i want to be her

She says she's just a girl
I think there's something more
She says You changed her world

And the smile on her face is a dead giveaway
And I just got to know

So won't you tell me
Is there something more to You?
Maybe You could be the one for me
And turn my life into
Just what I need
Maybe You could save my soul
Maybe You could be my best friend, too
Maybe You

There's something in her eyes
Something behind her smile
She says You changed her life

Well maybe You or maybe not
All I want is what she's got

And I just got to know

So won't you tell me
Is there something more to You
Maybe You could be the one for me
And turn my life into
Just what I need
Maybe You could save my soul
Maybe You could be my best friend, too
Maybe You

She says no one knows her like You do
She says she's nothing without You
And all I know is that I need You, too
Cause I can't see her without seeing You

So won't you tell me
Is there something more to You
Maybe You could be the one for me
And turn my life into
Just what I need
Maybe You could save my soul
Maybe You could be my best friend, too
Maybe You

Maybe you, by BDA (better days ahead)

im been studying harder lately...harder that i have been during the term...."MUMMM, this is torture!"

wahahaha. well hat last post....it was a learning thing for me. God showed me something, its crazy, His a nutt. and now i cant believe how emo i did sound....never fear, its me again! well its me more that b4 cos the last entry did happen, and it did make me a bit more me-ish and mann...i hadnt had a tantrum like that since i was...hmmm....9 or something...(methinks)!!! i did the whole bash the bed and scream into the bunched up doona thing, slouch and pout....and then the dust settled, and i understood something, and i actually got a point of another persons view ....very childish perspective....me....childish...pffftt, that'd be the day

hands smell like playdough....and u kno what that means? it means that ive been playing with playdough... ehehehe making couch demo's outta it. its been sitting out in the air for waaaay to loong and starting to harden!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOooooo, its sooo koool it cant harden!! it cant die!!! blaaaaahhh!!!! i'll just resusitate it if need be....

oke, pplz comn 4 dinner in like 7mins approx...if any1 comes on time......

riteo. rok it on. God blesss

i feel sick...

i cant believe it just deleted. whatever

lksjdhfund

the new buzzz....commonwealth games! GO AUSSIE!

hmmm, well the aussies have been kicking butt in....everything?!!

well....last nite was awsum! FIRE FLIGHT...it did touch a nerve, but not one i think daz n daria intended. i kinda suddenly felt that the world was weighing me down, no....it was as if i felt the pain of my friends and the trials of my own...it made me sensitive and wobbly. and then i knew the Love of God, how great and awwsum and...true. and thats what overwhelmed me. the problems shook me up, but God, in all His spendor and undying love, broke me.....again

been fighting myself lately. but God's givn me a good ole push...it helps, wahahaha.

i registerd 4 manifest 2day!! gonna be exciting!!!

oOohhh prayermeeting rocked!!! ps singyap ROX! wahahaha, his lil lesson was kool as, and his soooo cute! stuttered abit, very cute! Sarah lead worship, very very kool. its like....wow, father and daughter. anointing and all!!

well dad made me choose between to parties....i chose kirstyn and jenny's...SORRY andy and guang! hmmm...im gonna try negotiate, that means i gotta do my HOLIDAY HW! grrrr

i gotsta go now. ali wants 2 play some pizza game! wahahaha. God bless! rok on!

riteeeooo

ahem....

thinking in progress...

suzii's last nite was kool. it was fun...not to mention, sandy? our beautiful SANIKORUS...
wahahaha she's absolutely no doubt the most beautiful fat sandy dino in the history of...me?

well thanx 4 the ride back mikeee!! it was kool, with the random talking! wahahah, and i hope u treasure that sticker!!

hmmm, FIRE FLIGHTS 2nite!! woohooo!!! nice chattn 2 u too aileeeny!

man, evry1 rox! speaking of rocks, i want one....im kinda outta it...feel kinda like im floating. floating!! yay!!!

how was sms? i din go!! booo! well the mirror trick's playin up!

