i need you more than ever

constantly screaming.chaos keeps rising.spirit is starving...what have i done?

I don't know what You saw in me
But I'm glad you believed
In spite of my condition
That Your mission was to rescue my heart

Don't understand the sacrifice
Why You gave up your life for the sake of my soul
Only heaven knows

There's a mystery that lies
Within the logic of your love
There's an undying mercy
That I'm unworthy of

If that isn't reason enough to love You
Reason enough to give You
All of my heart and soul
There'll never be a reason
If that isn't reason enough to trust You
Reason enough to give You
All of my life I know
There'll never be a reason
If that isn't reason enough

You have opened my eyes to see
The miracle You have made of me
I am your creation
So keep reminding me

There's a mercy so much stronger
Than the weaknesses in me
And there are glimpses of You power
That make it easy to believe

If that isn't reason enough to love You
Reason enough to give You
All of my heart and soul
There'll never be a reason
If that isn't reason enough to trust You
Reason enough to give You
All of my life I know
There'll never be a reason
If that isn't reason enough

God's been with me lately (always has been) but lately its like, i can feel his presence constantly, as if His the one keep me alive. as if i wouldnt have, couldnt have made it thru the day without Him, as if my problems would have crushed me, and if the ground were merciful, it would swallow me.

God taking me to His corner, quiet corner, and ive got to be quiet to hear his whisper, i have to be attentive to read his lips. and the noise around me is huge and incredible!

i think passion of the Christ is on. i think i should watch it. but ive got too many things to do while im here.

wahahaha, dearry me, ive gotta make this more random, now its all serious n stuff...ohhh well, not alotta pplz visit anymore anyway...but thats oke

soo many friends, are hurting. it hurts.
but something happens, theres a surrender that takes place once we've realised that theres nothing we can do to stop the bleeding, theres nothing we can do to provent infection. and we come before Christ, humiliated by our own actions, desperate for a cure, and there it is again..that oneness, that knowledge of God, that reminder of His grace and His mercy. the healing begins, and it stings, but it heals, and if theres a scar to remind us of God's total koolness, who are we to complain?

drain away the poison, my spirit's weak

hows Nikki? i think she's outta hospital, but i dont know her address, i really should send her something. She's brave. Pure. God she's got something ahead of me. ive got so much to learn.

THE SCHEME is over, kinda wish it wasnt, but glad it is. IT WAS SOOOOOOO AWSUM and funn! and mannnnn, the prayer sessions b4 it were soooooo KOOOOOOOOL. ..(and i hadda wear makeup...and it ran when i cried)

i love u God. i love u guys!
mann im so blessd.