raCh.
you are beautiful.

[s]melLy.
you are radiant.

gracEi.
im glad we're back.

aiLeeny-baked-beany.
shine! rejoice! sing!

aLi.
close to my heart.

mishle.
thank you.

jazz.
i miss ya.

mum.
our tears forged together are my jewels.

suzii.
hold on! i love ur strength

theres more. theres an infinite list. and im exhausted after listing a few.
im trying to not be so closed. wahahahaha, ud never know it...who would?? only one.

Better is open rebuke

than hidden love.

Proverbs 27:5

have i told you lately that i love you?

yea, im still holding back. im still scared of showing you all, all of me. wahahaha! mb not yet.

well the cold was there again 2day! brrrrrrrrrrr, i was victim to another wonder of creation. just trying think how it could be created, inspired, imagined. did i suffer? maybe. but i did learn to greater appreciate warmth, regardless man-made or God-sent i did receive it and cherished every ouch of it!! mmmm....it was asif the tention between an awkward conversation had been broken by the pure laughter of a long lost friend! thats warmth!

my OH MY!

im actually meant to be doing my holiday homework thats due 2moro....now. OOohhh yea, first day of skool was greeeeaaaaatttt!!!! kinda. i think jon broke our triple-pinky-promise....his a dead man 2moro!! im disapointed, tho not at all surprised. and he insisted on making the originally simply pinky-promise into a triple-pinky-promise! so...i shall pour out my wrath upon him in methods 2moro!!

movinnnnnnn on. i havnt got in touch with alotta pplz. my baddd. im so confused at where to start, what to do. and i think my time here is up! i probly wont be here soon. i hope not. too much to do! so much to see. need time to listen. listen. again. i need you!

oke. i'll quickly paint a painting, finger painting, clumsy strokes that unevenly distribute colours and meanings and rough feelings...

im on a mountain, and im nearing the top. terrain is beautiful, the view is incomplete, my eyes are strained. i need to go higher, oxygen seems lesser, i feel tired, excited, fresh, cold. im quivering and sweating. i long for the warmth. the sun is there, the clouds move to block it. i know only one direction. up. fingers are adjusting to the cold but hands but still blister and hurt. im not alone. i slip constantly. laughter is the best medicine. shhhh. rest for a bit, He leads me, i'll fellowship with you. smile. the top of the mountain is not far away. dont worry about me, im happy. "who never knew the price of happiness will not be happy" yevgeny yevtushenko (funny name!!). out of breath! but i wont stop prayn for you. please! ur face looks funny! wahahaha!! no really, stop giving me that look, ur crazy and ur face is funny!!