Dear friend,

Little did I know how I was affected by my dealings with people and that I mightn't be aware of my reactions to them.
So I was in conversation with somebody I had met through convenience and was familiar with via weekly acquantances. Upon his leaving our conversation, a close girl friend burst into laughter; and with pointed finger accused me without mercy "BAHA! YOUR BLUSHING!". To which I blatantly denied immediately. Of course.

I try to recall my thoughts. Nope, no, nothing there.
"Am I really?"
"YES!" *she laughs, she laughs.
By this time. Yes I am blushing, and I feel it.

Geez! What this means? My body's been tricking me. Because I'm meant to feel the blood rush to my head when I blush. And I'm only meant to blush on appropriate occasions! This is too much for me!

Now? Now I wonder how often I've unconsciously blushed and not known because I didn't feel it. And how many "wrong" occasions I've blushed because somewhere my brain's wires got a little confused!

So it appears I'm not all as cool and cucumbered as I thought I was 2hours ago. But to my horror! I fear I blush all too easily!
In my company, it would be appreciated if you:
- do not tease me about the people I feel not for
- do not tease me about the person I do feel for (this one is not applicable at this time, but for later preference, if ever it did)
- do not bring up my insecurities, unless it be to help me overcome them
- do not flirt with me
- do not accuse me of blushing (it will either bring it to surface or make it worse- plus I doubt I'll need you to state the obvious, if that be the case)

I think that might help me try to be cool and lessen my resemblence to that of an 11 year old.
Much appreciated.
Yours truely,
...the unimpressed blushing 19 year old.