he did WHAT????

wahahaha. its a kool postcard!!

yay!!!! YAYY!!!! CAMP WAS ROCKN! BRILLIANT! and it was oh sooooooooooo...strange? i dunno if ive ever been on more confused (and thrilling) ride in my life!

i dont think ive ever felt as oppressed and heavily burdened as i did then....and then after, the freedom and peace and satisfaction that Abba Father so kindly gave us...

i love you all!! and ANTHEM! I LOVE YOU LONG TIME! wahahahaahhaa. we're family again, and theres unity again, and God....please take center stage. Holy Spirit, guide and guard our hearts please. Jesus, light our paths that we can follow you!

Absolutely amazing!!
tho i must admit, events have accumulated sooner than i ever thought they might. its been about 4 hours at home and im not sure whats going on, my mind is in a delema as i try to drag it out my old mindset, and living life is harder. Studies loom, priorities scare me. i still cant find my beloved diary....its been about a month now and im not giving up hope. i rkn its either at home or church. if anyone finds it (called: I HOPE YOU DANCE) and yes....stoopid me didnt write my name on it...but i will when i find it.

its scarey, this journey. and im excited. i really am. but i guess its come down to the point where i need to admit that im not always on top of the world, as much as id like to be. anywayz. i wanna go to sleep soon cos i needa make up for the lack of it at camp, and cos i whince at the thought of the holl hw i still hafta do. cant wait till youth 2moro....actually 4get tomorrow for now. 2nite has enough in itself!

peace. i like it. Jesus, Lord of all! i have peace in the thought of You, in the thought of resurrection wahahahaha whatta nutt! God bless yaaz! rock on!
**thanx tim & dan! loved the sessions!**

a hope and a prayer...and windows of freedom

gazing out the backseat window, traffic and lights: green, yellow, orange, red. streetlights stand tall. cars whiz by. i see it all. i was so far away. There was more than glass seperating me from the chaos that routenely surrounded me that night. Inside was no different. we all sat arranged, detatched, waiting blankly to arrive at destinations we should temporarily call home. friends. family. daria, ali, aileeny, sandy. i love you all, but i couldnt feel you, any of you, then...then.

and then this song....

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Coz everyone is forgiven now
Coz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Coz everyone is forgiven now
Coz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Coz everyone is forgiven now
Coz tonight's the night the world begins again
Coz tonight's the night the world begins again

and He lifted me, my Lord, my Love. He lifted me, and we flew, out of the confines of molded metal, out into the night. So free. So high! and i felt that there was where i was meant to be! i released the fake reality painted by a harsh world, accepted the hand offering me a priceless timeless freedom. The stars were closer that night. last night. and we flew, chilled at the prospect, tho i felt no cold. and i felt secure, and i held onto Him and....and....wahahahahaa, what can i say? call me crazyy! that is love! this is love! IM COMPLETELY IN LOVE! and i wish you could feel it too! the way i do. totally breathtaking!!

im not anymore special, and it wasnt like a vision. its taking a ride on imagination (or rather, a truer reality), and letting yourself go, flying free with that very very special someone [creator of the universe]!
yea, it is a choice, i think i might have earlier foolishly turned down other offers, because it was a borderline decision, either lock urself into the lonely prospect and let sadness and lonely acho around you during those isolating times. or look for Him, call for Him, and He'd be there, waiting, purposefully...like He always had, just to spend that one time alone with you. We were never meant to be alone, You were never meant to be alone, so dont be! take up the offer! mmmm, i LOVE it!

well what to say? i gotta go do some hw now! i think ive done enough chem.....i gotta finish alla chapter 6 for methods!!! GOGOGO! why am i still here? wahaahahaha.

oOOhhh, ,b4 i 4get: SHOUT OUTT TO SUZii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she's a CHAMP! and man, gurly, dont freak out! we gotcha back! be prayn for ya! ya duing greeaaaattt!!! i cant help feeeln sooo encouraged by her. man, i love ur company more and more! and woohoo!!! press on! and dont try chugg it on ur own steam! it's all in God's hands too!

oh yes, and little nikki! i havnt made enough of an effort, and i havnt seen you in ages, but im praying ur recovering well, and hopefully completely very soon! stay strong! ur so radiant!

rok on evry1 else!!! LOVE YAZ ALL!!!!
loveLife.liveLove eh?

ballroom's the ball!

...ive got rhythm! ive got music! ive got my man! who could ask for anything more??
its on repeat in my head....and im lovn it. and the fact that thats the only line i kno kinda bums me out! mannnn....its sooooo funn! ballroom, or just watching, or tryna choreograph....well i shall attempt to find sum1 game enough to partner with me for a lil next week!!

wahahahaha. oOOhhh so i had a dental this morning riite? and well apparently i 'dont eat that many sweets' how awsum is that, my teeth brushing skills are mastered to such a level that i fooled the dentist!! *beams** well mum laughed, and i tried to, with his funny tools stuck in my mouth and sucking it dry.

errrmmmm. what else? riite now im chekn out movie slots, tryna plan for 2moro. me n stef, man its bn YONKS. and i cant wait!! just to spend time with her, to think we've lost soo much ground....we used to be sooooooo close! and grew up soo close! mate, stef u rok! i spent half my life growing up with you, as my bestest best friend, and then spent the other half of my life, letting that precious friendship drift.........ouch huh? well hopefully 2moro will be memorable!

oh yea, n dre, it was kool catchn up!!

pancakes only seem to taste nice when it belongs to sum1 else....thanx aileeeny!!!! ur pancake was HOT n very very yummy (dare i say i was seduced almost instantly)!!!

