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~~Religion offers more problems for humanity to deal with than solutions~~

18th June 03. devo book. day 4. Journal
"...their hearts were not loyal to Him, they were not faithful to his covenant. Yet he was merciful; he forgave their iniquities and did not distroy them" PSALM 78:37-38
God is merciful to all and we have to forgive the small things that dont go accordingly or hurt us, under intension or not! Somethings can hurt alot and sometimes, most times, it's the smallest mistakes, I kno once Mum kissed Al goodbye and not me, so ofcourse I got jealos and angry. But 2day, I've been reminded to forgive!! I wonder if people forgive me easily?"

love n a deep tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude.
A sense of underlying oneness.

"So hold me now father, human love aint enough / ive failed and been failed by the people i love / but Your faithful arms they surround me / and any other soul who has to sail those seas..." <-superchick

"Two natures beat within my chest
one is cursed, one is blessed
one i love. one i hate
...the one i feed will dominate" -anon

when in doubt, select 'c'

i feel lately, that evry wants or needs to hear a reassurance of 'its gonna be alright'
so i'll be the one to say it!!
"everything's gonna be alright. rockabye. rok on by!"
.love that song!!
"put your head down, on my shoulder. be still my child, rest a while. and I'll quiet you with my song. rejoice over you!! with my song, with my songggg...."
-God, [thru rebecca st. james] ehehee

remember:
loveLife.liveLove

and...RAINBOW!! b e a utiful!!!

yo! well 2day proved as unproductive as anyday. only the days are zoning in on my acc34 exam...and that good no!! welllll, i dunno what happened, but i spent a good 4 or more hours infront of mr. tv,and then about 2-3hrs simply listening to music. about 45mins reading. no hw to do, but i din do none study. oke. i gotsta go now!!

im bak in the bisness of makinn earings. oke oke. addioosss!! {oh yea, ,so if ya got weird tid-bits, that arent too heavy, chuk 'em ere. well make du with em!!

mate, i got no time nowadays, yet i dont achieve anymore than usual....hmmm. theres a leek!!come backk!!! i just missed my train of thought....ehehe. ahahahWAHAHAHAHAha. imaa craker!! :]

riteo, catchaaz!

...i think im in love!! wahAHAHA. im lovn the stories. lovn the 'wasting time' tho time spent with friends is never wasted. oke, so time infront of the tv is...bother that. riteoo. fly away peter, fly away paul. come back peter. come back paul! mother duck said "quack quak quak quak...." but only 2 little ducks came back!!

on the way down, i saw u, and u savedd me frrom myself!! and i wont 4get the way u loved me!

so howz life on the other side of the fence? is the grass really greener? cos the turf here's as green as it gets mate! couple a weeds, but weeds are green too! ehehe. ohh!!! wen/if i get my own place riite? im gona have a big cactus, liek the desert ones!! and a palm tree, and desert flowers. ehehe, very b e a utiful but low maintanence rite-o? so will work out perrrrfect!! and i dont think i'd have grass, that takes too much effort. i'll sub it for sand, so i'll have a desert/island theme!!! oh i gottit all in my head!! i'll get the "australian garden of the year" award!! muahahaha. woohooo, and my gardenn will take overrr the worllddd!!! nah im kiddn, would i do a thing like that??? [hypothetical question]

i was ment to be gone awhile ago. so goodbye, farewelll i'll see you all again!!! bon voyaggeee!!!!!!!!!!

oOOHhhh, I FINISHED MY CHAIR!!!!!!! wahahaha. its the chairest, cheeriest chair ya eva saw in ya life!! its incredible unko, syco, hunky....and i LOVE it. well, as much as u could love a chair. i got flour on my pants.

oke oke, im gone for good now. well not good. but for now!! adiioss! God bless and God speed to you dear wackos!