gotta go spend time with the big guy, or 2day's gonna be a waste of a day. id hate that

gnitez!

waiting...

i gotta let go of, the world. waiting for whatever God's gonna give me.
forget self.forget self.forget self.forget self.

i dont live to impress
or i dont want to
i dont want to want
i need all that i have
constantly lacking myself
continually fighting
falling
living
loving
...

oh yea, SUZII GOT THE HOUSE!! wahahaha, yay!!
i really like ja-mirror-quy, i dunno how to spell it...so i decided to sound it out! "never give HATE a chance! we gotta hold this love together u kno...."

and and i found ELECTRICAL tape today while walkn with gracey [roks], and Mr. Payne nearly stole it! arrrghhhh! but me outsmarted him! wahahah, chem teacher shmem teacher! well, i taped my holes in my shoes, it worked...kinda, and i descoverd more holes! man, do i walk the talk! my shoes are the HOL[e]Yest shoes around. walk a mile in my shoes and u'll love it!...i do

well, my eyes are gettin....tired, and i havnt touched my chem! and tomorrows last day of skool. and my chem was due....last friday? hmmm, ,i got a double free b4 chem, i'll do it then......im gettn on the net too much again. bumma!

"im goin nowhere and im going to take my time, all the questions in the world i can leave in my mind. im waiting on the sunshine...sunshine!!! sunshineeee!"

waiting...

i gotta let go of, the world. waiting for whatever God's gonna give me.
forget self.forget self.forget self.forget self.

i dont live to impress
or i dont want to
i dont want to want
i need all that i have
constantly lacking myself
continually fighting
falling
living
loving
...

oh yea, SUZII GOT THE HOUSE!! wahahaha, yay!!
i really like ja-mirror-quy, i dunno how to spell it...so i decided to sound it out! "never give HATE a chance! we gotta hold this love together u kno...."

and and i found ELECTRICAL tape today while walkn with gracey [roks], and Mr. Payne nearly stole it! arrrghhhh! but me outsmarted him! wahahah, chem teacher shmem teacher! well, i taped my holes in my shoes, it worked...kinda, and i descoverd more holes! man, do i walk the talk! my shoes are the HOL[e]Yest shoes around. walk a mile in my shoes and u'll love it!...i do

well, my eyes are gettin....tired, and i havnt touched my chem! and tomorrows last day of skool. and my chem was due....last friday? hmmm, ,i got a double free b4 chem, i'll do it then......im gettn on the net too much again. bumma!

"im goin nowhere and im going to take my time, all the questions in the world i can leave in my mind. im waiting on the sunshine...sunshine!!! sunshineeee!"

yikees scooby!! like thats not where we'd wanna bee!!!

ouch....my fone....is on probation....
dad's not to happy with fone calls over 10mins........ahem.....
"who's number's this? who's number's this? why do you need to talk so long. this is more than 45MINUTES!!!..." yada yada, paint the picture.

and msgs....*GACK* i never knew i was capable of such....98msgs just last month. i think my thumbs are at the peak of my whole body's fitness!! wahahahaha, wait....i think my jaw wins :]

hmmm...well i exceeded $40...thats my record....and now....mum n dad's hit the roof. and OUCH it kinda hurts...well they din quite hit the roof. maybe the fan fell on them....hmmm....wellll

those who still chek this....my curfew...*whinces*...is now 2130!!! NINE THIRTY....arrrrgghh!!!
and my msgs...(sobs) 10 per week...or to be more precise, 5 on weekdays and 5 on weekends...gulp....AND ITS THE HOLIDAYS SOON TOOOOOOO....[mourns over freedom lost]

the thing was, rite? the whole time i was being seriously told off, i hadda try cover up a smile that wouldnt go away, and then by the end of my lecture and the recital of the NEW RULES...i was beaming, i just couldnt help it and i didnt kno why...

