Now has me spinning with self invited guests and low tolerance. I wanted a little break....little break from, perhaps...everything....everyone, except family. Family's the exception cos they're always there. But the mirage of a quiet night seems more and more delusional. And maybe I'm to blame seeing as i busy myself up to eternity's end (or so it seems). And i can't say no. well maybe i've said no a few times and feel oblidged to say yes now...and im flustered because its hot, and frustrated that i had to use my call credits to organise something i didnt want to...its soo silly.

Oh, and i can predict getting calls from yet summore uninvited guests who ask where the party's at. Or else feel bitter and left out as if it was intentional. heck. i didnt want to invite anyone. heck, i want my selfish alone time...don't make me crave it so that it seeps through and contaminates everything i worked hard to build and purify.

wahahaha. Oh look who's throwing a hissy!! God, you make everything beautiful!
God,God, God. Oh my,dear dear love. Please bear with me. I hope not to taint your beautiful name. i need you. period. now especially. ohh...ahhh...

much better.
Thanks, Love.