yo!!!...oh, last nite dad was funny. wahahaha. umm....and oh! theres one way i can get to the formal. only 1 way to be allowd. i hafta win the ticket-designing-comp, for a free ticket to the formal. hmmm....i only startd afta skool. and cos i dun have fotoshop at home, i'll hafta try get some kool pics here. btu the comp closes lunchtime 2moro. AHAHAHA. how organised huh?

well. im happy i still gotta chance. tho i hope the competition isn too heaty, then again. im wanting it to be. cos i wanna know that i won, and i had worthy competition, and that it wasnt just cos pplz felt sorry and wanteed me to go. so i'll just givit to God then huh? if i win i go, if i dont...i dont! yupz!

movin on...there were lotsa shoes up on the sales, cos some crazy groupa guys thought it would be funn to throw em all up there....only...they couldnt get them down!! wahahaha. and mr. poppov hadda get em down, with some real reall loooong stick thing. ehehehe.

oke oke. dinnerrs readdyy!!! *ding ding ding. food waits for noONE!!! shame isn it? addioss then!! i mitebe bak later.....nahhh, cbb. wahahahah

riiteoo!!! gnitez chapps! God bless yaz. {raCh rox!}

there is hope for me yet!!

a psalm to study by...

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not flunk
He keepeth me from lying down when I should be studying
He leadeth me beside still bottled water for study break
He restores my faith in study guides
He leads me to better study habits for my grades' sake
Yea, though I walk through the valley of bad grades
I will not have a nervous break down
For Thou art with me;
My co-ordinator, my teachers and my friends comfort me
Thou givest me answers in my moments of blankness
Thou anointest my head with understanding
My test papers runneth over with questions I recognize
Surely passing grades and flying colours follow me
All the days of my examination
And I shall not dwell in this school forever
- Amen

awsummm awssummmm huh?? i dunno who made it up. but i leeched it off jazz's blog. for those who dont know jaz. and only know me, u now have seen this brilliant verse! riiteooo
lalalalalala.

hmmm. dre thought some bible verse said "yada yada...without gAmbling, and we were soooo confused. later uncle mike {the not-my-dad one} cheked it out. it's "yada yada...without GRUMBLING" so we alll laughed our butts off and u realyl hada be there for the moment!!

wahaha. welllll, gotta ask ma if i can go deb , bllaaahhh, i mean formal. yup yup yupz!
2day was weird. all teh beter huh? i really gotta get off the net. oke.

LOVE FLIES HIGHER, WALKS THRU FIRE
DOESNT CHANGE FROM DAY TO DAY
IF ITS REALLY LOVE, IT WONT GIVE UP
LOVE WILL NEVER PASS AWAY!!
love is patient, love is kind
some1 else wins, love doesnt mind
love believes, love forgives
n God is the start of alla this!!!
[hillsongs 1997 man!!! wooohoooo!!! awsuuummmmmm!! from the allthingsarepossible album, called...ummm, wassit called? The love of God can do, and its not the whole song. only the bridge and chorus]

yes, kiss me, 6pensenonethericher... another one!! perrrfectttttt!!!!!!

yo!!!! wasssuppp? well i havnt been a very active blogger, infact im tryna do all that i can to ensure i DONT go on the in-terrr-net. u wonder why they call it a net or the web....its cos it entangles you in this obsessive habit that its sooo hard to dropp!!! BUT....me, yes the more-than-concurress has done it again!!! yes, so the Glory to God. His been awsum 2 me lately, whats new huh? but yea....one issue thats bn 'concerning' me. remember i dont worry mikee. its CONCERN!! riiteo. well prayer meetn soon. man, uz should sooo come!!! man its soooooo funn!! awsummm! great!! love it!! well newayz. back to the 'topic of concern'...ahemmm

