? oke, tgive her some time n stuff. so we walk 2 the nurse n she takes two panadols n we're walkn back, all the while im pondering whether to make that MASSIVE stepp....ohh bumm!! n i start remembering all these stories about pplz steppn outta faith in their skools n praying 4 kids/teachers n these miracles n stuff....n yea. i dunno...it was sooo insane. well i'l cut the story short...i didnt open my mouth n make a leap of faith, tho i silently prayer for her, n i think that helped her. i dunno! arrrgghhhh y isit soo hard to take that step?? i kno God will come thru?? He always keeps his end up, just that i dont *sigh....how do i expect to leave a mark on the world? *shrugs.,...ohh bumm!

its like, i can go around scabbing coke bottle labels that ppl leave, but i cant say a simple prayer? *sigh. oke, lets not dwell too much on that....i'll try catch the opotunities instead of lettn em pass me slowly, painfully....

neways...

SMILE :] x) =D ;p
i like this font....n size n stuff! oOOHhhh the SONG is on!!! la la la la...if i had to do it all again...i wouldd...lalalala....if i had to do it all again, iv lernt so much from my mistakes, thats how i know his watchn me!!!!!

im offfff now!!!
STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
catchaz later oke?

TRY N STOPP US!!!!!

wahahahahaha...mate!! i soooo gotta blurt about friday arvo...was sooooooooooooooooo funny!!!! like all the wcc's came [jaz's gang] lol. newayz, we went to foodcourt riite? newayz, i'll cut straight to it...me n anndy r the unstoppable coke label collectors!!!!! got like 95points in ONE day!!!! man it was SOOOO AWS! n lotsa funn 2!!!...n hopefully we both end up wit mp3s!! mate his already claimed a bluetooth 4 his fone n a 'rockn dj headset' or something!! wahahahaha. this is soo insane!!!! soo, ,if u pplz buy coke? then plz rip of the labels n give to eitha me or andy?? :] cos thats the kool thing to do, the right thing to do wahahahahahahah

newayz....movn on...i din know studying could drain you so! that it takes ur brain n teases it like a fat slow cat trying to catch speedy gonzalis!! [wit speeddy being the knowledge] mate i was sooooooooo exhaused by the 1st 45mins of studying that i droppeed all my stuff n jumped onto the couch behind me n napped for 2 n half hours!! i was only intending 1/2hr, but *shrugs thats how it goes riite? well newayz, afta that, i really couldn gripp the whole studying thing. mate its INSANE!!!! i mean who can study that loong??? i cant evn stay awake for an hr!!!!! oh bummm!!!

hmmmm, im loosn touch wit pplz again...OOOhhh well next friday im going movies wit steffi, mel ang n me!! wahaha. us ole gurls gonan spend some time 2getha....cos we neva do n we should!! newayz, then we're draggn steffi to youth, evn if it means pulln her by the hair!! wahahaha jk jk!!. but yea, itz gonan be koool! i wanna see FANTASTIC FOURRRRRRRRR n MADAGASKAAAA n the loongest yard??? n yea

ummmm.....reall short post 2day....cos....cos i just really cant really be really botherd...really! wahahaha...newayz, 2day was awsAWSaws!!!! dancin 2morooooo!!!!!! wahaha...oOOOHhhh we're havn dinner @ welllbeing!!!!!!!!!!!!! w000h000000000000000!!!!!! its always soooooooooo funn wen we doo! tho im no longer in the cookn ministry...it was funn wile it lasted! *sigh. too badd...
newayz, ,got 2many pplz 2 chatt 2 now!!! blog mroe later!!!!

rok on!
nothing fancy 2nite!! >.<

...hmmm, my eyes be tired

wahahaha, ,if u noticedd....i got a new msn dp....i dont change alott...but i liked this one...it was orangey n it was of a chik tryna fly....shez got the wrong technique goin, but *shrugs....i wrote "flying" on it newayz, so pplz would realise she was attemptin 2 fly! ehehehe

well newayz....like jaz bn sayn. im lovn this exam period! im lovn the no skool, n the bumm around n the not studying [tho i wish i had the willpower 2], n im lovn the....wait for it.....NO HW!!!!!1 its the most glorious thing ever!!! spectacular, amazing, awsum, wonderful...etc etc....yes iv come to despise hw to teh point i enjoy EXAMS for the very reason that i DONT HAVE HW!!!!!1 wahahahahaha. beaut aint it??