2day was day1 of shopping for formal... how du u think i faired? success?? failure?? wahahaha, man, lookin for a formal dress is kinda over-rated, either that or God guided us to the perfect shop. well the 1st formal shop we walkeed into, i walked out of with my dress. dress#1 i was really kool, abit more casual, but charlie was too much of a focus. dress#2 wasnt as bad, abit more formal, the skirt bit was real swishy, so that got 2 thumbs up. dress#3 was pretty much like dress#1 but definately not as kool, pattern wise. dress#4 made us all hysterical! it was the funniest!!! so we walked out with dress#2....! yay!! it cost $71.95
i think it was reasonable. its not cheap, but not expensive either so...*shrugs...

ive gotsa chek my mail. and i dunno what else to say? last nite rocked! the message really hit home. n ive got alotta work to do! both spiritually and homework-wise......ohhhh deeaaarrrr. this shall be fun! (no intented sarcasm there...im serious)

ohh and Esterrrrrrr!! i dunnno if u'll ever read this, but ur soooo koooooooL!!!!!!!! riteo peoples, u wanna meet a really beautiful, awsum and on-fire chic? Ester's ur gurl! shez HOT! and i really admire her...(no idea why shez still single)

well what can i say? this post aint very structured yada yada, and im just givn a brief account of the last few happenings, so yea. tune in next time for ur next lot of hopefully more entertainment! wahahahaaha

hey guys, love ya all!. OOOOOOohhhh
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO PIKKLES
and...and JADE!
ya both like family to me! and i mean that!

riteo. cyaz all! rok it on! God bless!! and thanx for ur contrib. in my life!

silence

There is something about complete silence...it's purity, wholeness, nakedness.

The best description I can conjure, for silence, is white. Silence is white. And unlike black and it's absorbing, covering nature, the silence, in its demanding purity, illuminates. It singles out the spicks and specks in the loudest fashion...possibly why silence is so rare in this day and age.

It took long enough to get away from the physical noise, the hustle and bustle of melbourne. It took even longer to clear the mental noise and chaos that had made itself comfortable inside me. Events and plans racing away, excitement, fear, reminders, memories....
I "walked" away from it all, a girl, forgetting temporarily the world that would not and could not last forever, to remember for a time and an eternity, a God, a friend, who would.

It was strange, feeling naked against a blinding white, in a perfect silence, it all droned away. I stuttered abit, echoes of my thoughts and words smoldered away in the silent dimension, like pollution, so I stopped.

Silence. I decided to remain silent. Be still. STILL...and know that I AM GOD. My defenses fell, and the white stripped me, I appeared before my Lord exposed and wholely myself. He taught me, led me, reminded me of ways and promises, repremanded me for my disobediance, gave me peace, restored me.

And then with the touch of a button, the silence rippled away and the white exploded into an array of composed colour as music made it's entrance and took the stage. And in the confusion of the sudden jolt between two dimensions, differing in time/eternity, and chaos/purity, it took me half the song to climb back and become me as i was in this world. Trying desperately to linger in the calm of eternity, but to no avail. The memory, as long as I allow it to be, is a constant reminder to revisit the secret place, and relive silence. God, my Lord; Jesus, precious savior; Holy Spirit, my ever-ready soure of encouragment and convistion, YOU ROCK MY WORLD!

you should try it. but yea, ya'll never find the time, you hafta make the time. decide to push it all away n try it. ohh yea, its easy at the start to fall asleep! dont! wahaahahahaha

riteo. cyaz alll!!! whoooaaaaaa, i need lunch!
SMILE IT CRAAZZY.
loveLife.liveLove!
[wahahahaa, hey ali failed again at acomplishing toffee, tho it still tastes wicked, its sooo badd for ya! waaaay too sweeet]

time to snack!

oke oke....so my viscom folio is DONE

aileeeny looks HOT

life is GOOY

and i dunno what to say. so i'll stop here, i gotta reserve energy for studying later tonite, might evn borrow corpse bride, and gnitez n God bless all!

[ohh yea, mention towards my family, mum n dad: ya ROK my sox off! thanx for all the support lately, ali: i just love ya!; n God, ur the cement n foundation of my family, n i love ya crazy!]

one more thing. heya mikeee, ,i think weneva i comment on ur space, if i say ur name: "mikeeee", it is considered prohibited...i think thats how it works. ouch huhh?

love yaz all!