yup, as the title sugguests, this is the 1st time i was paid out about being a christian, i thought it would neva happen! but hey!! the world's constantly provin' me wrong!!! hmmm, yea, it was in viscom class....i was copyin down some info about different techniques n stuff, n im sittn round the guys cos they were copying down stuff too...so yea, sittn round jon, kav n adrian. well jon dun swear that much around me cos he knows i dont like it, so he cuts down wen his around me. but yea, adrain n kav were jokn round, but man!!! kav swears sooo much!!! n it sounded so stoopid! so i was like:
"ey, mate stop swearing" it wasn ina challenging tone eitha
"why? is God gonna punish me? cos God can just kiss my ass"
....alott of mockery...
"am i going to go to hell?" kav had gone pretty farr by this stage
"at the rate ur going" i know i shouldn't have said that, but i wasn thinkn as much as i shoulda. well the whole while i was keepn my eyes on my work n just answering to him, but neva actually making eye contact wit him.
"what, r u saying im going to hell?"
wat was i thinking!! asif he wouldn't take it personally!! riite? aiii
newayz, movinnnn on!!
WHOOOAAAA, man, this really funyn thing hapenedd today, but i fergot....so now i cant tel u all about it!!...oOOohhh, we had pizza for dinner!!!! i only had 4 pieces, cos in the car we snacked out on prawn crackers...hmmmm, ummmm...oh bum, i cant remember!!!!!
well, before i 4get anything more, i'll just say u looked pretty kool 2day. like, u chix lookd pretty amazin', n u fellaz were lookn quite smashn! :] ehehehe, and cmon! would i lie to you? NOnononon! *duh...
i think i can go 2 kirun's formal, but its gonna be kinda weird cos i'll feel like a random!
hmmmm, dunno whats hapening wit the wcc formal...lol, dunno if im still invited??
lol, it was pretty funny cos at dinner, i asked mum if i could go 2 kirun's formal....so mum's like:
"ask dad! Hey dad, can nikki go to a formal"
"no, she already made up her mind about not going to the formal when she decided to go to the deb"
"no dad, this is different, a BOY asked UR DAUGHTER to another formall"
"oOOhhh"
man, they paid me out for a while, n mate! MY SISTER!! shez soooo....wuurrrrr..."oOOhh kirun kirun kirun. blah blah blah!!!"
newayz, yea. it turns out i think i can go cos i was invited by a BOY to anotha formal...big whoop?
ummmm, wats up now? im a tad cold, but nothing dramatic. but im wearing singlet top, which preobly explains it...wahahahaha
oOOOHhhhhhhh b4 i 4get...the whoel thing about mentors!!!!!!! I REMEMBERD!! woohooo! is evry1 proud of me? eheheh :]
well yea, the whole topic about mentors riite? its kinda confusing, cos i dont think i need any1 to help me thru life. like i dont think i could handle just ONE person helpn me out....in a way, evry1 is a mentor to me, like, evry1z an inspiration. n i lern of evry1. n i think to be restricteed to just one person is kinda scary...and it feels like a chop off my freedom...get me?
well addaz volunteerd to mentor me...i declined. n she askd my sis if she wanted to be mentored...i dunno whats happening wit that. hmm, like...yea
lots of my frriends have mentors. but it doesnt seem like the thing for me. cos having a mentor brings the image of me using some1 as a crutch, n i hate the idea of relying on sum1! like, all my friends r there 4 me, they got my back n all, so do i need sum1 to be closer? i got God riite? yea, i dunno. i think im scared of opening up too. i like being abit mysterious! i liek it how not alotta ppl, mb evn no1 knos the 'deep' me. lol, mainly cos i dun evn understand that part of me...*shrugs
lol, ehehe. im open wit God, well *duh, he knows evrything newayz. but yea, ummm, went round in circles riite? riteo!! ehehe...i'll be about off now....that was weird...
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hmm.. yeah nik, i dont think ive ever really been paid out about being a christian.. ive been asked some awkward questions n stuff.. hang on, well maybe i have, haha.. oh well. it's an opportunity to share how you feel, yeah? i think sometimes [not sure if this is applicable to that specific situation though] just the best way to handle it is to be honest and passionate, n not take to heart anything they say.. i mean, in the end nothing they say to you will have any effect on you and your eternity.. it's all about getting them closer. so keep that aim in mind..? n like.. pray. always be on the line to God, hehe.. it's nice when He feeds the lines to you? i mean, you wanna be saying what God wants them to hear, not just what you happen to think will sound good to them, you know? dont worry nik.. maybe you said what they needed to hear. you never know. just pray. God will work things.
ReplyDeletehaha.. yeah i think it's different being asked to a formal as opposed to simply choosing to go to a formal.. it's like, if someone asks you to accompany them to a movie it's i dunno, more valid than you simply just wanting to go see a movie? im not really making much sense. but yeah, i can see the difference. no worries about being a random.. expansion of territory yeah? im thinking that knowing you, you'll come away with a tonne of new friends.. consider it as God widening your circles of influence?
mm, the thing with mentors.. personally i think you cant have just one mentor.. but it is important to have certain people that you know you can talk to and share with about things.. whether it be official 'mentoring' or simply just real close friends.. because though you do need to be able to stand on your own and no one ever wants to be using someone else to keep them standing, God created us for relationship, n that's not just with Him but with each other.. it's biblical to meet with other Christians, yeah? i dunno, but i think it goes deeper than just meeting with them... you're pretty open, nik, and i admire that.. hmm. yeah, i think it's important to have mentors, people that you know you go to when you need help, prayer, advice, that sorta thing.. but maybe not just one 'mentor' as such?
also gotta consider why you arent so keep on the mentor idea.. like, is it because you're afraid of people getting that close? do you not want to be vulnerable? are you trying to live that people only see what you want them to see? why/why not? [i sound like im writing essay questions..] so yeah. check the motives for why your stance is what it is.