Take my shoulder back now
Your head's too heavy for me
Please don't come around here no more
'Cos I asked you to stop
And you wouldn't

[Chorus]
I would give anything to make you better
I would give anything to point you to free
I would give anything to help you realise
I loved you 'til it killed me
So my logic wouldn't hurt you
I know you might blame me anyway
Well I'm sorry, I'm so sorry

[Chorus][added]
You're not helping yourself to me
I've tried all the things they told me
Trying to close up the wounds left open by you
And if I seem doubtful, distrusting.....I am
You said you wouldn't do it agin
You said you wouldn't do it again

[Chorus][added]
You're not helping yourself
You're not helping yourself by hurting me
Anything just to try and help you see
You ain't helping yourself by hurting me
Time to let you go, time for you to see
You ain't helping yourself by hurting me

brooke fraser: better

hmmmm, sooo yupyup....insane...i am....wahahaha, lol. daria just ask if something i said was relient k lyrics? wahahaha, cos it was good enought o be ina song! wAHAHAHA im touched...
dont worry, just dun put on ur sunnys wen the sun's briter, evn if it's too strong...its better
wahaha, was it that good? ehehe, cos he was talkn bout how he wasn too enthuised about life...so yea..just said that hmmm...

newayz, uhhh...oOOhhh i called kailynn today!! it was awsum! shez a real....i dunno...i neva knew she could talk so much!! wahahahahaha, it was good as! newayz. i hada leave cos dad wantd the fone....ummmm....i dont feel like sayn much now...

if i told u i thout i was in love....wat would u 1st say? or ask?
"R U SERIOUS!"
"whoo??"
"really?"
"thats kool"

*shrugs, thats the 1st things i thout of...well i'll tell u newayz....im falln more in love wit God evryday! yes....be dissapointed its no1 mortal...yet wahahahaha. newayz...PRAYER MEET WAS SOOOO ROKN yestaday!!! i LOVED IT!! i wana go evry week now....
i thought i was the only youth/young person there...i din feel weird....it was kool...n then pikkles comes n stands next 2 me, n its kool. havn really been wit him much in ages...his awsum! newayz, yea...so its just us 2 n then dubz comes. n yea....n then karen [neighbor one] n yea....it was sweeet as!!! n yea....hmmmm...

my rents dont think i study enough....n im pretty happy wit my exams so farr....tho i think their expectations r alott higher then mine...hmmmm...i dont kno..mixed feelns for skool. the main reason i trry [wen i do try at all] is for my rents or friends or mb cos i dont feel like failing for a while....

yes, be worried for me. cos i cant worry for myself enough....oOOhhh
called stuf last nite...it was kool...next friday im gonna train up 2 her skool in tooronga n meet up n we're gonan watch a movie n then go 2 youth!! its gonan be awsum....hmmm, i dwanan train up by myself, but i dwanna bring aloong a crowd eitha. cos she dun really like that. i think she feels that shez forgotten wen theres a crowd...i h8 it wen shez liek that. wen we ask her 2 come out wit us [big group meet] she'd be like "nah, you guys will forget about me. its oke, go enjoy urselves newayz" so yea...if i bring pplz, im only gonna bring like...*shrugs...a couple or something....hmmmm....its gonan be aws!