ive found that alotta Christian friends have been havnt ups n downs. me included. like up one moment n not so up the next {i shouldn evn have to explain} well, i was spending summore time with the bigG, {somethign i need to do more of} and u kno His promised us a forever never ending joy. we have this ever living hope. and we have absolutely NO reason to give up n hang our heads...so why should we? why do i? its something that im working on. and trying to understand. yes, , there are those cold lonely dark dark nites that we've all no doubt experienced, but we've got a promised dawn. what makes us different from the rest? they too have their ups n downs. So why should they see a difference in us if we're the same? its really scarey. man, as unbelievable as it sounds. they watch us like hawks. and its a very unconcious thing i rkn. well yupz. just thought id share. tho its scarey hey? how mature du i sound up there *shivin your hands"ers

well moving on. howz evry1 bn?? oOOHhhhh i got the 'on the farm' tattoo on me! wahahaha. its very very 'gansta' i mean *duh. evry1 wants an 'on the farm' tattoo. hence forth anyway.

ummmmm........listened to very very old skool hillsongs. this stuff is 'all things are possible' 1997 mate!!! wahahah. thats quite a while. well re-fell in love with the old classics. "love you so much" "in your hands" "cant stop talking" {wahahahahahahahaha, its a wonder} "THE LOVE OF GOD CAN DO" "I KNOW IT" yupz. when i heard em, man i went insane. its sooooooooo gooooooddd!! like i 4got about em. and ppl get free!. mannnnn.....the words. i dont have tiem now. but i will chuk em up next time. soooooooooo, oh sooo goood!!!

oh yes. and shout out to mikee!! dont loose ya shoess!! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHa i loved that. very funny story, mikee thought he wassa goner. its probably what scared away his sanity. childhood. same ere mikee. same ere. well newayz... i gots to go now crazy's!! bye bye!!

shout out from church!!!

wassuppp from ps kelvin's unit. i got bryan sittn nxt to me....muahaha. i kidnapped him....now i can blackmail the senior pasterrrrr. next is to take over the worllddddd!!! im kiddn newayz. and his confuse. oke......adiiossss

and he shall be called...pillow!!

jaz, i named him. tho the name wasnt as fun as the process it took to get there ehehe

well...."im in loveee with youu, so gladd i found youu, im in lovvee withh youu" sweet song. but i like track 2 better. and track 3 evn better.....riteoo

"its the art of comprimise, its hellos and loong goodbyes, its the picture of our livess" itsa lovesong. think about me n my savior. thats pretty kool. i gtg shower now. n spent time with Him....ehehe. ohh, was fun[ny] hangin out wit mlau n jaz. mm hmmm....n yupzz

"God only knows all the broken peices
only he knows what cha going thruu
God only knows what ya hiding inside
and He's holdn onto youuu
God only knows"

"ima child of edennn. yeaah
ima child of eden. i have been!
but i wont look back,
its just my past
the story doesnt end
for this child of eden"

beautiful voicee she has! joy williams.
riteooo!! i gotta shower. yea thats riite. im takign a shower!! *GASP. ehehe
addioosss!!

sweeet sweeet sunset

Search me, O God, and know my heart today!
Try me, O Savior, know my thoughts I pray.
See if there be some wicked way in me;
Cleanse me from every sin, and set me free. —Orr

~our daily bread~~

well. 2day i hadda good qt. i hadnt hadda good talk with the bigG inna while. well not a proper 'hows it goin' newayz. so on sunday i made a promise....and on monday i forgot it. 2day he still held up and i still forgot. but i rememberd. and did half of it.....but i hope i made it up 2day. but now its gonna be a evryday joy thing. God's been there 100 times for evry time i havnt. and THANK God. well i gttg now. quick quick.....2day was flippn AWS!! and i love my friends

*shout out to friends!!** wahahahaha. thats about the only pplz who read this newayz.
umm ummm.....pat on the back to God. his 'round the block for me, couldnt ask for more. LOVE IT! wahahaha

