Awaiting a Ppassport to further freedom!

gollygosh! i dont like the thought of google taking over the world! but i wanted to blog, so i created a google account, blackmail! goodle's buying evrything over! brilliant!

anywayz! SOOO much has happened! soo much i cant remember much! and theres been a lot of drama. theres been fun and the not so fun. and i dont know where to begin. lets start...

here.
DELEGATING DIGNITY
I have a slightly better bearing of my place in the world now, than I had before. Am beginning to be more aware of the things I do, attempting to make them good. Make my actions good? Thats up to the individual and interpretation. I want to have dignity not pride. Is there such a fine line? Or is it just me?

FUN & FEELING
Fun is not so active anymore. If fun is a good time, then I've found myself experiencing such in a quieter way. We went out to the city last nite to watch Goom's sing (and oh was it beautifully done!). After that we did stoopid stuff and posing on Matthew Flinders yada yada, but i think the time when i really enjoyed and relaxed myself was just sitting on the bench not feeling chilly and just breathing, talking abit to mikee and waiting for nothing to happen. I like relexing now. The jazz helped, a Lot. Beautiful beautiful! The sky was amazing! a tinted marron/purple, charcoal sky. It wasnt dark. Just very surprising! Nice suprising.

I think I'm done with surprises. I like knowing. My dear Curiosity has tired me out so. Maybe, without thinking, maybe just knowing and listening. Oh I'd love to!
Wahahaha, I try to more often now. But thinking is a hard process to stop, is wondering thinking? I dont know anybody could stop wondering. If I did, if I listened and seeked to amuse less, I'd be accused me of not being myself. I am not assuming, I have been accused...and it humours me.
Where anybody gets the right to accuse somebody of not being themself is unknown. Im not upset, just humoured. If you change (you always will) and I notice because it is not gradual but immediate, I'll tell you, you've changed and are different. God forbid I accuse you of not being yourself! And if I do, just remind me of it's irony.

Anyhow, My driving instructor should be coming in less than 15mins, I should probably grab a quick meal. I do hope I do get my P's! Think of me, Pray for me!

Love you sincerely! (Believe me!)