the apple hurt me, im scarred for knife!!

im tired. my eyes are gettng layzeeeeee....

the cold today...it was special. it was crisp and precise and it chilled me, the way cold is meant to. and i found it really facinating. just sitting there waiting for mum to pick me up, and then i stopped thinkn n thankin God for it cos i got company (yayy jazz~!) n yea, thanx for the foooood!

and its casual day 2moro. and i got the last methods sac for this term. and i cant find it in me to just study 2nite. chem is sucha loser.

oOOhhhh. Joy to the Lord! walked passed my english teacher n we exchanged "gmorning's" and then she stops and comments "nicole, you did well in your oral presentation, a good effort" and then i hafta ruin it by stating "yea? realllly??? i didnt think it was very well prepared" as in I only crammed like mad in which she replied "dont tell me that!"
well thanx God, all glory to you, for giving me the inspiration and energy to pull that off the night b4 and finish it in the presentations b4 me!.......(yes, im beaming)

viscom's sickly sweeet. im lovn it, but iv had too much of it lately n its making me sick.
wood is getting somewhere......

mish's birthday 2moro!!! so evry1 go spam her at midnite!

and i really really shouldn be here. gnitez!

quote of the day:
"nicole will you marry me, life would be soo much more funnier, imagine, us at 80!"
-that was yizhou....we had too much fun in methods, laughn n sayn the stoopidest things. well yizhou, she rox...tho i still havnt said yes

FAREWELL AND GNITEZ ALL!!

where else but queensland!

oke oke. so on account of last nite. completely insane!

so, we'll start with me entering the building....
*nik has entered the building*
and there was something of...uncertainty

worship starts, my mind's a wondering. i cant focus. and then it snaps. i drop evrything and i start singing, but i stop. and i throw all i have in my hands, in my heart, on my mind...just down. and i guess the burden slips down, and i let it fall to the ground as i fall to my knees. and i try to pick up my burden...it feels like im holding broken pieces of myself and others. all these hurts, accumulated in the period of 2 days. and i guess. all i feel there is blank, black, pain, hurt, despair, desperation. it was turmoil and i didnt even know what the cause was. it just wasnt working. well there....riight then. that was my alter call, He called me to himself, i couldnt move, so He approached me. and he took it all. he took it all. and i walked away from the alter, pain and uncertainty dripping off me. and i walk away. and then i walk back. still seemingly lost. i couldnt understand. and then there, he reminded me of his joy, and i smile. it strengthened me. and i smile summore, and i laugh. and its all back! the joy of the Lord. and there! all the uncertainty, gone, but im still lost. but not afraid. i take his hand. He knows where he's going. i'll follow him.

well then daz comes up n preaches. it was koool. it really was. and then something even kooler happens. daz makes an alter call. and what's so crazy is that it was the exact same call that i heard in worship, it was the same call that i had responded to in worship. but i still go up. i dont kno why. n then i laugh at my silliness, i didnt need to be there. actually i think God hadda reason for givn me an earlier call, so that he could use me to comfort another. earlier it was me in need of a comfortor...no longer.

and later, just jamming was funn, and just God is greeeatttt. oOOhhh yea, and then josssss comes up n tells me i'm RED. RED. and i loved what he said. it was kinda the weirdest thing id heard n never expected to hear in my life. but i loved it. ehehehehe. hope i dont spear any1 tho joss! wahahahahaa.

oke oke. well guys. RoK IT ON!

oOOhhhh. VISCOM IS SOOOOO EXCITING!!! oOOhhh, ehehehe. cant wait till im finished. but its takin agesssss!!! gaaaahhhh. but i think its gonan be kool. its not such an impossible thing no more! ohh yea. n i gottafigure out my speechy thing for monday. n do about 8 overdue chem prac write-ups. oopz. n then that prac test for methods! ahahaha. n mum wants me to go for a movie!! ahahaha. we mite go for a family movie, da vinci code. see hows things roll up!

well i dont kno if i can be botherd takn a shower........call me crazy, im feeln lazy [it RHYMES...2points for me!] well not quite lazy, i got too much to do to be takn a shower!

oOOhhhh, and im pumped about camp! n shout out to angel!! both of yaz! skool angel and angel my cous'! man, i love ya emails ange! CHAMP CAN BARK! wahahahaha

ohhh, and if u guys have the time. gerald mcBoing boing is on abckids i thinks its....4somethingpm! 4:10 or 4:20?

well he ROX! wahahahahaha.oke oke. im off!
ROK ON GUYS! n DOLLS! love yaz all...yes, even you! God bless! oOOOhhhhhh the JOy's of livn! the Joy's of the Lord! ahahahaha

i didnt pinch myself....but im awake...methinks

well birdz is gonna paint his room, n im gonna paint my own loo. when i get a place of my own.....

lets seeeee, the roles of manufacturing industries:
to succeed in satisfying the clients (target audiences) of a particular product, or range of products, in both design and convenience, such that the manufactured product surpasses competition; therefore leading to greater sales, and consequently a higher profit.

does that make sense? i made it up. sounds smarty hey? look what im pulln outta this brain of mine lately. i dunno whats left in there. so much has been comn outa lately. hope i cant rememeber to breathe occasionally.

hey hey, hows abouts an icecream. id love one....now? nah. tomorrow? no can do. wensday! fine with me! hey wait a sec....im outta change. but i gotta colesmyer giftcard...that'd do riite? will do.

