...if love was red then she was colourblind. All her friends have be tried for treason, and crimes that were never defined.
quite catchy one that one. not related to me at all, incase of concern....

new line.
This is my last whole day in Oz til next year! my flight is tomorrow at 3pm and eight hours later i'll be hot and sweaty in malaysia truely danger! wahahaha!
Today is beautiful!
So I hope you grow and get better and become a walking challenge for me on my return. Hope you get braver and stronger and more enduring. Hope life treats you well or that you fight it if it doesn't. Hope you make more friends or bring friends closer. I hope you know your better than complaining and that appreciation for the smallest things is a source of joy.

There is something else meaningless that occurs on earth: righteous men who get what the wicked deserve, and wicked men who get what the righteous deserve. This too, I say, is meaningless. So I commend the enjoyment of life, because nothing is better for a man under the sun than to eat and drink and be glad. Then joy will accompany him in his work all the days of the life God has given him under the sun.

-ecclesiates8:14&15

I hope you dance!
love you plenty!

seriously guys, i cant remember having that much fun....well i can, but not within the last couple of weeks! I LOVE YOU GUYS! seriously!
what's better than having your last exam and then going to see ya besties, getting totally flabbergasted by the awesomeness of God when we seek Him, to the point when the air feels thick and everyone's given it their sweaty all! To then go out at 11:45pm to a carwash to wash a dirty white integra typeR, meeting mish, being embraced like ive been missed (i want to see you again). Then laughing as pasta gets drenched, then laughing as i get drenched! Getting overpowered because i've the strength of the stereotypical girl, getting drenched summore, fighting back...getting drenched summore. Then being given an overgrown jacket because apparently i dont look decent, in fact i look like ive just taken a shower and forgotten to take my clothes off, its strange because im soaking wet inside and im wearing a quite-dry jacket. how did it happen? I don't know, it's the strangest thing?! I don't know, it's the strangest thing! Run across the road to Maccas (those 5 seconds of running across the road were amazing, i dont know why, like i was wild and free and life was mine to make what i wanted with it, alongside friends -who could ask for more?), simple, see people we know, my neighbour, Pasta's childhood bestie. yeapp, the wets leave- i take pasta; the dries leave-tb takes bear. it feels like ive just lived. like i've lived and yesterday was as full as potential would have it! That, friends, makes me happy!

I got home at 1, a half an hour later than i said i would return. I cant even apologise because i wouldnt mean it, im not sorry at all, i just had the time of my life!

Refuge

I play the part of the unfaithful lover, again reconciled. Over and over.
"I love you," said I, "I will be faithful" over and over.
"I love you," said He, "I will forgive you" over and over.
Now unto Him who is able to Love regardless...

And she said “Think your romantic thoughts and speak your words of life, the world is not going to get any better.”
To which was replied “It could get worse if everybody thought like that.”
“Wishful thinking and reminiscing…could it help the future? Could it even help yourself?”
Still another, “What you don’t know won’t hurt your spontaneity.”

I’ll do what I can, forget bitter, forget ignorance, forget obsessive optimism. I’ve still got my gut feelings, my comfort, my hope, my God. So I’ve got ample reason to smile on till Kingdom come! :D

(And the world is what we make it anyway!)

A gold ring, another pair shoes to walk in, a little more interuptions, and double edged swords.
This has been the bundle of happenings of this past week and i feel it will last a little longer. That, along with mildly reckless driving (mildly...thats where it starts isn't it, no excuses I know, or should anyway).

yea, the geek in the pink.
yea, make me wonder.

strike up the band and make the fireflies dance, silver moon's sparkling...so?
partners for life are overrated and underestimated.
God, I never knew a love like this before...when you said "I love them" i just about died.

sleeep all day, i swear i could. no, i couldnt but i'd pretend to if you were to sing it to me. sleeep all, sleep all day!. today? today suggests chelsea beach and the journey to in a convertable. top down, dust flying into eyes just to feel that flying sensation, just to feel more free unnecessarily. but that's life nowadays, majority unnecessity. Today suggests small company, small talk, and short mentions of important feelings or happenings. Today calls for imagination, for wonder and greeeen!! Today wants to jump. we'd be accepted by today.

And then on the way back, to have dusk fly into our faces, to have the wind flying with us, pushing our travel into the horizon or something. you'd say "heeeeeeeey!!" i'd say "yes?" she'd say "here!" and turn the radio up and we'd all sing alonnng with more passion than could be captured. then one by one, we'd all go home, i'd say goodbye as if i'd never be able to say it again. And then i'd drive home, observing as much beauty as i could whilst driving home. be acknowledged by family on returning, sit outside for a little watching the waterfeature and then retire to some embracing unconsciousness...and dream of what tomorrow's today wants.