LOVELIFE.LIVELOVE

we live *duh

yo wassssupppp????
oke oke oke oke!!! mannn..last nite was prettyyyyy koool!!! had dad's party last nite!!! i did the brilliant decorations :]

well it was hectic and weird....heres a sum up of the event.....[out of order]

uninvited guests
body slamming the gurls
wasaby planning
streamers
streamers falling
big ballons
POP
magnums
dib dobbers (**ahem: WEZ n ADDAZ)
the last cornetto
monopoly failure
13
big 2
cj and the pillow
the pillow and my head
card castles
overexcitement
empire of cards
desert, sea, beach, jungle
distroying empire
bigkid
bye bye
streamers
pap-er-raut-zeee (ammyy!!)
big cake
flush
PARKING TROUBLE
dominos
antisocial gurls
click
*doh!!
apparently i have no eyes

oke. i think i'll leave it there...ummmmm

oke. i want tinyteddys. bye bye!!
OOOOhhhh!! i got the superchick album!! i think its pretty kool. the best songs: anthem *woohoo :its on :we live. the others are pretty alriite...and i got the joy williams album for steffi. ali loves it....hmmmm. the best song on that album is we. here. i'll chuk up the lyrics riiteo?? wait....i cbb ehehe. no hard feelings hey??

oke...i gotta du a prac exam for acc. addiiooosss!!

"WE LIVE WE LOVE WE FORGIVE AND NEVER GIVE UP COS THE DAYS WE ARE GIVEN ARE GIFTS FROM ABOVE AND TODAY WE REMEMBER TO LIVE AND TO LO-O-OVE WE LIVE WE LOVE WE FORGIVE AND NEVER GIVE UP COS THE DAYS WE ARE GIVEN ARE GIFTS FROM ABOVE AND TODAY WE REMEMBER TO LIVE AND TO LO-O-OVE" ---->superchick

oOOhhh. i just remember....i sooo gotta fill yaz in about jumpstart...unless i have already

oke oke...JUMPSTART WAS SOOOOOOOO HOTTTT!!!! mate. LOVED it!!
awsum awsum awsum awsummm!!!!

mann...and oke...heres what happened riite?
jumpstart finished...and jojo was our ride riite? well jo was really rushed cos pasta was feelin realllly sick riite? like he needed to gag kinda sick. so newayz. bibi n jojo go to get him panadol, cept bibi {being an army guy} outruns jojo. and gets pasta some quick panadol. newayz. we all hop in the car. wit pasta in the front passengers. so his stickn his head outta the window half the time to prepare to chuk. and other pplz in their own cars thinkin his totally drunk n wasted.

well we're all kinda praying on our own for him riite? well we starteed prayign out loud for him. and that was really kool. mr Holy Spirit joined our car ride. and then we're quiet for about 2 mins. and then we start singing!! like praise n owrship songs riite? and it was NUTTS as!! sooo awsum. wahahha. we made a remix of praise n worship songs, ,cos we sang half a song then it'd lead into another song and yea. very very exciting. well we dropped pasta home 1st. he was heaps better, but still needed to hit th ebed. newayz. we keep singing loud n stuff. then dropp bebz home. then me n ali go n jojo's out to supp! well that was really really awwsummmm!!!!

and what i really learnedd from it... PRAISE GOD IN EVERY CIRCUMCTANCE. its sooo trrue.... like u praise him when ur feeling really really crappy, and it tells God u couldnt care less. it doesnt change or effect ur relationship with Him. so go all out!!! let Him rock ur world!!! its flippn great man!!!!

aiite. i gttg now. adiiossssss!

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corrosion, redox chem. oxidation. reductant. thingy numbers, oxiisation numbers. thats it. i dont get it...........gaaahhhhh. welll. im trying. guess what im duing now!!!! HOMEWORK! wahahahaha. thats riite. im duing hw. well now now im blogging. but now asin the time being im hwink!! woohoooo...well i had myself convinced!!!

