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Monday, April 16, 2007

just quickly...

Must be: presentable, humorous, charming
She is too large, He is ordinary, She wears too much make up, He is a slob.

A prideful sense, began such notions of "it would not do!" or "no wonder friendless they are!", without much of anybody knowing such of her!
And what was true in the end...she was not comfortable. How could she be? Completely surrounded in possible embarrasment; potential disaster was company away. She wanted not to be made a fool, yet that she was. A fool

...fearing dissaproval. She lived off approval, and made a good living from it, but ached at the slightest hint of anything otherwise. Forgetting that the one perfect and flawless person was not approved of one hundred percent of the time by fifty percent of the people! Yet she counted her successes there. Taking initiative to be approved of. To be loved by the people. It was of great value to her.

She'd always imagined herself under the scrutiny of which she placed others, and worked hard to remove herself from such situations. And shamefully it did suprise her to find there were a select few who were of exceptional presentation who did associate with those otherwise!

She fell short.

Judgement so heavily veiled her she forgot to love.

He reminded her,
"...but I Love People!"

So again, let me try again.

3 comments:

  1. Dear Nikki,

    I can't say I understand...but...how about I pretend I do? Acceptance is hard to win and fleeting once won.

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  2. been a while :)
    Regarding dissapointment * i know i'm a tad late*, its only natural for people to fall short of our expectations. Inevitably people let us down, thats the truth. It's rare that people come through for you, but sometimes if you take that risk and give them a chance- they could just change your life. you could turn the tables on yourself and pose the question, am i expecting too much? what right do i have to expect the standard that i do? just a train of thought :) i stopped expecting, i just found that easier. hope you're doing well :) love your words, they draw me in time and time again. never failing to amaze me. xx

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  3. hey nikki! i didn't know you have a blog. :] I found you on sandra's blog :D But isn't it great how we have the chance to get to know our friends better? i love your writing.

    keep it up!

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