I LOOOVEEEE JASON MRAZ!
If you've got the poison I've got the remedy! I'm yourrrssss!!!

wahahaha. anyhoo, wats to say? I think I'm beating up my greeen monster, although still getting beaten too... i'll win, I know it. Like I'm gonna let some jealousy get the best of me? no, its not over my "love". no, im not even in love! so HAH!

I have a $7 library fine, because I borrowed a laptop and didn't know you get it free for only 3 hours...i think i mightv'e gone a 6 or something :D

brilliant...im poor. i squandered my money today...on feeding myself...i've spent about $5....cant believe it! wahaha, how hopelesss..im gonan nap now. because I'm tired and I think i tackled my first exam well enough. I have a folio, art folio due tomorrow at 5pm...apparently its a killer...they think I'm screwed...I think I'm a'right!

see, next week, though I still have 2 exams...I might act as if it'd over, cos by the time this crazy week is over...i might be over exams too...i'll let you know! tired....this will lack interest (aka, colour and random fonts and sizes) just because im tired and im going to sleep on the couch now...

roses read
tell of violets, blue
who wouldve known (so early)?
i'd be missing you.
fighhhhttt it fight it fight it, fight you
STTTEEAAAAKKKKK!!!! wahahaha! woohooo! iwantotellyou,
LOVE YOU iwantogetover,.mbineedyoutoomuch
SUPERRRSTARS!! iwantyourhelp.
"I think it turned ten o'clock but I don't really know And I can't remember caring for an hour or so Started crying and I couldn't stop myself I started running but there's no where to run to
I sat down on the street, took a look at myself Said where you going man, you know the world is headed for hell? Say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to"
-matchbox twenty legends, addictive song! LETS SEE HOW FAR WE'VE COME! LET'S SEE HOW FAR WE'VE COME!

Provoke me further, go ahead. I might decide to move out of my thoughts and into action.
What am I doing? Why? Why not?
http://myprivateparty.deviantart.com/art/Walk-on-by-38808947

I thought it was very provoking...but is it enough to make me do something about it? Bought another Big issue, it hurt my pocket but i think it helped someone more...Turn's out I have little under one hundred dollars to get me through the month, until malaysia, until I get a job.

So for now it'll do. Can't believe I'm feeling this...well I think I'm glad I am.

double dare you to live forever...

Find in me the hope

That you have never known

Find in us the faith

The faith to bring you home

Feeling a little unfaithful..which means the same as feeling unfaithful. A lot or a little, unfaithful is unfaithful.

What more could I ask for? Abundance I have, and I was surrounded by you. this reasonably thick air that i felt swirling around me, i knew was you. Yet I could not commit myself to it, to you. I felt like more; more in the wrong sense. AsIf my mind has grown bored and too curious outside of the abundance you provide. My heart, it seeks (in intervals remembered) your face. Your heart. But I've grown restless. Unsatisfied is a more frequent visitor. Are you stirring me? It is very uncomfortable.

Yes, I know the truth, I know the single truth and I know I need it, need you. The day is another beauty! I'm to be in pleasurable company soon. I need you now, more than ever. Yesterday's portion was not enough for today, and yesterday's portion will run short if given same today. I need more! My own steam is lacking, more evident now than I remember.

I'm not depressed, do not mistake me for it. I actually have no reason at all to be feeling like this, other than I might be sheding an old skin (an old self), as sunny as the day might be and as abundant as my food supply is, it is a little awkward. All is going well for me, rest assured, life seems leisurable (probably too much so) and friend's are great, family are great! I cannot blame any circumstance for feeling a little icky, for they give me more and more reason to feel otherwise. I will call it shedding skin, cos its the nearest explanation for this, now. Wait up for the fresh new me oke? ;)
love you plenty!

in dire need of a savior.

I woke up a little confused, where was i? How? Trace back my steps through memories of yesterday and I find myself here. On the couch! So what happened? I was eating dinner (pizza) on the couch very comfortably because ally was talking to the computer and the mum-dad tag team went for dinnering fellowship. I switched on the tele for a little(10 seconds or so), got fed up with waiting and without appetite for it's bull. I didn't see the need to switch on the lights either. It's getting gradually darker, very soothing, very natural. 6:30pm. I place my plate back on the table, wipe those oily few fingers with a tissue and get comfy sitting up against the couch. 6:45pm close my eyes and relax a little, thats the last time I remember checking the time.