!!!

hi...i lost one of my sis's conector pens....waddup?...i think im gonan go now...im gonna go call some1...

oOoHHH, man benny is soo funny! he laughs soo much!!! love it! his a happy person! its AWS AWS man. wahahha. im stsrtn 2 talk like him 2!! WAHAAHAHAHAHa. nah man, yea man. this man that man. n he makes the FUNNIEST faces! wahaha, wen i 1st met him riite? evrytime i saw him or him, me, he used to go n make a face that would make me laugh lots or just make me beam!! cos his soo funny! n yea, his loud too! well yea, ,just thought i shoudl tell ya bout one of my aws aws frriends wahahah. newayz, yea. thats ben!!
{btw, plz dont pay me out. i think i shall tell u beaut readers about a diff friend evryday. to show yaz how blessd i am [i nearly wrote lucky] n yea, God's soooo good 2 me! keeps findn new ways to make me smile n laugh n stuff....man he ROX!!! majorly!!}

newayz...ima off now!!
love yaz man!! evn if i dont show it!! i realy do! i dont tell pplz to their faces, cos it not the way i tell em i appreciate em....dunno if thats a good or bad thing..
but catchaaz newayz....i really cbs playn wit sizes n colours now...mb later....rok on!

oke.....just had an exam...
paul alan, or alan paul....*shrugs, one or the otha lol....called "shez the reason"
oopz, no it isn. this is craig david. 'world filld wit love'
Saw some pictures in the paper,
of a girl I'd met the day before.
I couldn't believe that hours later,
I had reporters knockin at my door,
But I used to dream about,
the life I'm living now and,
I didn't think I'd miss those things from the past,
and I'm not afraid of leaving,
or letting go of what I had,
cause I realize that now there's no turning back.

[Chorus]
Cause I'm young heart living in a world filled with love,
so when tear drops fall from me like rain from above,
I can brush my troubles away,
know that deep down inside,
I've got sunshine in my life.

I used to think I could get better,
my girlfriends always used to get me wrong.
Some distant messages, love letters,
but those kinda feelings never lasted long.
Cause now the only love I find's within a castle made of sand,
and when the tide goes out it's swept away.
Though I got my peace of mind,
and time is firmly on my side,
and through the bad time I can safely say...

[Chorus]
Cause I'm young heart living in a world filled with love,
so when tear drops fall from me like rain from above,
I can brush my troubles away,
know that deep down inside,
I've got sunshine in my life.

[Music Break]
Ah...now that love's here to stay
I've found a better day to brush my troubles away

[Chorus]

hmmmm talkn 2 dre now......his @ work......oke. we like talkd 4 like n hr or less, probly less i dunno...lol....IM FRYING MY BRAIN....aiii, well that was house fone...but my mob is frfyn my brain masively....lol....
relient k: be my escape

I’ve given up on giving up slowly,
I’m blending in so You won’t even know me
apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention
is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away

And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity
and I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go,
promise I’m going because

I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity
and I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going
because

I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess of me
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity
and I’ve been locked inside that house
all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go,
promise I’m going because

I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
...So were You

sooo....wadddup? guesss watt?? i needa board....so that i can chuk up stuff....i needa pin board, so that i can keep on pinnin up the things that need prayer....cos this piece of paper is gettn pretty loaded!! i dunno....the whole prayer thing, still tryna grip...

i din 4get nething 4 the exam 2day!!! hmmm, i write too sloww.....n i think 2 sloww too! oh bumm, i betcha its good 4 something!! ma rents want me 2 study...so do my friends, n evry1 who cares more about my studys then me....hmmm. i want me 2 study 2. but its kinda like i dont wana force me 2 become some1 im not....but i can do this, im just got noooooooooo motivation watsoeva. ne1 care 2 motivate me? i dunno...threats do pretty well, but i h8 em, their not very happy...

skool....shmoool...bleh, im too young 2 be thinkn about wat i wanna be wen i grow up!! asif i can see into the future neways!!this whole skooling thing is soooooo stooopid! wahahahah....INSANE











oke. ima offffff now. catchaz!!
...SMILE!!!!!!!!