a hope and a prayer...and windows of freedom

gazing out the backseat window, traffic and lights: green, yellow, orange, red. streetlights stand tall. cars whiz by. i see it all. i was so far away. There was more than glass seperating me from the chaos that routenely surrounded me that night. Inside was no different. we all sat arranged, detatched, waiting blankly to arrive at destinations we should temporarily call home. friends. family. daria, ali, aileeny, sandy. i love you all, but i couldnt feel you, any of you, then...then.

and then this song....

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Coz everyone is forgiven now
Coz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Coz everyone is forgiven now
Coz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Coz everyone is forgiven now
Coz tonight's the night the world begins again
Coz tonight's the night the world begins again

and He lifted me, my Lord, my Love. He lifted me, and we flew, out of the confines of molded metal, out into the night. So free. So high! and i felt that there was where i was meant to be! i released the fake reality painted by a harsh world, accepted the hand offering me a priceless timeless freedom. The stars were closer that night. last night. and we flew, chilled at the prospect, tho i felt no cold. and i felt secure, and i held onto Him and....and....wahahahahaa, what can i say? call me crazyy! that is love! this is love! IM COMPLETELY IN LOVE! and i wish you could feel it too! the way i do. totally breathtaking!!

im not anymore special, and it wasnt like a vision. its taking a ride on imagination (or rather, a truer reality), and letting yourself go, flying free with that very very special someone [creator of the universe]!
yea, it is a choice, i think i might have earlier foolishly turned down other offers, because it was a borderline decision, either lock urself into the lonely prospect and let sadness and lonely acho around you during those isolating times. or look for Him, call for Him, and He'd be there, waiting, purposefully...like He always had, just to spend that one time alone with you. We were never meant to be alone, You were never meant to be alone, so dont be! take up the offer! mmmm, i LOVE it!

well what to say? i gotta go do some hw now! i think ive done enough chem.....i gotta finish alla chapter 6 for methods!!! GOGOGO! why am i still here? wahaahahaha.

oOOhhh, ,b4 i 4get: SHOUT OUTT TO SUZii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she's a CHAMP! and man, gurly, dont freak out! we gotcha back! be prayn for ya! ya duing greeaaaattt!!! i cant help feeeln sooo encouraged by her. man, i love ur company more and more! and woohoo!!! press on! and dont try chugg it on ur own steam! it's all in God's hands too!

oh yes, and little nikki! i havnt made enough of an effort, and i havnt seen you in ages, but im praying ur recovering well, and hopefully completely very soon! stay strong! ur so radiant!

rok on evry1 else!!! LOVE YAZ ALL!!!!
loveLife.liveLove eh?