I stir, a little cold and pull the blanket at the foot of the couch over me, fall back into unconsciousness. Then I wake up for no apparent reason. 1:20am. I woke up a little confused, where was I? How? Trace back my steps through memories and I find myself here. On the couch!
poo you!
This semi conscious life has got me in smiles! Seemingly a little pointless; hopeless. Like a child's efforts to attain something of an adult likelihood...without the adult assistence. Is life so restricted? Mundain? Will you beg to differ?
cant write anything here anymore!
I promise you more than the joy of kinder surprises in this life and multiplied in the next! (just because He did first! wahaha) its 3...ive been awake for 1.5hours.
i tried running 2day! felt good! feel hopeless
My eyes are getting blurry, Im hoping its time to hit the bed again! My body clock's out of whack! No, the novelty of watching sunrise will never wear off, I will if you don't go, i'll find others! Lisa, feeed yourself! Please!

The way we see it. That's all. We don't see eye to eye, we never do unless the conscious effort is made. I find myself here again, I'm not sure what I'm getting at. mmm...

I want to read, feel like reading. Think i'll go to the library today and find myself some insight!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! What shall I get for you?
maybe i'll remember...

JOOOOnes! LOVE YA! hope it goes well with ya, and i know it will!

God, teach me today...

who are you when you drop your guard? do you ever?

Dear Peter Max, please take me to that better world!! you rock!

I might nurture a dislike for talking to the computer. Something about it's emotionless reactions and deceiving temptations doesn't help me. If a conversation is to get awkward, let it be awkward; none of this 'brb, sorry was hanging out the washing' rubbish, you wouldn't do it amidst a face to face conversation. It's just such a pathetic escape from consequences of your words, although it becomes recorded can be corrected "oops, wrong convo" yada yada!

I'm building it up, this dislike for online conversations...why? because it gives me more reason to sit dreamily in front of the computer forgetting life, forgetting responsibilities and practising procrastination! Right Now? now is a reflection...

but i spend to much time here, everyday, waiting for a good conversation, waiting for someone interesting. Waiting makes up too much of my life. Here, online i forget my revolt of waiting...while adding to it.

I don't like this world of pretend. I don't like cheap escapes. If I'm to suffer, gimme real pain, make it strong, make me remember life and appreciate it! Petty was never my favourite, nor was smoke-screen or plastic covers. If the couch is made to be sat on, let it be sat on without covers. It the punch is to be dealt, don't lessen the blow because you remember I'm a girl; if the door is to be opened to let the breeze in, let also the sunshine that comes with it!

I hate hypocrisy, more so in myself. Remind me, without the sugar coating! Hurt me if that's what it takes, I'll thank you later...cos that's what love does! Hurt can only last for so long..

Mary Pickford used to eat roses, thought that they'd make her beautiful and they did.

And i walked through as many alleyways as i could find along my way, braving the scarier appearing, yet it was fun-adventurous (good alone time)! And it pays to be friendly! I walked into a gallery where half of the walls were empty, only occupied with hanging hooks and slightly disorganised furniture. Talked to the owner/manager/everything-guy and yea, he was kool, cant say i remember his name though i try very hard, talked for about half an hour about his life, what he does! amazing life! He travels, like he travels a lot! he's somewhere different just about every month! Apparently midway through taking down the previous display and about to put up works by Judy Drew. Sounded like fun, i think it'd be fantastic to work in a gallery! i offered a hand except he had a couple in line already...should've left my details anyway, hope to pop in again next week. oh poo, i've kinda forgotten where its located, i walked around in a big circle...
Anyhoo, preparing to leave, he reaches among the confusion on his desk
"hey wait, have this."
"oke! thanks! wahaha!"
i see he had a few on his desk. its a book called "Drawing on the Senses; Judy Drew" Its a little commentary on her life and works and then various displays of her pastels, one picture per little page. I like it, it was sweet of him. i like it how strangers are friendly and give just because they can, just because they want to! Bought my 2nd Big Issue today, I like buying them, I should probably read them too!

And I was walking and this lady was walking past me, more like stumbling/limping, and she looked like she was in soooo much pain! and i just walked past her, and then 2meters later BANG . i chase her and ask if she's oke, I didn't feel very helpful though, she was late for work and on the way probably fell and twisted her ankle, she was about 50meters away from work (Armany Exchange), i just walk beside her and talk to her, felt kinda stoopid not helping her, but i didn't know what to do!

And then, then I met up with M and agitated her, she agitated me back by whipping out a ciggy. damn i hate it when she smokes. I'm gonna see her again, and then maybe not for a while. I don't know!

WE WENT SUNRISE CREW! wahahahah! AWESOME! LOVEDDDD IT! heres a peak!
Love you guys! It was awesome sharing the morning with ya's, chilling with ya's from 4:45am til 8:45am! Again AGAIN!!! PLEASEEE! you guys are my relief! ;)