well. whats the lesson today class??? get seperate phone bills to parents....wahahahaha, jkjk. i kno i deserveed it....its just not fun....i kno we'll all loosen up later....but...now i gotta control myself....self control riite? this spiritual fruit should blossom shortly! wahahahaha

God bless!! catchaz round!

blahalada!

ohhh riiteee!!!

bn goin thru alotta things. little things, but things never the less!!

logic is something i dont have much of, but have too much of. common sence is the same! arrrghhhh, when i think....sometimes it throws God off course, wait. sometimes it throws me off course, cos i start doubting some...and i limit God, cos i try pack his plan into a little take-away box...aint too effective...but im workn on it. LET GO.....mate, how hard can it be? LET IT GO, God told me i was a control freak...i kinda am. doesn it sound scary?? well its evn more scary BEING it!

but God's helpn me thru. He always will be, cos im never gonna get to that perfect mindset, kinda a bumm. but who wants to be perfect anyway??!im lookn at the excellence bar! We can take it!

well....i took down the cross thing...now i got a huge gap that's always been filled b4...that now isnt. wondering whether i should slop a generous glop of paint on it...mb on the holls! OOOHHHH HOLLS SOON!! wooohooooo!!!!!!!! one more week of cmon-nic-study-nic. im gonna pull thru!! wahahah, its pretty CRAZY, i havnt had any sac's yet, 1st one's on tuesday. thats wood, then chem wensday, n english thursday...then friday LAST DAY OF SKOOOL. and a nice neat pile of holl hw!! BRILLIANT!!

hmmmm, my eyes get blurrd too easily again. in a way, its limiting my reading of wateva devotional or the ultimate kool book [bible]. if i wanna read in the morning or at nite, i cant go 2 chapter b4 my eyes start to unfocus...grrrrr, the glasses are meant to help me!! wahaha, well they do help a tonne. just gonna start watchn less tele!! so far iv cut down from about 7 hrs a week to...5? [tv dinners included] ohh yea, and we've also bn havn alotta tv dinners...

dad's bn workn real hard in the garden. i like that about him, he sets himself a project and he'll toil away in the flippin hot day building and finishing whatever he does! and when he finishes it u can see the pride just burst on his face! he can proudly say 'i worked that from scratch and look at it now!' id b lying if i said i wasnt proud too, tho sometime we pay him out for being a showoff, its all good tho.well we got another orchard stand thingy. oOohh another thumbs up to dad! he got a fairly decent array of tools, just enough for the average outdoor handyman! so in the future i dont have to go on a huge tools spree! wahaha, tho id need to take a look into the more delicate equipment, dad aint got much to fancy things down, cos he works on outdoors, wher ya dun need em.

am i rambling? i havnt rambled in ages. i need a rambling buddy...just to let myself loose and just....ramble. i think evry1 needs a rambling buddy, and those who already have one, good on ya! i got alotta rambling budds, i just dont got time to ramble tho...and i should be skoot'n off now! errrmmm, gotta do 2 chem pracs, 2 bunch of set chem questions, dt revision&research, write a couple of prac essays and do whatever truckload of tuition alfred's emailed me!! woohooo, dig in!

but no complaining! i love my subjects, yes...even methods...AND chem...AND english, and wood and vcd *duh. but im gonna have to work my butt off!!! hey, its abit like how i am with God. i love Him, but sometimes the workload is heavy an all...but it all pays out in the end. ya look back n cant stop beamin. evn now, iv done hw 1st term! ive already lapped my last yr! wahaha!

well. rok it on mates! God bless ya'll.
martin luther(i forgot which one) once said: ive got so much work to do today, i better spend 2 hours in prayer instead of one.
what a nutt riite? love it! love you!

quotes from friends!!

'...my spelling is Wobbly. It's good

spelling but it wobbles, and the letters

get in the wrong places.'

-Pooh

'...you can't help respecting anybody

who can spell TUESDAY, even if

he doesn't spell it right...'

-Rabbit

'Well, either a tail is

there or it isn't

there. You can't make

a mistake about it...'