well...looong time no net.....and blogg...so wasssupp? how are you?? how beaut have the days been huh?? awsum God!! well i havnt brought a jumper to skool yestaday n 2day....sooo. no badges either....except the nike one {complements of anndy...thanx anndy!!} which is on my dress which i am too lazy to take off n on....i know its weird cos im commited to taking all my others off and on. well, u'll get over it :][:

hmmm..well wel welll!! last nite i gotta kooool sms from wez. go wez! and then i talked to mikee n daria, yuupz. thats it!! oh. and mikkeee! ur trash is on the way!! wahahaha
oh. wanna hear the 'jono's a bum' story?? well, at sms jono took my fone,....and took down ali's number riite? and then later on when i was talkn 2 him we 'exchanged' numbers. BUT he wasssa bum and gave me my sister's number as him. no i dont memorise any numbers but my own and mum's. so yes. i feel for it....
well, so last nite. i thought i'd try for a chatt....so i call, and on the other side of the line was this chick. so i think to myself wow. sounds like ali. confused, i ask: is jono there?
replies ali: nik, this is Al...in the next room. omgshh
me: HAHAHA, oke. nowonder!! i thought u sounded lik....
ali: *hangs up
she thought i was mighty stoopid. gosh, i felt like it too. nothing's changed huh?

wahahaha....ummmmm. heard this really really really kool 'song' the 2 nites ago. there was so words. just music. was very kool tho. im a fan. the name of the band was too loong to write down, and as soon as i'd heard it i'd forgottn it. i was half asleep.... hmmm....dunno what to say. ya've missed to much. oOOohhh, weekend's gona be packed. hope im allowed out. oh yea....

and PUBLIC APOLOGY to dazzz. i thought joss gave me the band thingo...but daz did. so...soz dazz!

hmmm....oOOhhhh. went to GLORY PLACE on sunday arvo. was kooooool as!! man, that family is soooo encouraging. the hoe family. aunty angelina and uncle eugene. man, they have SUCHA testimony. plus 8 kids. awsum i tell ya. amazing amazing. oOhhh they go to wcc! well they have a really MASSIVE house, which they live upstairs. and downstairs is GLORY PLACE, its like a church....a small church, big house.....very koool!!. and elijah still remembered me!! well i hadda tell him my name started with n. sooo cute!! and the new addition to the family. cute lil Isaiah! lil baby boy. umm. aunty ange had him in the shower of GLORY PLACE {love the name} all by her self. they say its symbollic, baby's born under the showring of God's blessing eh? in God's glory house. sweeet riite????

aiite. short short 2day. well shout out to STEFFI!!! if u dont return my calls, i will keep calling....bahahahahahahahaha. well ummm...i needa go collect my koorong voucher and by cd[s] very very exciting!! but DILEMA. there are waaayy too many different types of music that i like, and too many good artists from each genre *faints...its overwhelming!!!!!

aiite. gnitez!! ohh...heres chariott by gavin deGraw.

Staring at a maple leaf
Leaning on the mother tree
I said to myself we all lost touch
Your favorite fruit is chocolate covered cherries
And seedless watermelon oh…
Nothing from the ground is good enough
Body rise
Look whats over me

[Chorus:]Oh chariot your golden waves
are walking down upon this face
Oh chariot I'm singing out loud
To guide me
Give me your:
Strength

Remember seeking moons rebirth
Rains made mirrors of the earth
The sun was just yellow energy
There is a living promise land
Even over fields of sand
Seasons fill my mind and
Cover me…
Bringing back
more than a memory

[Chorus]
Oh chariot your golden waves
are walking down upon this face
Oh chariot I'm singing out loud
to guide me
Give me your strength…

You'll be my vacation away from this place
you know what I want
Holding that cup,
t's pouring over the sides…
Make me wanna spread my arms and fly

[Chorus]
Oh chariot your golden waves
are walking down upon this face
Oh chariot I'm singing out loud
To guide me
Give me your strength
Give me your strength (chariot)
Give me your strength (chariot)
Give me your strength (chariot)
Give me your strength (chariot)
Give me your strength:

Give it to me (chariot)
Give me your strength:
Give it to me (chariot)
Give me your strength:
Give it to me (chariot)
Give me your strength

Oh chariot

God bless. rok it awn!! AWS