now im confused about 2 and hoping about another. not confused...mmm, dunno the word for it.
Anyhooo, my latest language phase is malay. Why? because my great granma can speak it, and understand, tho dad said that evn if she could, she might have lost all her hearing. i dont believe that, or im desperately hoping otherwise! She's 100+, thats amazing!

Tuhan kurniakan komu!
Conference is rockin, probably the most humble, concentrated and challenging little thing i've ever come across! wahaha, lovit!

and you came and you changed it, i didn't even turn to you and you met me there.
you washed me in my own tears though i fought it, the fears have begun to evaporate.

you are peace and calm and love. thank you. thank you.

thank you.
it is well, it is well with my soul.

Thank you.

Beauty.

God forbid it, God forbid it, God forbid i be a freakn bad teacher!
I got assessed today, finally, and although i recall saying to my friends i'd be happy to pass, I did pass and im not happy. im nearly really annoyed at myself. Last placements, i passed because my paperwork dragged me down, this time my supervisor didn't even look at my paperwork and freakin' passed me. I GOT A PASS FOR EVERYTHING. how can that be? every stoopid little box was ticked for pass. I thought i did well..i thought wrong. not that i didn't feel paranoid they wouldn't bitch about me. seeing they did about nearly everybody. Puck! really. am i so unstable? at least now i remember my passion, wahahaha, to be a good teacher. GOD FORBID I BE A BAD TEACHER! damnit damnit damnit. Got my ball tonight. cant believe i got pee-ed off on the day of my ball.
I'll be back in reconciliation im sure....but right now im feeling raw disapointment.

She said "Pave the street with gold/silver"
she inspiressss me! you don't understand! i think i love this woman's way. her expressions can change my moods! And yes, yes, she might never know her influence on my life. Ally fong! Your as much my hero as long as your livin'
Jo, jo jo jo jo! love ya! looveee yaa! dont make me cryy
Be.

She wants to defy you, she wants to ruin your opinions of the general, trod through your daydreams, but she wants you to see her. She'll come and be bitter, she won't smile, yet the paint stains on her arms smile at you. She'll smile if she knows you, wait, if she likes you, no...when she wants to. The pressure in her head won't allow her peace, no...the pressure in her heart won't allow her peace, because that bitter hole never healed like they said it would. The only hope she sees are children, the small and unspoilt. Give her an outspoken child and she would fiercely protect. She lavishes love on those who have lack of, unknown to her the source of the love when she needs to give...is forever. Just as she protects the small, the small protect her in larger ways than evident, they help her forgive, they show her love outside containers and they block her bitter thoughts to herself. And she never learnt love from examples, she has no memory of demonstrated love til late, yet she didn't need such, she makes herself new memories just as you and i make for ourselves new memories, and she's so beautiful.
I heard him say "What makes you different, makes you beautiful".

Agreed.

2stars 1love

i will always care for you, even if caring does and will continue to hurt!!Aileeny,Joss: always in my heart
Love you! oh oh oh...love you so! 1, 2...rock my socks! (ehehehe).
You shine brighter now, i love that. you make me wanna do the same.

5:54pm sunny, sun-setting satday evening.

beautiful. relaxing. (Nora Jones: feels like home)

ignorant of uni and church meetings right now...i have mb 1/2hr left of this...

you know, ive come to love holding babies for the comfort they bring, for the comfort i get to give. When they hold you, wrap their tiny arms around your own; when they grip your clothes; when they lay their head on your shoulder or better yet on your chest, and there's warmth, there's trust, there's comfort and something close to love if not love.
boys...who needs them? wahahaha, i do, to many of them!
somewhere in the bible it says "better is open rebuke that hidden love." oh so true! There's never enough love, never enough lovin'!! Never too much love. So rebuke me in the open, rebuke me in private, but don't hide your love, don't let me forget that you love me...and i'll do what i can not let you forget that i love you!

i could live off your laughs, or maybe i couldn't but your laughs give so much volume to my life you might not have any idea. wahahaha! yayyy! i love david webb ;)
but i love you more! so close so many friends so much...
and you don't come close and you want to..iwant you to. what to do?
lemme lie, gimme warmth, rest my head, something solid. I think you forget that it is nothing, i think i forget it is nothing, blow it up into much more than actual. Actual shmactual.

Walter, Jesse, Nate, want you to talk to me. I want to be here for ya's!

People i barely know add me on facebook...what to do? i don't wanna offend them and ignore them but i don't know them well, i don't want it to be a popularity contest. "My dad's better than yours!" love it! wahahaha! it's going soo fast and becoming busy and i don't wana forget easy days, as fun as the fast lane is, i do wanna cruise, i do wanna absorb the beauty. Breathe. breathe with me! ;) Seeeya sooon! Come to jevermore!