:] i like talkn 2 myself. or not that i like or dont like it. i just do, and it just works. and i think im rambling.

i should go. i kno i shouldn have come on. greeeaaaatttttt, now i gotta find more ways to distract or undistract myself. rumble's koool. his soo koooool. oke dokies. i feel so....funnny...outta it.

truth? i dunno what to do?! im exhausted. excited. and i know what to do. or i think i know what to do, but i dont think i want to do it. and i feel like chasing my tail. if i have one. i mean i feel like im chasing my tail.

riteo. God, i need ya 2 be my strength in times of weakness (homework/study) i think im gonna pop. ..........hey! like that chik on the 1st charlie n the choc factory, ,how she was gonna pop, so theyt hadda squeez the blueberry juice outta her b4 she popped! well kinda like that.......kinda

oke oke. i BE GOING NOW~!....NOW!...no.....NOW!
:] wAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHa.....cyaz guys. delusional...funny word, that!

yea, i started it....again

hey hey. about the mothersday thing......
MY SOURCES HAD IT WRONG. and yes, pass the buck.......ur turn!

ali hit me over the head for freakn out about what to get mum....wahahaha, good ole ali. she knows too much.......younger sisters inherit more i rkn. i get all the random things that skipped 7 generations or something! yea well. moving onnnn!!

God's beeeeeen KOOOOOOOOOOOOL. like...just himself, you know, the all-knowing, all-lovin, all-faithful God who's just allways there for me.....and you too if u let him i guess.

ohhh yea. n HI PATTY, yea course i remember you! thanx 4 stoppppn by!. du u gotsa blog too? cos thatd be koool! ohh yea. shout out to THE STARS of my life!!!! i think we dimmed down enough for 2 lifetimes, and we're back on track! im stoaked, love u guys!
(i lvoe that word. stoaked...is that how ya spell it) and ive been spelling love wrong, constantly! ohh deaaarrrr! its the essence of life and i CANT SPELL IT WRITE! look away! weep for my flimsy fingers! ohhh yuk!

mooooovin on!
im currently in LOVE (woohoo, i spelt it right at FIRST ATTEMPT) with this random guy on the net. absolute genius and his pictures are HOT! seriously, and his words are like poetry and its perfect and i think he saved my life unknowingly.....deeary me, its all hunky-dorey (love that word too!)
here, chek it out!

http://www.binkyswoodworking.com/LaminatingStock.html


well, id hate to bore ya! (....actuallyy) and i gotstago......
ALI's HIJACKING!!!!

-gnitez all! God bless yaz!

waahahahaha.
well ohh yea. i should, might as well mention the others who comment. Golden gurl Rockstar! you are a LEGEND! ....n mikeeeee!!! ur alright.......{nah, u rok too}

reminder: mothersday tomorrow!

when you enter a community you should know,
where youre presence has resided for a good 5 years and counting,
and you're greeted with news that knocks light outta ya,
i wonder, why am i still surrounded by strangers?

R.I.P Ryan
im sorry, God im so sorry!

lesson learnt!

it wasnt until youth that God really spoke to me, the whole day had been drifty...
i wasnt really feeling anything. i wanted to, but i just felt blank. i knew i had some effect on the result. and i knew that crying wouldnt solve it. but i cried when i saw them crying. and i didnt know how to comfort them. nobody really knew him well. but when their gone, evryone wishes they had.

i had become passive towards Spiritual Opposition and justified it as being patient. that word hit home. thanx Corey, thanx God. i had been walking into skool every day, easily containing my passion for God in a little bag that i carried to every class. Reluctantly opening it occasionally.

lesson learnt.
i didnt really have a passion. Now i do. And now....im just gonna burst at skool. its gonna be hard and raw tear to my pride, but whats that in comparison to God's glory? and my friend's lives?

Therefore this is what the LORD says:

"If you repent, I will restore you
that you may serve me;
if you utter worthy, not worthless, words,
you will be my spokes[wo]man.
Let this people turn to you,
but you must not turn to them.
I will make you a wall to this people,
a fortified wall of bronze;
they will fight against you
but will not overcome you,
for I am with you
to rescue and save you..."
declares the LORD
Jeremiah 15:19&20

oke. dre's party later. i have a good 5hours to study :]
oh God, please prepare us all for the party, let us be ur light there!

hmmm....oOOhhh yea, i got 2 words last nite, which i'll hold in heart for the rest of my life, lease i forget. riteoooo. what else???

i should be off now!!!

cyaz guys!

loveLife.liveLove
God bless! and SHINE guys...
SHINE IT CRAZY!!!

*faints...totally smack bang awsum

its bn a greaaaatttt day and i feel soo blessd!!!!

and the tracks are B E A UTIFUL!!!!! mann..I LOVE DISNEY!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOOO. and POCOYO! and YOU GUYS!!!...and GOD

wahahahahaha. the randomest things! LOVE EM!! tho ma think the 'junkyard' is building up! hey, one mum's trash is another girl's treasure???

welll. thanks God, evrything's gone perfect 2day. and its just soooo kooool. ohh, did i mention ALI ROX!!!!! wahahahaha. awsum. and thanx guys for spamming me msgs, it did feel greaaattt, and yea. mann. i cant believe its not butter!!

*jumps up n down!!! n goes crazy!!!****

aarrrrgghhhhh!!!! i feel like i dont need a thing! well i kinda dont. So. God bless ya'll more than He's blessd me, its an instant pick-me-up, and particularly perminant too!!

well my only concern 2morow is the english and getting to tuition and keeping awake for tuition, chem and methods. whatta monster! and then i gotta get my folio up for wood. viscom's making more sense....and twisted words....no i do not give out lap dances........................................

well i really shouldnt be here, but heres a tribute to ya'll out there, flippin greaaaaattttt guys....and gals. woohooo!!!

this week's intense, *shrugs* its only year 12 huh?

"every moment red letter....a whole new worlddd"
what's red-letter mean?