-Eeyore

'They're funny things,

Accidents. You never

have them till you're

having them.'

-Tigger

'...one must be able to Breathe.'

-Christopher Robbin

'If there is any thinking to be

done in this Forest - and when

I say thinking I mean thinking -

you and I

must do it.'

-Owl

Love these guys!!! love you guys!!! rok it on!

orange & green clouds pave the way

i was running the wrong way. i was meant to go UPhill, why was i running down? it was fun tho. exciting, exhillirating! i felt high...but something was slightly wrong, and then b4 i knew i had run into a glasss wall, it hurt. like SMACK. dang it! i just lay there, the impact was wayyyy too strong, felt broken, n confused, exhausted. i just lay there for a while... n then some1 came. he was beautiful, and he treated my wounds, told me i was fit enough to walk.

i asked Him to walk with me, he agreed.
he asked me what i had done b4, how i manged to smack into that glass.
told him i had been running the wrong way.
he laughed, said he knew that much, but why was i going the wrong way?

i had to think real hard for that one...


i had my own agenda (note: HAD), i had too tight a grip on the control, thought i could do it myself, wanted that self glory. forgot about love, and its range, i had limited it, hurt the one who loved me the most...continually

getting back on my feet again, but i stil got scars, like the whole 'torn in flesh' thing that paul was talkn about, 2 remind me not to do it again.
its hard tho, walking away, but i got my best friend holdn my hand, leadin me thru, teaching me what love really is.

love doesnt need to be described. its unnecessary to say love is true, faithful, unconditional, the whole shibang...all those meaning are contained within it...LOVE. He told me we described it cos we had 4gotten its meaning, we twisted it till half its meaning had been squeezed out. until some even cringed at the word. why was it so empty? why was i, who knew love, limiting it to those i wanted? wasnt very loving, was i?

love is soo not blind!! who made that up? what a nutt!

well, dont i sound wise? wahahahahaha! well im learning, still make mistakes, but less. God's bn good to me, pffffttt! understatement!

im so thankful, for HIM, and 4 u, i learn from alla uz too. gosh, who am i huh? sound so...'mature' *shivers...well rok it on!
i LOVE u guys!
all glory to God, he saved me from myself!

bee the loveee generaationnnn!!! *dances in circle...lalala

ali's burfday 2moroo!!!!!!!!! (note to self: DONT FORGET)

CONGRATS ANN n ANJOU!!
nup, these guys din get married.....but sum1's expectinnng!!!!!!
wooohoooo. and no no no, i will never answer to 'aunty nikki' untill im over 25!! (25 exclusive)

ookkkeeee, its bn awhile m'friends!!!!!

errrmmmm.....update? im havnt a spankin' BRILLIANT time, tho i did trip over a few hurdles and hiccupeed like crazy. u kno who u are, u tripped up my week, but im not lettin down! gonna search evry bloomin beach i go to!! :]

well wassssupppps??? man i love u guys, and id hate 2 loooose touch with evry1 just cos im barely on the net or i call less. errrrm in methods the announcement came on b4 lunch n mr. weaton (hating announcements) pifted his duster at the speaker, his a cracker~!!! but im 5 exercises bhind.....ack....

shout out to aileeny n josss (i needa catch up with u guys, ya like shootin stars!!), n mish! n dre! jez! and last but definately not the least, Jesus! wouldnt have made it thru the week without ya. and the rest of uz are legends.

oke. COWES on monday!!! wooohoooo,. its gonna be brrrRRRRiLLIANT!!!!

i havnt blogged for soo loong that iv pretty much 4gottn how to.
i miss alotta people, dare i name them? nope.

raCh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ur a champ!! CHAMPion, LEGEND, HOTTTTTTTy!!! love ya.

oke, rok it on guys!!!
senior gurls cricket 2moro!!! woohoooo, bring it on!!! we've got this!! lemme be the new brett le!

