i needa cameraaaaa~!!!!!!!!!

why isit i can neva capture an awsum sky kinda moment? how come my memory is such that the etching of such a moment evaporates as majestically as it is set??

hmmm, i guess im still getting used to the fact that this is an online journal and that the world can see it, so i dont think i can be...or want to be as open as i 1st expected to be. i have too much to spill, and i dont want to become a reality show. because the raw colours rnt the prettiest, and mixing them can blur the exact reality and numb the truth. so i will only reveal what will make people smile, as that is the way i like it!! :] so....SMILE!!

*sigh, just read jaz's blogg, it kinda hit me over the head. i dunno why. i dont like it wen my friends r feeling doubt and self worthlessness n stuff similar. so if u r feeln that way...lookit the sky, it always makes me smile newayz. i think its because its a dream, too good for humans to touch, as it seems, whateva is touched becomes destroyed....human nature i suppose?

oOOHhh, ravviiii!! u said u'd do my blog 2nite???? i cant see any changes!! -______-" aii,well newayz....this morning was really really really awsum as!!!!! like, there was SOOO MUCH FOGG!!!! n walkn around in skool, i kep telln pplz the sky had falln :] n it had!!! n we were walkn on clouds!! n it was damp n refreshing and OH SO kool! i lovedd it!! except i din get enough time outside b4 it all rose to the top of the sky again!

i feel like saying things....but how to say it?
i wasnt thinking today, how do i kno? i cant remember enough of today. hmmmmm. tb's telln me to start a devotional email...hmmm, sounds good. wonder what it is....

well yea, hmmm. i dunno what to say!! alla sudedn i fel abit diluted, whats that mean newayz? i dont want to open up 2 complete strangers 4 one, but i want my life to be an open testimony too, getit? i dont

oke, the devotional emails r startn 2 sound pretty awsum....hmmm, again, its just like a toy, the excitment builds n then the toy wears about n the kid [me] moves on, in serch for a toy more effective in keep attention n longer lived.

hmmm, got my fone in front of me...ne1 feel like givn me a buzz? wahaha. i feel like talkn. kinda. man im burstn wit all this stuff i needa tell pplz, not all u pplz, a selected close handful of people who are close to me, yet have only just gotten further than the 2nd layer i guess. evry1 else is still at the surface. n im only half way to me. lol! i dun evn kno me enough! wahaha. this is weird. but i love u guyz newayz!!!... lol, halfa uz r randoms nehow.

oke...thats enough from me. no kool msn nics 2day. im thinkn too much now. i hate it wen that hapens. cos when ppl think too much, its hard to smile....which really sux. n im thinkn too much about the stuff that dun matter!!! arrrghhhh, its the big things, thats all. wen in reality, the small things r more important...mm hmm, clear as mud? sweeeet

cyaz, plz dont think hard, on my behalf. i'v thunk [eh? thunk??] too hard enough to cover next week's lot of thinkn...bumma. rok on!