God you rok, havnt givn u enough recognition, i dont think i ever could. but ur THE legend!! ur the love of my life n my best friend....n i wouldnt havit any other way!!!
please dont pass me by, n dont let me pass you by!

yo mikeee, thanx 4 always commentin!! ur a regular! i better hop onto urs!
-nikkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkki

bubbles and dish!

Take my will and make it Thine—
It shall be no longer mine;
Take my heart—it is Thine own,
It shall be Thy royal throne. —Havergal

oke oke oke...SAM 'n'JOY CONGRATS. AWSUM AWSUM AWSUMM wedding, awsum reception! AWSUM cake!! man, i wanna get a personalizeedd cake now NOW, but i dont feel like getting married :]
lemme explain, so the cake was 3layers high, on the top the bride n groom *duh. but the groom was bold, like Sam, and was wearing the exact same tie as the real sam too! and both of em had snowboards, cos thats where sam proposed (in the snow) and the bride had black hair (like Joy) and the styling was nearly the same. and they got a lil figarine of Pepsi (Joy's dog) at the foot of the cake! awsum or whatt?

errrmmmm, me n Ethan became best friends 2day. his a good talker, i mean, he's pretty smart for a 2 yr old. yupz, but his 'fish' is 'dish'. oke, so he loves bubles, but cant blow them, every attempt they get closer to his mouth till he eventually kinda eats it, wahahaha. his sooo cute!! And we walked and talked, and he hit his head, and he cried, and we jumped, and we danced. See weddings get others together too!! wahahaha

anyways, i had the most incredible kinda pudding cake ive ever had in my whole entire life. it looks like a creme caramel except lighter, and the saucey stuff is kinda like jam. it tasted like soap. im dead serious, thats the only way i could explain, it was like those sented soaps!! it was SOOO WEIRD, so i ate half. it was sucha laugh!! mann!! i want u guys to try it, its like lavendah soap. oke, hu's getting married next? we'll go to nathanial springs reception. oke, so its settled. yuupz

errrmmmm, n8 u owe me a tip!

aileeny's comn 2nite, so is Josss, but i dunno how loong his stayn for, i wanna paint my pants.

i think im gonna take a shower....i feel yucky. Rumble's back at my side, clean as can be! i needa talk 2 lotsa people! catch up with EVRY1!! (well done Captain Obvious)

but write now, i dont feel like riting, addiosss!!! i'll cyazz all round!!
ohh yea, and to the non-acfer's! come to our youth!! 8pm at ACF. i think uz kno where that is. ohh yea, its on friday. God bless ya'll!!

Proverbial pooh verse:
'If a bottle can float,
then a jar can float,
and if a jar floats,
I can sit on the top of it,
if it's a very big jar'
(THE PROVERBiAL POOH; Wise words from Winnie-the-Pooh)

homesick nic

hey
I MISSSS YA'LL
SOOOOOO MUCCCHHHH

malaysian food is over-rated.

happyyy Birthday Jesus!!!

wassssuppppp from mlaysia. just hadda christmas lunch. and isabelle's steppin on my feet...ARRRGGHHH!!

isabelle says "NO"
she's 6. and giggling.

anyways, all the kids crowdn round....errmm

interesting church christmas service yestaday! went to a catholic church. and and i got scolded for eating comunion at the rong time. the usher went and saw i was eating the biscuit at my seat instead of immediately afta i received it.....hmmmm, well he told me off in mlay, so i couldn understand. mum's like "dont worry bout him". i kno i din kno him. but it still hurt, its like the arm punchin the leg. it dun work.

well anyways, if uz wanna contact me, 0129306528. thats if u ur in mlaysia. i think its +60129306528, from overseas yups. thats what ma says.


errmmmm.

gonna open prezzies soon, i think, its a weird christmas, family's all over. dad's at his family's, ali's at india, im here with mum. bumma

miss evry1 there. short blog. see ya'll in ages. booo!
miss church soo much, the freedom of worship is not somethin to take 4granted. miss the people there too. mannn!!

well i'll cyazzz later, love yaz heaps.....